It had been a few days since I let camp, I didn’t want to show my face around Bellamy’s camp. I was ashamed how could I be so stupid? I left Octavia and I basically told her I’d rather be with Lexa when Lexa doesn’t want to be with me. There was no doubt in my mind that I was gonna die out here. Sure I was a good fighter but that’s not what keeps you alive out here. I was currently propped up against a giant tree that towered over me, “Y/N!” I heard several voices come out, I recognized one of those voices. It was Lexa she was looking for me? I couldn’t even bare the thought of making eye contact with her. So I did what I do best and I ran, as fast as I could. Usually if we were looking for a grounder who had gone missing the cut off time would be a day, and here I was gone for three. Knowing Lexa she probably wanted to put me in my place, I disrespected her in front of everyone. She could not let that go without people questioning her leadership. I ran until I couldn’t hear the voices anymore, I was out of breath. “Y/N?” I heard and I looked up, “Octavia?” I said straightening myself up. “What are you doing?” She asked noticing I was clearly not in the best state. “I really fucked up O.” I said, tears threatening to spill from my eyes. I can’t even remember the last time I cried, Lexa said it was a sign of weakness. Octavia wrapped her arms around me, it was so good to see her. “I’m so sorry.” I cried out, it was muffled by her jacket. “It’s okay, it’s gonna be fine. You need to tell me what happened.” She said pulling away, I took a deep breath as I collected myself. I explained to her everything from me falling in love with Lexa to me storming out of their camp. “I’ll talk to Bell he’ll listen to me, you can come back.” She said, “I don’t know O, he was really pissed at me.” I told her, “He was just upset that you left. He’s moved on.” She said, “Come with me.” She said taking my hand in hers and leading me into their camp. I obviously didn’t look the same, the war paint I had on was smudged all over my face. “What the hell is she doing here?” I heard a voice boom, “Bell listen!” Octavia said to her brother, “She’s come back.” Octavia said. “Come back? No no no. You can’t just come back!” Bellamy said now talking to me, “Bell she’s my best friend.” Octavia tried to reason, Bellamy sucked in a deep breath. “If she’s not a threat then she will be treated just like the others.” Bellamy said storming away from us, “He’s over it, huh?” I said to Octavia and she shrugged. It had been quite a while and It was as though I never left. Bellamy definitely lied about me being treated like everyone else, he didn’t make me work as hard or do as much. I just did that on my own, I needed to keep my mind off of Lexa. “Hey Y/N I think you’re gonna want to go somewhere.” Clarke said to me, I was confused. Clarke and I had grown close over the time and she knew about my feelings for Lexa. “Why? Is something wrong?” I ask curiously, “Wel-” she started but she was cut off by Bellamy, “They’re here!” Bellamy shouted, I look at Clarke. She just gives me an apologetic smile as Lexa and a few grounders stroll into camp. “What’s going on?” I ask avoiding being seen by Lexa. “We all need to survive and nobody will if we keep killing each other.” Clarke explained, before Bellamy called her over. “Great.” I said to myself as I stayed out of sight. You know what? No. I’m not hiding, she can do whatever she wants but I’m sick of running. I stepped out and our eyes immediately met, she was definitely surprised to see me. She probably thought I was dead by now, our eyes were broken when Bellamy gestured toward the dropship to discuss further business. I continued on with my work not wanting Lexa to cross my mind, but that definitely wasn’t working. I glanced at the dropship every few minutes, after a little while of not looking someone tapped my shoulder. “Y/N.” Clarke said, “What’s the matter?” I ask, I could tell something was wrong. “I need you to come with me.” She said and my heart sunk, I was confused. She wanted me to go into the dropship that she just told me to hide from? “Clarke what’s going on?” I said more seriously, “Y/N please?” She said and I nodded and I followed her. As soon as I stepped inside Lexa’s eyes studied me, she didn’t even try to hide it. “What’s going on?” I ask, “Well the Commander here says that they won’t agree to a treaty until we give her something.” Bellamy said, “What does that have to do with me?” I ask curiously, “You’re the something she wants.” Bellamy said and my eyes snapped to