#crazy hormones

[zelphafrost]

Perimenopause = stabby stab stab

[toxic-kis]

Since being pregnant I've honestly had such bad social anxiety it's crippling. If I don't have company beyond the house, I'm finding it ridiculously hard to leave. It's so strange because I feel like by leaving the house I'm putting the baby at risk, unnecessarily driving, general interaction with people. It's ridiculous, but I can't push the thought out of my head. I feel so responsible for this little peanut that I wouldn't want to risk leaving the safety of my own home. So I finally leave the house today and the whole outing was a mare. So back to square one. My hormones are literally making me crazy. It's pot luck which mood I'll wake up in & Jesus do I take it out on Jay. Bless him, I'm just waiting for him to have enough of it tbh but he's been pretty patient so far. Finding time for just us is difficult atm, he's either working, tired or not feeling great and I'm pretty exhausted most the time. As for baby, I can't wait for my next scan, even though it was only two weeks ago, it feels forever since I saw that little baby wriggling around. I've brought a new book set of Harry Potter so I've been reading to baby everyday which is literally so peaceful. I don't think I'll ever not want to be pregnant ~ despite my awful morning sickness that looks like it's pretty much going to stay until I have this little peanut.

[irlus]

I never felt so sensible towards my smelling. Like I am thinking of things that happened ten years ago and I still get the smell of my perfume from that day, so strong it makes me dizzy.

[missusbooradley]

I took another test...

It came up negative. My heart is breaking because I want this baby so bad. It was even a expensive test, one of the really nice ones. I don't understand why I'm not bleeding I'm having all these symptoms and it's still coming up negative. I'm upset that I can't just KNOW what's wrong with my body. I'm trying so hard to be patient and strong but goddammit if I'm not ready to cry.

[allisonrosecast]

I’ve been feeling like a tornado lately. Wishing the people who help ground me weren’t so far away.

[bet-sama]

I do not see a temperamental sixteen boy anymore, now I see a tall grown man who takes my breath away"

Naruto hot as hell

[trillasophical-blog]

Pregblrs, get at me. Let's chat.

So basically I got sent home from work because in the first hour and a half I was there, I got sick twice. Awesome. My blood pressure and heart rate has remained escalated so I am rather uncomfortable and can't seem to catch my breath. Now I feel guilty that I'm not at work making money and I only have two shifts left before I'm done for good. Aaaand I just wish my Fiance was here to comfort me but army decided he should spend the week on the field so. Friday night just seems so far away.

[esawinnie]

I never thought I would feel the desire to want someone....to want them so badly..