#cookiebearcat

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I won't do it. It's going to hurt

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October 6th 2024

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Why am I so good at lying to myself

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CW: nudity

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TW: death, religious trauma

We were talking about the rapture in church today

And its put me in a really bad mood. Because I remember when I first heard of the rapture

It made me think I deserved to die

And even though I don't think that now. I can't hear about it, and not feel bad about myself

I'm glad I don't think that anymore. But I wish it bother me so much

I see things a different way now. Including which religion I follow. Which is now much more ambiguous

Next week we'll talk about it again. And I really don't want to hear about it.

I've thought about maybe leaving and going to bathroom. And then coming back late. To skip most of it

But I don't really know what I'll do

I just really hate hearing about it

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Things I found in my pink rain jacket

I broke my last one

I don't want these. I'll throw them away

Bad pen.

Bad pencils

Drawings from 6th grade? I think that's when I last wore this jacket.

In school uniform

Donald!