Lexa, “What? That’s ridiculous!” I said, “If you fail to provide the necessary conditions for me then me and my people will slaughter yours.” Lexa said coldly. “Bellamy we can’t let her go!” Clarke said and just then Octavia came bursting in, “You son of a bitch!” She said slapping her brother across the face. “Clarke he had this planned out, he knew what the Commander wanted! He lead them right to her!” Octavia shouted but Lexa did not seemed fazed one bit. “Is this going to be a problem?” Lexa asked Bellamy, “No.” I spoke up, “What?” Octavia said looking at me, “You can’t go with them! They’ll kill you.” Octavia said grabbing my hands. “If I don’t they’ll kill all of you.” I said, tears were streaming down her face. “I’m not letting you do this!” Octavia said pulling me into a hug, I couldn’t hold back my tears. “Bellamy take her out of here.” I said Bellamy and Octavia pulled away and she looked at me. “No!” She screamed and I looked at Bellamy and he nodded at me as he grabbed his sister. She was kicking and screaming but he got her away from this. I knew she would’ve done something stupid and would’ve gotten herself killed. “Y/N you don’t have to do this.” Clarke whispered to me, “I do.” I told her and she nodded before hugging me, “I will willingly go with you, in return you won’t kill any of the Sky people.” I said and Lexa nodded, “You have my word.” Lexa added. “Thank you.” Clarke said to me and I smiled at her. We all exited the Drop ship and there was Bellamy holding back a sobbing Octavia along with everyone who gathered, “You should all be great full. Y/N is sacrificing herself for all of you.” Lexa said as the grounders grabbed me to ensure I wouldn’t run. We left camp and I watched Lexa lead the two grounders that were holding onto both of my arms back to their camp. They dragged me into the room that held Lexa’s throne, I was forced on my knees. “Leave us!” Lexa ordered and they did. She turned to face me as she sat down in her throne, she looked me up and down. “If you’re going to kill me just do it, Lexa.” I muttered and she raised a brow. “You think I want to kill you?” She said as if i offended her, she stood up and took big strides over to me. She bent down on one knee and cupped my face. “I could never. All I want to do is protect you.” She said bluntly, Lexa was never one to be around the bush. “You don’t want me, Lexa.” I said standing up, leaving her to let out a huff before standing up. She was taller than I was so she seemed intimidating, but nothing could really scare me anymore. “You’re the only thing I want.” She said, her eyes staring into mine. “You didn’t want me before.” I said not breaking the eye contact, “I’ve always wanted you.” She stated, she stepped forward and leaned to kiss me but I stepped away. “Last time you said that was a mistake.” I reminded her, “None of it was a mistake, Y/N. I’m not supposed to love and yet I do. I’m terrified.” She admitted and that was the first time I had ever heard Lexa say she was afraid of anything. When I didn’t say anything she turned away from me, “So you don’t feel as I do.” She stated, “Lexa I’ve always been in love with you, it was always you but you never saw it.” I explained and she turned to face me, “There is no way to excuse my actions. There is no way for me to fix them, I only hope that you will find a way to forgive me. I am completely in love with you, Y/N. I just hope I didn’t screw everything up between the two of us.” Lexa said, he face was the hard expression that it always was. “When you left I was in hell. I thought you were dead, I didn’t think I was going to be able to go on.” She added, she was going to say more but I shut her up by pressing my lips to hers. Lexa could stab me in the heart and my love for her would never stop. Tears fell down my face as our lips moved against one another. “Lexa.” I mumbled breaking away from the kiss. “I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you, I swear.” She promised and there was no doubt in my mind that she was telling the truth. “You don’t know how long I’ve waited for you to say that you loved me.” I admitted, she just pressed her lips to mine once again. This time I wrapped my around her neck and her hands found my waist. I was so afraid that she was going to tell me tang this was all a mistake just like before. But that thought quickly faded when she pulled me flush against her. Lexa started fumbling with my clothes, she was obviously nervous which was a rare state for Lexa. I ran my fingers through Lexa’s hair as she rid me of my shirt, by