Memorial to Mom
Been having a lot of Deep Art Thoughts (tm) about how to honor my Mom's artistic legacy.
1. Picture of the composition as I remember her discussing it. One of the reasons this piece was never finished is that Mom, herself was struggling to finalize the composition. I always loved this piece despite the awkward composition.
2. I attempted to envision how I would change the composition to make it my own. The biggest change would be making the circle a hexagon instead then using the triangles as the 6 components of time to be explored. This is also where I started to determine what studies I need to do to perfect some design elements.
3. I broke down all the skills I need to complete the painting. It has been years since I have painted on canvas so some of this is basic color studies and paintbrush work.
4. There is an amazing glass artist on youtube and other socials who creates skill trees to define clear steps to achieve her creative goals. So I decided to make a skill tree.
It is daunting and difficult to try to complete her work because the imposter syndrome is real. I can never be my mom. The art piece will never look the way she would have painted it. She was a much more experienced and practiced artist than I am. I am scared of failing to honor her. Either by not completing the piece or by not doing a good enough job.
My mom would have encouraged me to do it anyway. The only way to get better at art is to do it. Still, I am stuck in thinking mode for now. I still cry too much when I pick up a paintbrush, but I can imagine how I am going to approach this piece.
Grief is hard. I want to do this but it also makes me sad.
