Hey, everyone…
We’re so sorry about the unexpected interruption here. But after 3 days at our local CSU, an emergency therapy session, adding a new medication, and our first split in a long time… we’re back.
It’s so hard for us to feel stable or claim to be stabilized after something like this. It felt like we left the unit too early, but they have a 72 hour policy there. But something we heard from the group therapy leader there, is stabilization doesn’t usually happen right away. They set us up with some resources, they assured us that we’re welcome to come back if we need to, and we’re going to be seeing our therapist twice a week.
We’re so sorry we left… but we were already in a very bad place when we found out that user was lying about us. We’ve been lied about before - in our past it’s led to us losing friends and community, and being traumatized by someone we thought we could trust. Our alter, Alucard, split because of this, so finding out someone was spreading rumors about vamp and Kip specifically really sent vamp (and our whole system) over the edge.
We hope to get back to normal though (or as normal as we can) ASAP!
Thank you so much to everyone for your patience and kind words. We’re so sorry we had to leave abruptly like that. Our new alter, Lucille, and other members of our system think we’re coming back online too soon, but I know we have asks piling up so we need to get back to doing what we do here. We request your continued patience if we’re even slower than usual with responding to asks, or if our responses seem fragmented. We may be out of the CSU, but we’re still in a very dark place.
Again, thank you so much for your patience. Lucille is cofronting with me and likely will be a big presence here and on our other blogs, as she formed in response to us being triggered in online environments. So y’all might be hearing more from her in the future.
Thank you for bearing with us and taking the time to read this.
💫 Parker and Lucille (who has yet to choose an emoji sign off)










