#cp'25

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Layers

I love so differently today than I did 20 years ago.

I've learned more and more to react right away to things, less and less.

Does that make any fucking sense?

If it does, Then read along.

If it doesn't— Please Don't continue reading this because this isn't for you to continue to read.

My manner of loving someone today is getting through all of their layers and hugging their souls first.

Does that make any sense? Because same as before, if it doesn't make any fucking sense to you, please don't continue reading.

After the soul hug comes the hug to every single layer that exists within them, which could be complex because some people are way more layered than others.

After the hug to every layer And you are back at the shell of the person you have fallen in love with, you now have a person most people don't know and if you love this entire person that you see then this is a soul mate.

To be clear—a Soulmate for me and for this story is a soul you have encountered many times before over millennia and eons. Mostly lovers that we cross paths with in different eras with different lives and different names. The world evolves, the tribal structures evolve, but the light within the eyes that recognize one another always remain the same.

This is why some souls meet up young on this planet and live out their lives together. Because although it seemed so easy from an outsider's point a view, on the inside those two souls understand that getting to that point took lifetimes upon lifetimes of perfecting.

To my future wife: you remain my soulmate. Thank you for gifting me your love in this lifetime.

CP'25

12/31/25

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The Lit Little Path 👣

I asked God to let me son manage to get Carlos Alcaraz's signature because that's what he likes to do. He likes to run up to athletes and ask them for autographs. I've seen him get a rush from pushing thru a crowd with a sports ball and a sharpie in his hand and try and get autographs.

It was surreal. As if I truly was just the cameraman shooting footage of a path with glowing footprints that I keep watching my son step on and get him to places most don't ever get to.

I asked God to run into the phoenix at Penn Station. 2 days later she came out of the wall headed directly towards my direction. I had to blink twice to believe it until I nodded and whispered to myself: "Of course," because I was specific, again, in what I wanted and asked for.

My Christmas wish arrived in a beautifully wrapped perfect package.

It doesn't mean that I always get my wishes fulfilled and my dreams always come true, but when they do they seem magical and I hope they never ever stop happening, if I'm being honest.

CP'25

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Lavanderia

I know a girl That doesn't drink or smoke.

She's not on any medication at all, And never takes cheat days.

'If she's loyal to herself—She can be loyal to someone else,' I think.

Three times a week she walks five (5) blocks with two (2) large laundry bags full of clothes, one in each hand. Sure, she likes a clean home, but she also gets great exercise and mental stability from a little routine.

She cooks all her meals Answers emails Makes calls Keeps her appointments in order.

She dines out twice a month—once for a good Sunday Brunch in SoHo and once on a random Thursday evening for dinner in Greenpoint or DUMBO.

She frequently reads through 2 books per week Writes daily Exercises every morning.

Twice a week we take a buggy ride and chat. It's only about books we've read Ideas we've discovered And kisses.

CP'25

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Arm Bar

When life challenges you Make bigger strides.

Put the devices down Whether your Eight or Twenty-five.

Do a pushup Pop a situp Grab a bar that's higher than you And put up a few chin-ups.

Diamond chest ups. Dips, squats Stretch and recover.

When life challenges you, Always give a hard push right back.

CP'25

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"Onto" For Life

Let shit go because people aren't thinking about you at all.

People will do you dirty and keep it moving as if nothing ever happened and over time they'll forget about what they did to you and you won't be a memory they talk about often, either.

When you hold onto things that others have done to you in the past and wait for karma to catch up with them—you are wasting your time doing that.

I don't know about you, but I hate wasting my time, especially on people that aren't good people.

Karma doesn’t need instructions. It’s not a weapon; it’s a mirror— a boomerang of energy we throw into the world. That’s why I don’t take matters into my own hands anymore. Because the moment I respond with dark or bitter energy, I stamp my name on it— and sooner or later, it finds its way back to me.

How can I choose to respond with anger, spite, or hate today and still pray that anger, spite, or hate never circles back to my door?

Onto, is a way to move passed the past, but stay out of the future too; both are thieves of the only thing you own: right now.

“Onto” is the bridge— the quiet shift from then or when back to here. Back to the breath. Back to today.

Onto the next? No— Onto the now.

Onto for life.

CP'25

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RIP Charlie D.

Charlie Kirk got assassinated this week, but my friend Charlie died suddenly of a heart attack too. All of a sudden people thought I was shouting out Kirk instead of Charlie D.

Who cares? I'm not nice out of some selfish self-preservation. I don't give a fuck what lunatics think.

Charlie was one of the nicest people I have ever met. Always smiling, always a gentleman and always so warm. I am glad to have met him and encountered him in my life. I am proud to call him my friend.

When I found out it hurt me suddenly. Like a knife pierced me through my gut. It hurt a few times; a few moments of agony passed me by here and there.

All I thought was how he found the love of his life and they seemed so happy together. I am glad he got to spend his life with her and glad he found his person in this crazy world.

That made me happy for Charlie because some people go thru their entire lives never experiencing love the way he did. I am happy my friend was blessed. I am happy his life was good in that manner and it showed all in his aura. He loved Mimi and she loved him back just as much.

I pray that my son finds his person the same way Charlie did. Heck, I pray we all do.

CYRUS PAVEL —CP'25

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Rosa Viola 🇮🇹

If you give me something unique that you have never given to anyone else, then that's a truly special gesture. That gesture will be special for you tho. For me, if it’s something I’ve received countless times before, it loses a bit of its spark.

I mean that to be truthful.

However, if I've never received this unique thing then yes it is super special to us both.

It doesn't get more complex than that.

If you receive a purple rose from me and no one has ever given you a purple rose then that moment is super special too because each time after whenever you get a purple rose, you will remember mine first.

At the heart of it, I think this is what we truly long for in companions—people who, like us, want to share unique & meaningful experiences; things that reach far beyond the physical side of a partnerships today.

—CP'25

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Makes Sense Later

It would be wrong for me to play games with your heart right now—as you get closer to me.

I know that you see me as having played games with your heart already back when Grey was little, but I was always super clear that he would come first.

I guess that never sits well with people. I know spouses that ignore their kids to smother their spouses and that could never be me because I am all my son has. Well, his mother and I, along with a handful or less of people in this world that will really take care of him if something were to happen to his mom or i.

I don't want to be the opportunist in your story, either. I want to become firm ground for you, Just never at the expense of the firm ground i've already been building underneath his legs and his feet.

That does not mean you both can't stand on ground together—it's just something that needs to be build and that you will only overstand, in retrospect.

—CP'25