I could already tell yesterday that my period was trying to start. I woke up this morning feeling TERRIBLE and the morning quickly went downhill from there.
I complained about not feeling good/my period starting and said “these are the days I miss easy breakfasts. I think I’d even eat cereal this morning if I could just cuz it’d be easy.” (I have dietary restrictions but didn’t even like cereal before that anyway.) I wasn’t really trying to sneaky-ask, but I was still upset when my husband just left to play his videogame without even really any pity, let alone an offer to get things out for me/clean the pan/something. I almost cried just thinking about making my usual egg scramble thingy- having to slice the mushrooms and dig out all the different things and such- so I switched to fried eggs and pan-heated frozen sausage. I didn’t even want greasy food like that, but it was far fewer steps and my adhd gets AWFUL around my period.
While eating, my husband got off his game to come make his lunch. He made a comment about the sausage and when I said why he said, “you could have just skipped the mushrooms, nothing else requires chopping.” He seemed confused when I said “It was still too many steps.” He then asked which tea I made this morning. I said “just the regular [bagged] english breakfast.” He then wanted to know why I hadn’t made “fancy” (loose-leaf) tea. I think things finally started sinking in for him when I just shook my head and said “too much work”.
He then asked if I took my birth control last night because he didn’t remember handing it to me. My answer was “probably not then”. We discovered, when he got it out for me, that I hadn’t taken it in two days. I took them. I finished eating. I cried. While crying I tried to find the link to today’s PD. I cried more because I couldn’t find it and that was just another thing I was going to have to Handle this morning. I did find the part of the email though that said attire was still jeans and spirit shirt. I cried the whole time I was getting dressed.
All this... and the PD hasn’t even started yet. A whole day of meetings hasn’t even started yet and this has been my morning. The only good news is the PD links were much more easily found on the computer than my phone. And I’m (currently) not crying anymore....
