As 2015 comes to a end in a few days and as usual my daughter will be my new years kiss. 😚 I've accepted a job out of state to move forward with my life not exactly what I had in mind but anything to put food on the table and clothes on our backs.itll be a few years till I come back and be with my loved ones but it's my time to leave and get my life back on track I've been through hell and back this year and I'm sure he'll is a bit tired of seeing me go through the crap I've gone through with dating a broke ass dude who never cared about shit but himself and was ashamed to be with me in public to being with someone who showed me what being in a relationship is and keeping it 50/50 even the random gifts it's rare for me to find a guy like that and I'm glad he's still in our lives.
Love is painful. I'll never understand why it takes so long to heal but I'm actually content after days of crying and thinking. I don't wanna be with anyone else but the one I actually fell hard for and he knows I'll be around waiting for him when he's ready to come back but in the mean time while most guys would go out and date or sleep with as many girls as possible I know I have a good man for sure his personality does tell me alot about him I probably sound stupid for sticking around but I'm faithful to one and he the one I wanna be with for the rest of my life.
My friends never come around no more or keep in touch much I struggle on my own and lived on the streets either way I appreciate them for being in my life at one point but since I've had my daughter nothing been the same I don't party, drink, smoke, do drugs NONE of that lol but having a kid distance yourself from friends you were always around and made me realize some were fake some never cared or a rare few actually sticks around.
Social media I think is a bit much but once we're a family again I'll be deleting everything but tumblr and changing my #.
My love for him is pretty strong and I never thought I'd love someone again after 2010.
Advice to ppl who always get hurt and hardly ever get treated like a queen make sure your dude income is more than 20g a year cause 80% of the time he gonna rely on you to pay for stuff I'd had my share of ridiculousness but my heart shattered 3x and I learned the very hard way.