“W-what do you mean-“ Tracy stutters out looking at Adian dumbfounded. He hasn’t even put down his school bag and is just standing in the door way of the dorm they share.
“You know exactly what I mean Tracy. We’re breaking up.” Adian reply’s rather impassively. “You and I both know you can’t handle me coming home late. Plus we don’t even see each other during the day, it’s only during night and your to incoherent to process it. This is for the best for both us. Let’s break up.”
“Y-you can’t be serious..” Tracy hurriedly put down his bag and rushes over to were Adian was standing and grabbed onto Adian’s hands. The shorter boy hands flinched away. His hands haven’t done that in-- “Okay your serious… your always serious.. But Adian please.. think this over.. Sleep on it please you can’t-“ Tears threatens to spell out of the emotional boy.
It pained Adian to see Tracy like this but he had to keep this up. “Tracy.” He starts calmly, “ I’m breaking up with you okay. You can stay here for tonight and can organize something with your friends in the morning. It’s weird haveing someone who you used date in your same living space.”
“Ya I get that… I’ll get my pjs from the bedroom so you can sleep in there with out getting weirded out..” Tracy lets go of Adian and walks out of the living room and to the bedroom that shared so many memories in their that all came rushing back to him all at once. He chocked back multiple sobs as he got undressed and dressed in his pjs. He exited the room and sat on the couch. The air heavy and thick that could be caught with a knife.
“A-Adian please don’t shut me out!” Tracy looks at him with tears running down his eyes and try’s his hardest to make eye contact with the other male. “Please don’t slam the door! Whatever this is we can ta talk about it okay?”
“No.” The other responds dryly and leaves the room, going to the bedroom. He wasn’t able to look at Tracy like that anymore. It pained him to much to know that he’s the cause of all that suffering. He just wants to hug the beloved person that he got to know and let in so close and just hold and never let go, but Adian would be lying if he didn’t know that would just be and always be a fantasy that he’ll dream.
The night went slow. Everytime on of the boys thing it’s been 10 minutes since they rolled over in their cushions it was really only 2 minutes. At some point the night flew and it was 7am on the spot Tracy already left the dorm half an hour go and Adian was dreading going to his classes that he shared with Tracy. Just plain wondering how he would react in public.
“Fking hell ..” Adian mutterd in his 7th glass of coffee that morning. He looked at his phone and got up from his chair. His lock screen witch was a stupid photo of Tracy when he wasn’t paying attention. The black haird male grabbed his school bag and decided to head out to his morning classes. As he enters the classroom and goes to his ussual seat in the back of the room and looks at the seat next to him. Adian sighs. By halfway through the boring lecture he relized Tracy never showed up. Where is he? Isn’t not like him to not show up..
Soon the rest of the day flew by. Not one class Adian shares with Tracy did the blue haird male show up. Adian cursed underneath his breath. An alarm shot off at his phone, it was titled “Go to bed dummy <3 it’s 3am” When did he- Adian checks any other alarms that Tracy might of put and he did, Random times. Some like at 5am saying either ‘go to bed’ or an ‘I love you’ some were ‘don’t forget to have a proper meal and not just monster’.
That was the last hit Adians walls could take. They fell, and crashed down hardly.
A sob escape Adians lips as he turned off his light and moved to his bed. He didn’t even bother changing out of his day clothes. He grabes the pillow that Tracy normally used and snuggled into it, soaking into the only physical essence of Tracy was here besides the billions of memories that cover everything in this dorm.
The messy accidents that happen in the kitchen when Tracy tires to help Adian with cooking or baking witch ends with both of them coverd in something. The lazy movie days when they weren’t busy from studies and just spending time with each other. The quite afternoons when they were both busy with school work and the only thing they can offer each other is just company.
Adian cried. He cried so hard. He misses Tracy so much as he rembers why and how in the world he fell in love with that green eyed dork. He’s bubbly personality, a total opposite of his quite and aloof one. His opmsimisstic personality and his presimsictic. The way he never gives up on himself or others when he has a perfect opportunity to do so. The power that drives him threw long days. The goal that drives him and his determination to reach it and go beyond it.
Hericimia eyed male knows he’s an idiot. He just letted go the most important person to him, but he can’t go back. Not when he’s nightmares are getting bad again. One day maybe the two males would meet and get together again. That day is not today and won’t be soon but alas one can hope.
heLlooo I hope you enjoy and if you found this on your dashboard hello and welcome <3 please take care of yourselves bestiee <33
and YEHH this is Oc writing I been needing to post it lmao
