whine whine sorry i need to complain for a sec
i started running again because i missed it a lot, but
the effects of running again are starting to hit me and it's a little frustrating
i am literally hungry forever and it's just so obnoxious
i used to be used to this in middle/high school, to the point where i could tell if it was legit, "i need food" hungry, or if it was just "food would be nice" hungry, and could react accordingly. but now it's just all hunger and i don't know what to do with myself
also back then i was in school, away from food, most of the day, and my mind was on other things, so i could easily get my mind off of hunger
also also i didn't have digestive issues, glares at dairy
and now theres just lactose containing snacks and things left and i keep delving into them because of the hunger but i know i really shouldn't, and then i feel like shit because of all the bloating and gas. and because most of what's left is shitty junk food. not even the good junk food, the kind that you actually don't want and are just eating because it's there even tho you don't really like it.
i don't know how to get it to stop, tea doesn't help, water doesn't, eating the shitty junk food doesn't, eating dinner doesn't, it's just this ever present hunger that won't leave me alone :///
would eating meal replacement bars help. or maybe those meal replacement shakes or whatever, except i think those have lactose. i'm half tempted to get appetite suppressors but like. i feel that would be a bad idea with all the running and exercise
fucking body doing things that i'm not used to whine flail