My cousin and I are sitting at her dinning room table. I'm on tumblr, per usual, and I find something that is extremely funny and clever. I show her (already a big mistake on my part) and she goes, "That's really gay."
I look at her with a confused glance. She then goes to say, "Well, not gay like that, I mean..."
I say, "What do you mean?"
She says, "I don't know, weird."
Me, "You could have said weird."
Her, "Well, I just couldn't find the right word."
My thoughts right now are everywhere. If you meant weird, you could have said weird. If you meant stupid, you could have said stupid. But if you cannot find the correct word you are thinking of, why not use gay!? I mean, gay is a word that has many meanings apparently. Gay means stupid, dumb, weird, best friends, having a deep conversation, watching chick flicks, sitting around and just talking, being close with someone, being a guy and taking good care of yourself, being a girl who dresses a little bit differently then the 'girl next door', and uh, hmmm, did I get everything? Oh! Right, it also means happy. Fucking HAPPY. Yes, I am aware in today's world, gay is also used for homosexuality, but the way that dumbfuck pathetic excuses for human beings use the word gay, is not the dictionary meaning or used referring to the term homosexual.
I'm probably not making any sense what so ever since I apparently need to 'relax' and not take it so personally. Since I'm a 'straight' girl who has no idea what it's like. Yes, I do identify myself as a straight woman, but I'm a very open minded straight woman. If I see a girl who could possible one day be my girlfriend and/or wife, I'm not going to freak out about it. People fall in love with personalities, not their dicks or vajayjays.
So I'm totally not surprised if not a single person reads this, but my feels are crazy and not sure if I'm being a little over dramatic, but being around my close minded homophobic family for as long as I put up with them can really take a toll on my patience.
I am going to stop here before I get ahead of myself (too late for that). Thank you for listening and if you feel the same, let me know! I need to know that I'm not the wrong one in this situation. Thanks and goodbye.