some of my successes w the law♡
a non-exhaustive list, in no particular order.....
this is quite a long entry cause i like to give detail! i divided into subheadings though!
☆☆☆FRIENDSHIPS☆☆☆
At the time, I was living in Europe. I had just moved there (by myself) from the States and wanted to make some friends. Europe, naturally, is very white. But I'm not, and I wanted friends who I could actually relate to on a deeper level. Rather than thinking about how challenging it was going to be to meet the type of people I desired, or to meet people in general, I just used my imagination. I did affirmations and scripting. Before bed I would just script about how I was so grateful for the black friends that I met in my new city. I'd also do some affirmations, just whenever I thought about it.
Around a month later, me and this girl who I knew through a group chat both happened to be traveling to the same city on the same weekend. We met for drinks and went out and had so much fun! She ended up inviting me on a trip to another country a few months later and we had soooo much fun on that too! I especially loved this because a common issue I previously had in my friendships was feeling like I had to initiate everything with people, but she invited me on the trip! Also, she happened to move to my home city after we both left europe so we're now still friends, which is more than I even asked for or expected! (bc i had just been scripting for friends during my time in europe).
Additionally, a few months after my initial deciding to channel some friendships, I went to a random party and I met this black girl there! (usually i was the only one lmao). We talked at the party and ended up going out for food and drinks shortly after. She ended up being a friend that connected me to an entire group of poc friends that she knew through university. Guys, we had so much fun - we'd do dinners and birthdays and trips and beach hangs together! This was also more than I ever expected or asked for, a whole friend group vs individual friends and also they were sooo cool. We were such a diverse group from a variety of countries like france and the uk and it was also so cool to get to connect w people from different facets of the black diaspora. They were all so friendly and welcoming and cool and I learned so much from them. We're quite far apart now and don't talk as often since I've moved again, but I will always hold dear the memories we shared together :,)).
I had a ~moment~ bc me and my friend group took a trip to a specific city together. Last time I was in that city, I was thinking and wishing about how I wanted friends. And when I went back to that city, I was in the exact same spots, but with my friends! Honestly ethereal moments like that are some of my favorite parts of conscious creation.
☆☆☆INTIMATE CONNECTIONS☆☆☆
One weekend I took a solo trip to Berlin. I was staying at a hostel, and if you've ever stayed in hostels before you know its kind of a social environment. There was this cute guy who was also staying at my hostel; he was black and british and handsome -- he caught my eye ;). What can I say, I'm a sucker for an accent. The first night at the bars, we didn't really interact tbh, and I went home early that night anyways.
The next day, I had planned to do some walking, exploring, sightseeing, as one does. I was at this museum, just browsing, minding my business. After I was done looking at the stuff in the museum, I actually sat in this basement lounge they had there for like an hour talking to my mom on the phone. After I got off the phone, I got off the couch and went to the bathroom. Imagine my surprise when I exit the bathroom and I run right into the guy as he was about to go into the men's! Y'all, the timing that had to happen for us to run into each other like this, in this big ass city, was insane. We had a cute little convo outside the bathroom, I was looking deeply into his eyes just for fun and I was def feeling a vibe! After our quick little convo we parted ways. Before, I was just kinda like 'oh cute guy at my hostel', but after we ran into each other like that I was like...this must be a sign from the universe that this is my man! lolllll
I lowkey kicked myself after the bathroom encounter bc I was like damn I could have asked if he wanted to link up for the day but it didn't even cross my mind! But then I was like wait - I could just imagine.
So here and there I imagined myself in the uber on sunday (the next day), heading to the train station, knowing that I left Berlin having hooked up with him the previous night. Feelings of lightness, satisfaction, sensuality, etc. I just did this throughout the day when I thought of it, and in some brief flashes in the nap I happened to take before going out that night.
