#crowo08

[transmascvoicesproject]

once again, i am being incredibly serious: delete the blog. you will be responsible for deaths.

i sincerely appreciate you putting your face with this ask so everyone can see the manipulative sort of person you are. you are trying to fearmonger and act like anonymous confessions of abuse will lead to deaths. of who, exactly? because with the constant doubting of victims and suicide baiting, i dont think it will be the perpetrators. truly disgusting thing to say but at least we know who said it!

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

https://www.tumblr.com/doyoulovethewayzeylily/820548053669920768/glad-not-to-see-im-the-only-one-born-old-lol haha followup to your tags on this: well fuck

beats just thinking "I am a broken person" though yeah?

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

It Is Not Done and I Am A Little Fucked. not entirely fucked, but a little fucked

you've been more fucked before, it'll buff out. go to bed

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

i have been working on a project for like 13 hours and i have at minimum 3 ahead of me and it's the typa shit you Do gotta sacrifice sleep for and reading through your blog on my breaks is saving my ass from quite a bit of insanity thankkkkkkkk youuuu mama lily. also the post about you and your wife being t4t was really meaningful to me so also thank you for that. theyfab out

(calling myself theyfab all silly style is so fun this is another joy you've brought me ty <3)

godspeed, you brave fuck.

my wife once came to me, clearly very worried, and asked me what "theyfab" means. I explained that it's a derogatory term for nonbinary people who were assigned female at birth and use that assignment against trans women. they said "oh, so it's not about me then" and I said yup exactly lol.

they're a constant source of joy and love and they're going to be there when I die, but it's fun to joke about how I have the best chaser you could ask for :3

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

i missed loving on lily hours because i was A Sleep! hi lily! i love you! your support saved some of my life and the plurality website you provided changed the process of me discovering we're plural from "giant slow creaking hurty scary spiralling doomloop where i probably get involved in online plural spaces and get a shitton of bad advice" to "oh. multiple folks in here. cool."

the lego flowers on my table are really nice this morning and the sunlight is dissipating through the clouds and i love you a lot :) local theyfab signing off

I imagine that this will be a real breath of fresh air for that last anon lol.

I'm glad I could help ease your worries, it can be very scary when you're just alone with it but it really just doesn't have to be. I'll tell you a story.

the first real inkling that I might be plural was when I was 15. I have a terrible memory + the typical "I was born and then I was 5 for twelve minutes and immediately turned 22" memory that a history of trauma gives you, but I remember this very clearly.

I was sitting in the back of my parents' SUV, as we were sitting at a red light I was thinking about how weird the act of thinking is and how I'm all alone in my head all the time. and then I got a sort of mental nudge that was a question, "would you like some company?"

I was shocked. that was not me. I thought about it for a minute and decided to reply that no, I don't think I want that. I got a mental shrug in reply and that was the last I heard from them.

it was obviously very odd but it didn't feel that way. I was just like huh. that was cool. really just didn't think a hell of a lot of it, for some reason.

I really enjoy telling that story to mental health people, they never have any idea what to say. yeah bro I declined the creation of an alter nbd

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

They're in bloom!

yay!

have you ever seen a skeleton flower?

stumbling on a patch of these while walking around in a light rain was very magical, I did not know that flowers could be glass sometimes but they can