Persona 5 is a game I think I would have a full blown meltdown playing. I'm so bad at games like that. I own Octopath Traveller for the Switch, Bravely Default for the 3DS. I could never finish either of them. They were simply much too difficult. And Watchung playthroughs of Persona, I just know it's the kind of game that'd have me suffering constant meltdowns over one thing or another. But I enjoyed watching playthroughs of the games years ago. It weirdly introduced me to the concepts of Carl Jung and of Gnosticism. The collective unconscious as a concept was probably introduced to me there, too. There's something pseudo philosophical about it all, and I think I liked that. I also liked the mysticism of the tarot cards. I don't really know if I believe in any of that supernatural stuff, but I can admit that it's interesting to learn about how people interpret it.
I still like the soundtracks for some of these games. Weirdly, i suppose it does a lot to help me learn about japanese music. I think…I think french and japanese are the two languages whose music I hear most outside of english. So although I still don't understand much of the languages, I can appreciate some of their music. That's a random little aside, but I'm bored sitting in college right now and I want to ramble about things as a cure for boredom.
Personas 3, 4 and 5 were set in a college, right? If so, they severely undersell how miserable college is. How it's so different from high school that you begin to feel miserable constantly. I miss High School so much, as I've been making plain for nearly a whole year now. I wish I could go back, but alas…it seems like that's no longer an option. I wish it were, though. I really wish it were.
I haven't seen a playthrough of persona in years. I think the games endings always disappointed me, because it ends with death or characters moving on or things changing. And as much as I know it's a good moral, change is not something I can handle in my fiction. I don't want change. Change in real life makes me miserable and feel depressed. I just can't handle it. I can't. So I never felt satisfied with the games endings. I could probably find other nitpicks too, now that I've been distant from the games for ages.
The last time I saw a persona thing was around 2017, I think. I saw a full length playthrough of the original persona 5. This was before my old tablet began dying, mind you. When my old tablet died in 2022 (same year my mom also died), I finally lost touch with video game let's play youtube channels. I'd had a ton of those in my watch history prior to 2022, but that chapter feels like it's been on a long term break ever since that old tablet died. So yeah, let's plays are almost a dead medium to me now.
I never saw a playthrough of Persona 5 Royal, mind you. I only saw the base game. And being a person prone to strong biases and hastily formed opinions, I basically despite everything about the new story elements added in Persona 5 Royal. I basically refuse to ever acknowledge it as fact, and I've done the equivalent of shoving my head in the sand and refusing to acknowledge it. Amazingly, it works pretty well. I have never once had to overcome this opposition.
I smell food now. Great. There's food smells wafting down the hallways in the college now. I may have to move soon because of this. Otherwise I could get overwhelmed and have a full blown meltdown. Gods freaking damn it. Damn it. I guess I'm gonna have to move soon, but my second class doesn't begin until an hour from now. So we're not done here. I'm gonna keep writing for now. But before I continue, I'm gonna go downstairs and move my sitting spot.
Okay, my second classroom is open. Class doesn't begin for an hour still, but I think I'll just sit in here now. At least there's no food smells here now. So I think I'm just gonna stay in here for now. My dad's gonna go to the college library to ask about turning my notes into a book again, I think. I don't know if I'll continue this note about persona much longer, since it's getting kind of hard to keep it up. But I think there's a few last things to say.
I still refuse to acknowledge Persona 5 Royal, and I don't think I'll ever acknowledge it. I don't think I'll ever play Persona myself, although I've done my own skimming searches for the terms I learned about while watching playthroughs of the games. And although I haven't actually had a massive, all consuming hyperfixation on persona since maybe 2018 or so, there is still a part of me that remembers it and revisits it by looking up fanfiction or old blogs about it or what have you. It's still got a weird place in my heart, I guess you'd say.