So like I said, I was staying at a hostel, and they will organize events like bar crawls and such, either officially or groups of people making their plans on their own with other people welcome to join. I think saw my guy downstairs, but we ended up splitting in two groups to head to the bars and he wasn't in mine. So at this point, I didn't even know if we were going to end up at the same place or not. My group gets to the bar, and I'm just talking to some friends I made that weekend. Eventually he came! He was across the room talking to some other people and I was in my own little group. He was over there for awhile but I did not approach him, bc honestly.... I just don't approach men, and not cause I'm nervous but bc I'm hot and I think it's just... unbecoming behavior lmao but I digress. Eventually, he made his way to me, and he started a conversation with me! We were nestled into in this little doorway that didn't lead to anywhere so we were close and facing each other and it was so cute. Then we ended up migrating to this window bench. And we just got lost in conversation...it was so cute and we had interesting conversation and we had some banter going on....I always thought it was a cliche when people say things like everything else fades away but that actually happened! The window bench we were seated at was literally right next to the front door and the ENTIRE group of people we had came with had left and we didn't even notice lmaooo!
To make a long story short, we left the bar, we got some food, we went to the club, was making out and getting a lil nasty at the club hehe then we got a hotel and we fucked. The sex was kinda complicated for reasons but it was still quite a fun experience. He paid for everything ofc (food, ubers, hotel, etc.). And on our way to the hotel we were riding on one of those electric scooters and there was no one outside bc it was like 4am so we were just zooming down the street and laughing and being silly. It's such a fun chaotic memory for me hahah.
So yea, long story short I lived out the exact thing I imagined, leaving the city the next day, gazing out the window, thinking about how I had hooked up w my man ;))
**lowkey am playing around w the idea of imagining a dinner date w him in my city just for fun even tho we're on two diff continents now hahah**
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Last year I had my first wlw situationship...if you know you know lmao. We did not initially meet with the intention of anything serious coming from it due to reasons. But we ended up both really liking each other. Some months in, we had a more serious 'what are we doing' conversation. At the end of the conversation, we decided to part ways. Y'all, it was so dramatic, we lowkey caused a scene in public and cried together afterwards...have u ever had a "breakup" with someone you were never even actually with? Anyways....
To elaborate a little, I know how we can use imagination (obv), but going into that conversation I didn't even know what I really wanted, so I didn't really imagine anything specific beforehand. At that point in my life there were benefits to both being single or deciding to try a relationship so I was kinda just open to whatever outcome may happen. However, some of the reasons she mentioned were actually kinda whack and made me mad when I'd think about it lmao.
Just because I wasn't settled on a specific outcome that I wanted before our conversation, doesn't mean that it didn't hurt to experience the end of things. Also, I am a chronic over thinker. So I was sad for a few weeks, and also constantly thinking about it. To the point where it annoyed me. At some point probably a few months later, I started thinking about it again while I was folding laundry, and I was finally like "no. enough. you have thought about this enough -- she realized that her reasons for not pursuing me weren't valid, and she regrets letting me go". I honestly wasn't even doing this to 'manifest' but just because I was tired of thinking about the situation! Whenever thoughts about it would come up again, I would just repeat that phrase and shift my mind to something else.
Anyways, it was over, or so I thought. I just moved on with my life. Imagine my surprise when I open insta one day and see a post from her. Her first post in literal years, mind you, with the first pic being a pic I took of her on this date we had, and the song being what could be considered one of 'our songs'. I just liked it and moved on with my day lmaoooo. Some months later, I randomly decided to organize my spotify. While I was doing that, I noticed a playlist we used to collaborate on had another song added to it. For reference, at this point it was close to a year since we had had any form of communication. So, naturally, I listen to the song. And the lyrics are basically a first person pov talking about regretting losing me, being willing to do anything even travel through space and time for that person, being in endless love with me. It was insane lmaooo l had to immediately text my best friend to discuss. Now it's been over a year since we were last together and she's STILL adding songs. Honestly, I never thought of myself as someone who could capture people's attention like that, and to be so special to have someone still pining over a year later with no contact at all....but honestly it makes sense HAHAH. I'm curious to see how this one will develop in the future cause I think she's kinda obsessed with me....
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I had this affirmation I used to do (still do sometimes) that went like "I don't need dating apps to meet people. I meet intimate and romantic connections in person, even pretty girls (especially pretty girls)". I did this cause as we know the apps suck and I was like hey, in a universe of infinite possibilities, I don't need these to meet people. And I added the part about pretty girls because queer dynamics can be a lil difficult to navigate sometimes and I wanted to be sure to emphasize that it wasn't just guys I was meeting in public, but girls too, because that's what I prefer anyways.
