#crystalizedessence

[clarkesgrxffxn]

I've never been tagged in something like this before, so, I'm ridiculously, overly excited.

Rule 1: always post the rules

Rule 2: answer the questions the person who tagged you has written and write 11 new ones

Rule 3: tag 11 new people and link them to your post

Rule 4: let them know you've tagged them

girlwiththekey's questions:

1.) If you had to choose one city to live in for the rest of your life (once you're there, you are permanently settled) where would it be?

Jacksonville, FL. It has the suburbia I crave but it's within decent driving distance of places like Savannah and Orlando. Plus, it's right down the road from St. Augustine, which is my favorite place ever. I could never live there but I would pour all my extra spending into that blessed tourist trap. See: The Dirty Martini and the best ghost tours ever.

2.) You get to meet your musical and/or cinematic idol - what do you say to them?

Lea Michele. I'd say "thank you," a lot. Thank you for keeping your nose and your boobs and proving that you don't have to fit society's narrow standards of beauty to be beautiful or successful. Thank you for your voice and your megawatt smile. Thank you for bringing Rachel Berry to life and doing your best with a (wonderful) character that Ryan Murphy seems dead set on destroying. Also, thank you for having sexual chemistry with almost every one of your cast members - the fanfic has been fantastic.

3.) You're offered the chance to write and develop your own comic/tv show/movie/novel - what is it about? Who is your target audience? (There are NO restrictions!)

I would write the romance novels I've always wanted to read. I would write the novel that does for romance novels what "50 Shades" did for erotica - only well written instead of badly plagiarized fanfiction. My heroines would have agency and body autonomy. My heroes would not be swoon-worthy just because they act like mysterious assholes. Everyone would get some GD character development. Only villains would care about gender roles. And there would be abundant consent in all loves scenes; there would be absolutely no "your mouth says no but your body says yes" bullshit. Not all romantic relationship would be heterosexual and not all would contain just two people. And, in the end, our main characters might not find happily ever after with each other but they will always act like adults and treat each other with respect. Oh and women will have friendships with other women and there will be no slut shaming or girl hate!

Target audience: anyone who wants to read a good romance novel. Might as well go big.

4.) You're given the chance to jump into the shoes of your favorite Disney character! Who are you and do you follow your character's scripted decisions or rewrite the story?

Jasmine. Once the dust was cleared, there'd be some serious legislation being enacted. Aladdin could play sultan-consort all he wanted, so long as I was the true power behind the throne. Social reform would be slow going but, hopefully, my heirs would be smart and politically-minded enough to continue my work. And if that was a no go, then Raja, Carpet, and I would be getting the beezuses out of there to go live somewhere free and wild.

5.) Top five favorite bands! Go!

The Beatles, (Sting and) The Police, Bob Dylan, Bright Eyes, and Nirvana. Although, really, 1-5 is The Beatles and everyone else is 6-10. "Blackbird" always makes me cry and The Beatles: Love show in Vegas changed my life.

6.) You can have any type of animal in the world as a pet - what is it?

A white tiger (see #4). When I was younger, I felt like I had some sort of connection with the white tiger at the DFW zoo. It was always lying up on the viewing ledge, right up next to the glass, whenever I was there. I could just watch it for hours. Plus, who wouldn't want a TIGER as a BFF?

7.) Would you rather be stuck on a deserted island with someone who really annoys you (for seven years) or be forced to eat small worms for the rest of your life?

If the worms were going to be my ONLY food for the rest of my life, I'd go with the deserted island. I love food too much to give it up just to avoid being stuck with some asshole for seven years. However, if the worms were only suplimental, I'd go with the worms. After all, it's just protein and I would rather not maim someone after being forced to deal with their stupidity.

8.) HOW IN THE WORLD DID YOU FIND ME?

Since I rarely friend blogs first, you probably found me. If I had to guess, it was probably while I was actively updating "In Treatment." If that's the case, I promise that I will start writing again. One day. Hopefully soon. I'm awful and I'm sorry. If that's not the case, then I haven't the foggiest clue. Either way, I think you're wonderful and I wish I could meet you for coffee and hugs.

9.) You can travel back in time with the guarantee that you'll come home safe - where do you go? Who do you meet? What do you witness?

