EVENT SELF-PARA
TW: TORTURE, HALLUCINATIONS
It started as a scratch— dull magic cutting into Ariel’s skin until every inch of him was vibrating with it, growing hotter and more intense as the cement walls rose around him. Tearing. Ripping. All at once, there was no telling what was real or imaginary but the pain was present nonetheless, electric and vibrant, slashing through his back again and again as his wings were relentlessly torn from him, trapped in an endless loop. Ariel thought he knew torment, thought he knew how to escape it, but this was something else entirely. Soul-crushing, mind-piercing, body-breaking. Transformative. As he blinked, the fallen saw nothing but the blinding white light of pain, his bones aching with the effort of resisting another tear, jaw unhinged as he silently screeched.
In the back of his mind, Ariel tried to fight the hallucinations, knowing full well he needed to protect the less powerful victims of Khaos. But the pain of his ripping wings began to morph into something desirable, his mind craving the notion of having his wings back in the first place. It was a small price to pay, this cycle of torment, if it provided him with the illusion of his old existence, of flying. Tension curling his form, pushing him deeper into mindless despair, Ariel whispered gratitude between his screams, pressing into the ground as it barely held him upright.
Had it been minutes, weeks, months since he’d last known sanity? Known ease and serenity? Known power? The sudden palm on his shoulder did nothing to inform him of the time past, did nothing to heal him, to help him. It only distracted Ariel from what his twisted mind now desired and madness was evident in his glowing eyes when he looked towards the perpetrator.
“STOP.” Hissing— even he, himself, did not know exactly what he was asking for, but when the contact dulled the torment again, ever so slightly, Ariel grabbed the hand forcefully, his body no longer his own. “Don’t touch me.” The angel sobbed, pleaded, begged the other to leave him although he could hardly make out their form beyond the vision of pain. His mind was convinced; he did not need saving, he was being saved now. This was what he deserved. This was what he desired. Choking on his own breath, Ariel tried to focus his eyes to no avail, crying desperately as another tear ripped through his form. “I need it.”