☆ I ended up meeting this girl on a night out, who was just my type, a type that wasn't common in the country I was living in at the time. We danced together that night and she asked me for my insta. We ended up talking and I invited her on a date. It was SO CUTE, maybe even one of the best first dates I've ever been on. We met at the restaurant I choose for food and drinks, but nothing after that was planned. We ended up walking to the beach, hopping over these rocks and sitting out on the water. We watched the night fall as we were out on the rocks while we talked and sat together. We made out on the water and we even saw a shooting star! The vibes were immaculate.
After that first date, we hung out a few more times and also hooked up a few times. Unfortunately I didn't end up liking her and she turned out to be kinda crazy HAHAH but we did indeed meet in person just like I said and I'm grateful for the experience nonetheless.
☆ I was walking down the street heading somewhere by myself when out of nowhere this guy stops me and asked me for directions. He was a cutie! I was kind of confused at first bc we were talking in my second language and he had a slight accent but we figured it out eventually hahah and I was able to help him. There was a festival going on in the city so there were lots of people from out of town, him being one of them. At the end of our convo he got my whatsapp and we ended up meeting up later that day. We went on a lil date, he paid and didn't ask me to split (sometimes with guys from his culture its more common to split the bill but luckily I didn't have to deal w that). He also really wanted to buy me something so I let him get me a little trinket then we ended up hanging on the beach together and making out a little bit. Eventually at the end of the night he walked me back to my apartment. I could have hooked up w him if I wanted to but I wasn't in the mood. Just kept it cute hahah but I think this is an example that goes to show yes, people can literally come up to you out of nowhere and you don't have to do anything to make it happen.
☆☆☆PHYSICAL APPEARANCE☆☆☆
my skin is literally the clearest it's ever been in my life, expect maybe when I was a child lol. I used to struggle with breakouts n hyperpigmentation. I decided to apply the law. Whenever I was washing my face, I'd "feel" and "see" how smooth and clear it was. Also, I'd affirm "my skin is so smooth, so clear, so beautiful. I love my radiant skin" as I rubbed my face wash or whatever it was on. Or even just as I looked in the mirror. Eventually that was the actual, physical reality. Not only was my skin so clear, but my friends would constantly tell me how I'm glowing! One time a random little girl even asked me "porque tu piel brilla?", like genuinely confused, HAHAHAH
☆☆☆MENTAL HEALTH☆☆☆
Not to self diagnose but I think I've struggled with OCD on and off throughout my life. More on the thought and anxiety side vs the compulsion side, although I have dealt with compulsions before when I was a kid. This condition was unintentionally exacerbated when I went on birth control for the first time. I started getting horrible violent or sexual intrusive thoughts. I was constantly wracked with them to the point where it was debilitating. I was genuinely afraid to rest or go to sleep because I was afraid of what would pop up if my mind was 'idle'. Anytime I had a good or sweet moment an intrusive thought would pop up to ruin it (because I couldn't stop thinking about how I hope that doesn't happen...) It got so bad that I genuinely thought I deserved to die. It was such a low point. I didn't feel comfortable talking to or really have access to a therapist, but I committed to daily meditation sessions, cause I had to do something. It was so bad at first that I literally afraid to meditate and be alone with myself, I'd even cry (which hurt so bad because my mind used be my wonderful safe place and now it was so awful I couldn't even recognize it). At first I was afraid to do it with my eyes closed, so I'd do it with my eyes open. But I stayed consistent with it and it got easier. After my meditation sessions I would do affirmations over and over. For example, I rationally knew that intrusive thoughts fed on feelings of guilt and shame, so I'd repeat to myself how there was nothing I wouldn't forgive myself for, and that I know these thoughts don't represent who I really am. Or I'd affirm statements about how my mind is a safe place to be, I am safe inside my mind. Even when they felt like complete lies. Like I said, I stayed consistent with it and it got easier, and my condition improved to the point where I more or less felt normal again. Honestly I'm still not where I want to be in regards to this issue. Even though I got the BC removed, the thought patterns were accompanied by such intense anxiety and emotion that it left an imprint I think. But wayyyyyyy better than before. Work in progress.
