#crowetricks

[crowehorte]

Me, over here in my corner having a mental breakdown about how much negativity there is on the internet, about how people are saying negative things about themselves and about other people. Stupid... fandom drama that I ain't apart of, but it's people picking at each other over stupid things, and then there's the real life horror show going on in a constant loop of grief and outrage, and I ask myself

What would Loki do?

Tie his balls to a goat, slap that bitch on the ass, and let it drag him around until someone laughs, probably.

So I'm gonna clean my office and then find something stupid to do, I guess.

[crowehorte]

What's currently going on with my practice:

Learning about Christianity from a scholarly perspective including its origins, the development of its belief system, and relationship to magic

and

2. Learning about Norse spirituality and concepts like orlog, wyrd, and the four part self.

NGL I have the weirdest relationship with Christianity that I can't really... explain or put into words. Maybe it's trauma and reclamation, maybe it's needing an authority figure to rebel against, maybe it's just goddamn loving the shit out of Catholic aesthetics. I don't know. I'm fascinated by it. I'm drawn to the imagery of devils, demons, and the independence of fallen angels. Lucifer calls to me on a spiritual level.

I'm the kind of person who claims the title of Witch out of a desire to face God and walk backwards into Hell. I am not evil; I do my best to poor goodness into the world whenever I can. But if God, as I understand it, demands blind adoration and obedience, then I will align myself with evil if it means remaining an independent thinker.

That said, I really, really jive with the concepts of orlog and hamingja, of the wyrd, and the idea that shapeshifting may not happen on a physical level without like. Medical intervention. But it can happen on a spiritual level that is recognizable even to those outside your Self. There's so much that resonates with me that it's like. There's a lot of concepts I already have as a part of my world view, and those that I don't make sense and incorporating them into my life would be a positive change.

I'm just really bad at practicing things.

[crowehorte]

@objectspod Behold, CHERYL, my haunted ramen. I drew the activation sigil twice because I wasn't sure the first one was good enough >_>

I know this bag of ramen is haunted because I knew the spirit's name as I went down to fetch the bag, and I can picture her so clearly in my mind. I just know that Cheryl is going to be a warm, supportive addition to our household, just like the bag of chicken ramen that brought her to us.

[crowehorte]

I got my Magic of the Month package from @objectspod today, opened the tin labeled "Toad" and took a deeeep whiff.

This was a mistake. Oof, the peppermint!

Witch tip, kids: Don't huff herb mixtures unless you know what's in them. You never know when you're gonna blast your nostrils out with mint.

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My phone game ads have started recommending a Shadow Work app and I am choosing to believe it's a result of all the discourse on my dash lately.

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I started seeing a psychiatrist today, and as we were approaching it, I thought to myself, "It would be really funny if it was across the street from the Metaphysical shop," because it was along the same street.

It was. Quite literally. Across the street.

It would be a very dangerous combination if I was driving myself to my appointments, because it would be very easy to just. Pop over afterwards and spend money I don't have on shiny rocks.

[crowehorte]

Why is it that so many places recommend doing spells at night? I mean, I get moon cycles and all being a thing, but just because it's night doesn't mean the moon is up yet. Half the time, it doesn't come up until early morning.

Anyway, I feel like I gotta stop waiting for the "right time" to do witchcraft, otherwise it's never going to get done. I'm doing it right now, during the day, while I have energy and focus. I've got so many reagents saved up, it's about damn time I start using them.

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Despite knowing that there are numerous "real life" deities dedicated to the sun, there is a part of me that just. Feels more drawn to Belore, the Eternal Sun, from World of Warcraft.