#crewmate profiles

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Welcome aboard...

The S.S. Foxtrot

We are a collective still getting to know each other and learning how to function. This sideblog is but one of our attempts to consolidate information about ourselves. We will not be role-playing the starship stuff beyond: I think it's fun and helpful for the kids 🤷🏻‍♂️

Bodily, we are 28, but a few of us are underage, myself included. Please don't be weird.

Primary poster will be me, Conrad (15, He/They)! But I would like to encourage our headmates to use this as a form of communication because we all know it's been... rough...

This will be updated!

Primary objective: consolidate information and strengthen communication.

Project 1: # Crewmate Profiles & tags!

Project 2: learn how to keep everyone calm

Project 3: mapping/drawing/visual???

Project 4: learn fronting triggers and patterns?

(Quick meet the crew below cut)

'The Operator' (28, they/them) - the host

Subsystem: mascs

'Captain Fox' (28+, he/him) - gate keeper & organizing

Conrad (15, he/they) - emotional protector & caretaker

'The Little' (he/him) - not sure how much we're willing to disclose at this time.

Subsystem: fems

Mari (18, she/they) - trauma holder & self care?

Kai (16-25, they/them) - trauma avoider & socializing

Vernon (XX, it/its) - persecutor & gatekeeper & trauma holder

Written by: Conrad x Fox x Mari

General approval ✅️

**indication of approval given generally by me (Fox) or specifically by the individual the post is about, not who it is written by.**

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Crewmate: Milo

~7, he/him

Favorite color: Gold/Yellow

Favorite media: Milo & Otis, Spirit, looney toons (old school ones)

Favorite food/drink: Dino nuggies, cranberry-apple juice, gummy bears, earl gray tea (apparently?)

Comfort things: Theodor, fuzzy hoodie, the blue blankie.

Roles: Little???

Gen. Description: erm. Him little? He's always been non-verbal and clings to safe people. He hates loud noises and yelling. He loves cute animals, teddy bears and soft things.

Problems: non-verbal, doesn't write either, will use ASL. Very shy.

Written by: Conrad x Milo

**Note: we decided to include his information for our own tracking purposes. Milo is never unsupervised, and his safety is a top priority.**

General approval ✅️

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Crewmate: Kai

Sliding age 16-25, they/them

Favorite color: sea foam green

Favorite media: they will have to fill this. Idk.

Gender/Sexuality: soft fem non-binary, asexual

Roles: basically just socializing?

Gen. Description: Kai is unavailable so I'm helping write a stand it to make Conrad happy. Kai is very calm and happy. They are an ocean witch and beach bumb... they formed to engage socially while I was managing the abuse. They are incapable of remembering trauma. The hippie we need when we can't handle a social setting.

Problems: anxiety, chronic stoner, klepto, zero concept of consequences

"Also, keep this in - one of my besties and favorite witch to vibe with on a full moon <3"

- Mari <3

Written by: Mari x Fox

Approved 🚫

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Crewmate: Mari <3

18, she/they

TW: mention of SA/grooming, SH/ED, sui.

Favorite color: Mauve

Gender/Sexuality: girl(ish?), very Sapphic

Roles: physical protector, trauma holder, self care/healing?

Favorite media: Noah Cyrus, Conan Gray, PVRIS, Pans Labrynth, Rayearth

Favorite food/drink: Kombucha slut, raw fruits and veg, cottage cheese with fruit.

Comfort items: our journals, comfy leggings with warm socks.

Gen. Description: On the day-to-day, I try to make sure we have our face washed, teeth brushed, and shower enough. I manage our bullet journals! I'm also into witchcraft as a form of self care (Lunar witch). If you've known our main blog, you may know about the grooming. I manage 'coping with and getting better from' that. I used to be many. We expanded and fused and collapsed a few times. I filled a role like Fox does now during the abuse. Kai is something of a fragment of mine, and we are what's left of who was around before the big system collapse when we failed to cope with syscovery in high school and The Operator had their memory manipulated by Vernon. I have since stepped down as a gatekeeper and internal helper.

Problems: oh boy... Somatic flashbacks, anxiety attacks, multiple suicide attempts, recovered from self harm, recovered bulimic (maybe still orthorexic), anger issues, the most likely to yell at outsiders, actually. [This is why I can't engage with the little often.]

Cope song:

Written by: Mari x Fox

Approved ✅️

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Crewmate: 'Captain Fox'

28+, he/him

**age slides, but stays body age or older**

Favorite color: soft gray and beige

Gender/Sexuality: cis guy in headspace, and basically straight. I know, I'm boring.

