its crucial to my enjoyment of the race that my guy flops and/or loses badly.........visible suffering, not winning, is what makes a race good........what is sports if not an opportunity to savor and eroticize the mundanity of defeat.......what is loss if not a many-layered sensory playground, beautifully complex where winning is shallow and hollow.........LOSS CAN BE SEXY AND IF I SAY IT ENOUGH TIMES IT MUST BECOME TRUE













