#concussion 2014

[loisandclark]

So many options, so many outcomes. So very overwhelming.

[loisandclark]

This decision grows clearer in my mind....but nothing is in place. The best and worst part is that my parents are giving me free rein-it is completely up to me.

[loisandclark]

I have some kind of appointment scheduled Monday. Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday.....what the heck.

[loisandclark]

This is a secret I'm going to take with me to the grave....or rather, with my ashes.

[loisandclark]

Christmas is the time of miracles, or so I've heard. Personally, I've never really believed in that sort of stuff, romanticized nonsense the whole lot of it. But....

If there ever was a time when I needed a miracle, then it would be for Wednesday. I've tried and tried and we've tried and tried but nothing is getting through. For this Christmas, that is my only wish.

[loisandclark]

The first snowfall makes me so happy! A lot of things are going right today- I got refunded the $70 that my PNC bank owed me, there are lots of people coming over today, I finished almost all my work for school, Christmas presents are being ordered and I can't wait to give it to my friends, I'm probably going back to India- so many things are still uncertain but Nature reminds me to hold on to the little moments of joy, things you can fall back on during the moments of despair.

[loisandclark]

They say that to gain something, we must lose something. It's up to you to weigh the gains against the losses and think, 'I'm losing a lot when I make this decision, and maybe what I'm gaining can't make up for that loss....but perhaps what I gain can help me recover from my loss'.

[loisandclark]

Everything happens for a reason. I just need to figure out what that reason is.