I’m so tired and exhausted. I know for a fact now. You will never become a better person and stop being so stubborn (especially in fights) until I am gone. I am drained, completely worn out. You give no shits, no remorse in an argument cause you want to play stupid, confused until you push my buttons.. I’m already blowing up on you. So then turn the blame on me and say you “didn’t know how to react/response properly because I am attacking you???” Honestly if you really wanted to work things out it would have never even come to the extent of me bombarding/screaming at you.
I’m full on ready to go. I am losing feelings. I’ve come to terms I might love you a lot.. I definitely learned to love myself more from being with you. You taught me at times where theres a threat to my life I need to take him out. I need to know when to walk away for my own sake. Because you damn well would’ve sucked the life out of me. You honestly did. I almost killed myself because of you. I was just strong enough to stay alive AND be there for you.. as I was losing myself..