Gen. Description: I spend most days just observing from the periphery and offering internal guidance. The only alter who is older and has more control than me is Vernon. I never solo-front, I just help the others with managing and organizing tasks and information. I will pull someone from front if they can't handle a situation and take over. Anything posted here has been cleared by me, approval status indicates whether the alter the post is about approves of how something is written.

Favorite media: My Chemical Romance, Say Anything, Bright Eyes,

Favorite food/drink: I love fiancees masaman curry, and fried rice. Genuinly prefer to drink water..

Roles: gatekeeper, organizational skills, internal helper

Problems: my behaviors sometimes look like ocpd when I'm fronting. I'm incredibly obsessive and probably have some control issues but it helps me manage all these kids so...

Written by: Fox x Conrad

Approved ✅️

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Crewmate: 'The Operator'

28, They/Them

Favorite color: um? Forest green? Maybe brown?

Gender/Sexuality: absolute shit show :)

Roles: the host? Operating system? Am I the ship? Idfk??

Favorite media: um? Nature? Or whatever we are binge watching at the time? (Just finished the sopranos)

Favorite foods: generally speaking food is a nightmare for us... I eat whatever they want.

Comfort items: uhh? Whatever my pilot/co-pilot needs???

Gen. Description: Somehow, I both feel like the original and the new kid on the block. I'm nearly always present but not often in control, usually co-fronting. Rarely do I get kicked so far from front that I don't know what's happening. But the further I am from front the fewer memories I retain it seems. I don't really have a sense of self... everyone around me knows more than me. Apparently we've been down this road before. I'm scared of getting my memories fucked with more. Vernon is struggling to cope with the fact I have become aware. Part of its job was keeping me in the dark...

Problems: Dissociation seems to be my burden somehow? Emotionally I'm quite apathetic. Our clinical diagnosis are ad/hd, dysgraphia, anorexia, bipolar, c/ptsd. Have also suspected bpd and/or osdd now. Fan-fucking-tastic over here.

I'm still not entierly convinced this isn't all just a delusion/hallucination. But leaning into it has made things more peaceful for me.

Cope song:

Written by: The Operator x Conrad

Approved ✅️

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Crewmate: Vernon

Ageless, it/its

TW: mentions attempting...

Favorite color: black is fine

Gender/Sexuality: N/A (I guess I'm masc?)

Favorite media: anything that makes me feel something... I really like Yuele too.

Favorite food/drink: I'm a binge eater.

Comfort items: I don't know comfort...

Roles: persecutor, gatekeeper, trauma holder

Gen. Description: I don't feel human. But I guess I am stuck in this body with the rest of us. I can be quite cruel and I fucking hate myself and damn near everyone else too. We weren't allowed to be unwell or scared. We weren't allowed to be angry or express any emotions. We weren't allowed to be fidgety or neurodivergent. We weren't allowed to do anything but sit pretty and shut the fuck up while the people around us did whatever they wanted to us. So that's what I did. I kept everyone in line so we wouldn't get hurt again, or worse (it still got worse and I'm sorry). I was supposed to keep The Operator from knowing, and I fucked that up too... twice now. Not resetting again. I'm too tired.

- I don't know how to get better. I don't know how to exist as anything but this. I was the first split.

- there are many things I am not willing to talk about. Please leave it be. (Maybe in therapy, but we can't handle it, please trust me...)

Problems: severe depression, binge eating, self destructive, alcoholic, multiple suicide attempts. - will destroy relationships just to avoid pain.

Cope song: TBD?

(Re)written by: Vernon

Approved ✅️

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Crewmate: Conrad

15, he/they

TW: SH/ED, mention of emotional abuse.

Favorite color: blood red

Gender/Sexuality: trans masc/bisexual

Roles: emotional protector, caretaker

Favorite media: ptv, circa survive, mcr, adventure time, regular show.

Favorite food/drink: monster and Laffy taffy. I genuinely hate eating tho... I would live off candy if Mari would let us. Lol.

Comfort items: my gloves and skull candy headphones.

Gen. Description: Primarily care for the little internally. I am learning sign language to help him communicate. I have a few sides of my own, I am both very soft and compassionate with the people I love but sometimes my anger lashes out on outsiders when we feel unsafe. I absorbed a lot of emotional abuse from family but I can compartmentalize it when I'm comforting the little. I am the barrier between the little and Vernon (for now?). Sometimes I think I'm the closest thing we could get to the older brother The Operator wanted... but also I embody a lot of queer repression, I'm kinda the teenage boy we didn't get to be?

Problems: I have a history with self harm and anorexia (b/p sub[lowk junkorexic]). I have some external anger issues and impulse control issues.

Written by: Conrad

Approved ✅️