#crowleychats

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I finally have all three of my kin playlists done, and I am SO proud of myself :)

I find that music helps me connect to my kins easier than just talking about them, or writing about them (drawing is a close second to music lol), so I finally have all three done!

I made my vampirekin one a few weeks ago, but just in the past week I made my Crowley playlist, and yesterday and today I worked on and finished my Tenth Doctor playlist! Yeahhhh!!!

The music on the playlist is either stuff that I remember listening to, things that fit the vibes I used to have, or songs that I've gotten memories from listening to!

If anyone wants me to drop the songs on any of the three, just let me know! >:D

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I've been feeling so out of it (kin wise) recently

I'm questioning at least three different new characters, and I just feel a bit lost. Maybe it's just my stressful schedule, but I'm not feeling grounded at all. I feel like I keep just getting glimpses of myself, and it's only when I go into really intense and brief kin shifts.

Those said kin shifts have also been like, fucking terrible. Been getting a ton of really bad memoires, and lots of weird phantom wing/fang shifts as well.

Anyway, just needed to ramble out into the world

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I have to go to a church choir rehearsal tonight, and as I'm in a very intense Crowley shift, I *really* don't want to be anywhere near or in a church right now

Eaouh....but I'm getting paid.....so I have to....

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Little things that give me kin euphoria

Listening to my Best Of Queen CD

Putting my hair into a fancy ponytail with my vintage hair pins

Wearing dark sunglasses

Going out on walks late at night

Looking at the stars

Dressing in black leather

Eating red jello

Drawing my kins the way I remember them

Dressing formally

Painting my nails black

Dancing (kinda badly) in my room to music

The whole month of October

That's all I can think of off the top of my head! If you want me to do specific lists for my three kins, let me know!

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I miss my wings so much

I miss when I'd be able to flap them when I was mad, or to scare off people, or to be able to hide under them. I can still feel them, but they're not there, I can feel their weight. I miss being able to fly when needed, just to be able to get a break from this human world and its bullshit

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Made a comfort playlist for when I miss Aziraphale (which is a lot of the time), and it's so lovely and peaceful and reminds me of him so much :)

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going through a very intense mental shift right now, will mostly be crowley-posting till I go to bed

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Sitting in my bedroom in the dark, listening to Queen music and crying right now