seen from China
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sometimes i think about how we were on our way to being happy and healthy together, and then he left me and fled my life
the last i heard of him he was slipping back into alcoholism, this time with a coke addiction. i’m not much better off though tbh i’m always shoving ket up my nose these days
is music that makes me feel like this good or bad? no wait, is feeling like this good or bad? no wait, are my feelings good or bad? no, wait, am i good or bad?
being native and an addict makes me sad. that’s what the government wants me to be :(
(re?)discovering my chemical romance
their music is so comforting and nostalgic, although i don’t remember why i know so much of it because i don’t remember being into them when they were big in my younger years
did yk that if you use addiction as a method of self harm eventually people will lose patience with you and stage an intervention?
relapsed pretty heavily yesterday, smoked 2 joints, probably about 2g of weed. not happy or proud, feeling quiet low about it. the temptation is the drown out the disappointment by smoking more but naturally that will lead to more disappointment and then smoking more to hide it, so begins the cycle
so instead, today i’ll try to sit with my discomfort and upset, maybe try to figure out why i felt so compelled to relapse yesterday
irl addiction? nah i’ll just make my sims do it instead 😎
went to a rave and only had 2-3 small hits of a joint. big win for me as usually i’m incredibly stoned at raves, but currently in the process of quitting weed :)