the time she was done I was left in just a my bra and panties. She stared at my body and I felt my face heat up, I used my arms and I covered myself as much as possible. She cocked her head to the side, “Don’t do that. I’m just admiring.” She said taking both of my hands in hers as she leaned forward and kissed my collar bone, sucking it. That must’ve hit a nerve because I couldn’t help but let a moan of her name fall from my lips, her eyes snapped to mine. Her green eyes being more prominent against the black pain on her face. “Say that again.” She said and that caused me to become wetter than I already was. I mean come on I was standing almost naked in front of Lexa and she was telling me to moan her name. “Lexa.” I moaned tipping my head back, I heard a scuffle and I opened my eyes and Lexa was on her knees before me. She placed both of her hands on my hips and pushed me flush against the wall. Lexa looked up at me as she pulled my panties down, painfully slow might I add. “Lexa please.” I whispered and that must’ve triggered something because as soon as my panties were off Lexa’s had one of my legs on her shoulder and the other was holding me up. Her lips were dangerously close to where I needed her the most and she definitely knew that. She fanned her breath of my throbbing clit, her hands were still in mine. She finally after what seemed like an eternity brought her lips to my clit, “oh my god!” I whimpered at the feeling, sure Bellamy and I were intimate but this time was different. I always knew that I wasn’t giving my all to Bellamy and now I knew that I was giving my all to Lexa. I bucked my hips forward and I felt her smirk against my skin, she moved her tongue back and forth over my clit before thrusting it into my pussy. She moved her tongue as fast as she could, I was already built up from just the looks she gave me. I ground my hips against her face, my hands squeezing hers tightly. “Lexa! Oh fuck.” I moaned out, Lexa moaned against my pussy sending vibrations to it. My nails dug into her hand as I came, I was by no means quiet. “Lexa.” I whimpered as she kept going, Licking up every drop of cum. “Commander?” We heard from the other side of the door, “Give me a moment.” Lexa stated, I was breathless as I grabbed my clothes and threw them on. I went to leave, I didn’t think she’d want me in there while she had to conduct her business. She grabbed my hand, “Go to my tent, I’m not finished with you.” Lexa said licking her lips as she stared into my eyes, all I could do was nod. Lexa opened the door and in came a few people I didn’t recognize, but it wasn’t my business so I just kept walking towards Lexa’s tent. I thought someone was following me but I shrugged it off until someone covered my mouth from behind. I tried to scream but it was muffled, I tried to get away but whomever this was is much stronger than I. The person wrapped their arm around me and dragged me away, the person dragged me away from Lexa’s tent. Not out of camp but far enough away so nobody could see or hear me. Finally I was thrown to the ground, and a kick was delivered to my stomach knocking the wind out of me. I clutched my stomach as I tried to stand, just then I realized that it was not just one grounder but three. “What are you doing?” I demanded, “You see sweetheart, the commander seems to have a soft spot for you. Which is not so good, if anyone of us would’ve disrespected the commander the way you have we’d be dead. But you aren’t and just don’t think that’s fair.” The grounder who kicked me explained, “Then kill me! Get it over with you coward!” I shouted, “No no. We aren’t going to kill you, just punish.” Another one explained and then it just became a blur of punches and kicks. I tried to fight back but they had me out numbered, I don’t know how long this went on for. They left me there, I was pretty sure I wasn’t going to make it judging by the amount of blood that surrounded me. But I definitely wasn’t going to die out here, Lexa wouldn’t just lay here and die and neither was I. I pulled myself to my feet, crying out in pain as I started back to camp. Each step was as though each bone in my body was breaking over and over again. I finally saw the clearing and I let out a sigh of relief, I wasn’t going to be able to walk much further. I stumbled out of the woods and I saw Lexa walking towards her tent, nobody had seen me yet. “L-Lexa!” I called out as loudly as I could which wasn’t very loud at all but it caught her attention. “Y/N?” She said and I fell into her arms and I just blacked out.
