i can’t help but think my trauma has left me damaged permanently. i know there’s no returning to the old times after trauma but it’s almost 2 am and i’m still up because my brain won’t shut up and i don’t know what to do, i don’t know, i won’t ever be everything i need to be and other people want me to be and it all feels so hopeless
Honestly, since i’ve experienced quite some trauma I can tell you that my trauma’s have affected me permanently. But affected does not mean damaged. I think a lot to, not about the trauma but about pretty much anything else. My psychologist calls it a coping mechanism. Sometimes when you get traumatized your brain rewires itself which causes you to feel and think and react different then others. This is done to protect yourself, not harm yourself all tough the results can have issues later on at the time it was the best strategy your body had. I personally write a little before going to bed. And then when I close my eyes and my thoughts wont stop I start describing something random in my head, like perhaps the ideal tiny home. Something you can really focus your thoughts on, without having to think to hard about it. hopefully these tips can help you. All tough I strongly recommend trauma survivors to go see a therapist.-Admin K