#concealedinarmourpersonal

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I look back at when I thought I loved someone or thought I was "in love", and think shit I was silly! Never more than ever, have I felt the way I do about anyone like I feel about you. This is crazy, like, you make me feel crazy. It's only been a few months but now I can quite clearly understand when people have been together for so short but just know it's the right person to jump into life with.. I usually am a little concerned about the too-soons and as if they're in-love etc. But kid, you make me like one of those people. I feel like you're my person and that scares me because I don't want it to end. Ah what is my heart doing 😍❤

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I hate when I have to say goodbye to you.. my chest actually gets so tight, I kind of feel sick and I'm just sad that you're leaving. I'll see you in a few days again, but the pain is so real I struggle to let you leave.

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I have made the right decision for me.

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Feeling like I can't sleep but when I do I have crazy dreams. For example: - Massive T-Rex at my house trying to get me whilst I'm trying to climb up a hill on our property, then actually gets me and I'm his mouth. I'm the only one struggling to get up the hill and in slow motion. - Scuba diving in the ocean and sharks are trying to catch me, find something in the water and getting chased after for it by sharks, humans or sharkhumans. Getting speared or something. Somewhat hazy one, not all details remembered. - At baseball for a fundraiser, some kid blows up a mini plane/part of a building, dead bodies everywhere or parts of people, random hands and feet, luggage etc. Go searching for the murderer. All can be linked back to watching Jurassic World, some other scuba/drug movie and then watching documentaries on the flight MH-17 or whatever. What will come next?..

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I'm not ignoring you.. I'm ignoring everyone so that I can try get my thoughts together and organise myself. I'm sorry if that's harsh and stupid but I need to suss my thoughts and make sure I make decisions for me and not be influenced by others. Silly issues, and thinking about everything.

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I would like if we actually spoke properly soon, I really miss you and this is all so frustrating.

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I miss you.

*sadface*

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If only you could read my mind so then I wouldn't be typing stupid amounts of text just to delete it all because I can't explain myself properly.