Just to be clear, I am NOT suggesting that anyone with mental health issues should try to "manifest" themselves out of it. If you have help available to you, you should seek it. I'm just sharing what worked for me.
☆☆☆FOR OTHERS☆☆☆
☆My best friend was applying to a post-grad degree program. She didn't get in the first cycle and was super worried and always sharing her stresses with me, cause we're besties. Whenever she came to me with this stuff, I'd just 'affirm' how she was accepted this cycle, how I always knew it, how I never doubted that she would be successful, etc. I think I scripted once or twice too. Fast forward, she got acceptances to many programs, including the top one in the country! She ended up accepting a spot at a specific school I mentioned in one of my scripts!
☆My sibling is applying to college right now. I 'scripted' how they got accepted to a specific school with a big scholarship. A few days later, they tell me that got accepted at the school with a scholarship for something like 30 or 40k out of the 70k tuition. One thing about that though is that in my script, I wrote that they got accepted to both the school and a specific program within the school, and I think they got rejected from the specific program. But things are always subject to change I suppose. I'm including this one anyways despite that facet because this one happened fast and easily.
☆I was randomly thinking about how I wanted to spend more time with a certain family member. A few days later he invited me on an all expenses paid trip to this weekend event and we got some quality bonding time in!
☆☆☆MISC☆☆☆
getting my glasses fixed for free:
One day I left my glasses on my bed then I accidentally sat on them. The lenses were okay but the 'arms' were totally bent. It was so annoying bc I'm usually quite careful w my glasses, and the one time this happened was a few days after I moved to a new country and I had a shit ton of stuff to do... I wear contacts so I didn't need to get them fixed immediately. I finally got around to it a few months later. I had a few optica shops around my house so I just put my glasses in a case in my purse so I could pop into the shops and show them and see who could fix them. The first shop I went into, I showed the lady and she told me that she couldn't fix them. I wasn't pressed though, bc I knew that meant she wasn't the person for the job anyways. After she told me no, I just randomly searched other shops near me and headed to the second one.
The second shop I went into, I asked the lady about my glasses and she told me that she could try, but there was the risk that they may break as they tried to fix them due to the way the arms were bent. I said that was fine, then I went to go sit at one of the tables. While I was sitting there, I had a random thought - "what if they fixed my glasses for free?" My mind almost immediately goes "that would never happen" (she's such a hater sometimes). But I told myself, well, just imagine it to imagine it, just imagine it because it feels nice! So while I waited at the table I just closed my eyes and imagined+felt myself waling out the door of the shop, glasses successfully fixed, and pleased that it was free. I did this a few times, then I dropped it. Some minutes later, the lady came to get me and she had my glasses in her hand. They were able to fix them successfully! And then I asked her how much it would cost and she told me that they did it for free! Keep in mind, I was not a customer of this establishment, I was literally some rando who walked in off the street. And free things, in this economy?? Lmaooo I gave her my enthusiastic thanks then walked out feeling special and pleased just like I imagined!
symbolic:
When I learned about Neville Goddard and manifesting, I sat on the info for a bit then eventually decided to test it out. This was in end of 2022/start of 2023 I think? I decided to manifest a rubber duck with sunglasses, just because that was something random enough that I knew that if it happened, I couldn't chalk it up to coincidence. Tbh misunderstood some major points of the law and kinda failed. I say kinda because I saw some art of one online randomly, but I didn't find one in person like I intended. I obv continued and refined my practice but lowkey forgot about that? But when I was on that trip that I mentioned in the first section that my friend invited me on, I ran into a GIGANTIC rubber duck w sunglasses. It felt like a wink from my subconscious mind. It was also kinda poetic to me bc I initially failed, yet here I am with one that's larger than life while I'm currently living out so many manifestations (I was on a trip with a friendship I consciously created, a beautiful trip that I took while in the midst of one of my dreams of living abroad). So cute <3
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((throughout this post i have been referencing moving//living abroad... it was a beautiful dreamy experience that I also 'manifested' that using some particular methods, but that deserves it's own post that I'll get around to later))
PICS: i'm gonna include a pic of my best friend telling me she got into one of her top choice schools, a pic from my camera roll from berlin, and a pic of the rubber duckie so u guys know I'm not just yapping with nothing to back it up😋
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okay that's it, bye!