I would be a terrible companion for the Doctor because I would want to go everywhere and meet everyone and see everything and I would constantly be wandering off when he told me not to. Serioulsy, history is my love and there are too many things I would want to see/experience and too many people I would want to meet. Top three? 1.) Jesus during his "lost" years. It would be amazing to see just what shaped him into the man he became. Plus, I would be a one woman entourage and I could get all the teachings without having to deal with the (assholes) disciples. Although, I wouldn't mind zipping forward a bit and seeing just how things went down with Mary Magdalene (because I ship them and I do not apologize for that). 2.) England during the reign of Queen Elizabeth I. This woman is one of my favorite historical figures; she just...absolutely blows me away. It would be mind blowing to be a member of her court and be able to witness her in all of her glory. I'd definitely want to see her rally the troops against Spain (her speech to them is chill bump-worthy) and be there for the (had to be crazy) celebration that followed. 3.) Alexandira, Egypt during it's heyday. Nothing beats a library and Alexandria probably had the most amazing library in the history of libraries. I can't imagine all the things there would be to read and all the scholars there would be to meet. To just have a peak inside would make my life complete.

10.) What's your dream job?

See #3. While I tell everyone that I want to be a tenured history professor, I really want to be a game-changing romance novelist. If I could do anything, that would be it. Of course, I'd have to learn to finish the things that I write AND figure out how to start something that wasn't Glee fanfiction.

11.) You are now the subject of your favorite artist! Who is painting you?

Mary Cassatt. Of all the Impressionists, she has always managed to touch something in my heart. If I were to be immortalized on canvas, I'd want her to be the one to do it.

My questions!

1.) If you were fighting off Dementors, what (one) happy memory would you recall to empower your expecto patronum?

2.) You're on death row and you're being served your last meal. What is it?

3.) Something has happened that will enable you with one of two super powers: flight or invisibility. Just the ability to fly OR the ability to become invisible and, once you've been granted the power, you can't change your mind. Which do you choose and why?

4.) What are your five favorite books?

5.) If you could only listen to one song for the rest of your life, what song would you choose?

6.) If you could kill three people (any three people, any time/any place) and get away without facing any consequences, who would you kill and why?

7.) Do you drink coffee?

8.) Would you rather live near an ocean or a forest?

9.) If you could automatically change one thing about yourself (permenantly) would you? What would it be?

10.) If you could be any one person from history, who would you be and what would you change about how they lived their life?

11.) If I were in town, would you go out with me for a chat and a drink?

Tagged: antzpantz66, chellliii, crystalizedessence, hopeisreal42, invisiblegirlhd, ishipthings, kaitlinlovesfinnick, laughingfreely, sansatheyoungwolf, seeleywhore, and waywardcherry.

[fatslutz]

Can you go into detail about the definition of a fat slut? I understand the reclaiming of "fat", since that's who I am, but what about "slut"? I know I'm overthinking possibly. Does it matter how sexually active you are?

awesome question!

This blog is for anyone who has ever been called 'fat' or 'slut' in a negative way, regardless of how much you weigh or how much sex you have.  We are all about reclaiming those words and using them to empower ourselves.

So no, it doesn't matter how sexually active you are :) Everyone can be a slut!

[these-shackleson]

Bearded guys.

Yesssss, definitely a turn-on. I mean, as long as it's a NICE beard. If your beard is long and scraggly and gross, I'd prefer you to be clean-shaven. But in general, I am all about a man with a good beard.

[these-shackleson]

Tag, you’re it! Here are the rules: Each tagged person must post ten things about themselves. You have to choose and tag ten people. No tag back : )

This has been sitting in my inbox for a week so I guess I'll try to answer it. I'm not going to tag anybody though. If you see this, feel free to do it. Consider yourself tagged. If you want, I'll send it to your inbox so you can answer it that way. Whatever.

I was a National Merit Scholarship Semifinalist, I scored in the 94th percentile on my SAT, and I received IB certificates in 5 courses, but was not an IB diploma candidate because I refused to take an applicable foreign language class, and I refused to give up my arts courses (senior year I took my 4 core classes, orchestra, and 2 theatre classes) for Theory of Knowledge. Well I wouldn't necessarily HAVE to give up my arts courses, because they did offer ToK after school as an 8th course, but eff that noise.

I collect bells. I'm not sure off the top of my head how many I have but it's definitely over 80.

I have five tattoos, and currently have three more ideas in the works.

Back in the winter of 07-08 I was very seriously considering moving to the middle of nowhere, 4 and a half hours from home. I found the house of my dreams, and I could have afforded it on my own. (Well, it was a house with three apartments in it - a 1br, a 2br, and a 3br. I was going to get the 1br.) I applied for jobs in the area, but I wasn't able to wait forever, and I had to move back home because I was unemployed. A week after I moved back home, I was contacted for an interview with one of the jobs I had applied for. I had to turn it down, and I haven't been back there since. But four years later, I still have the location for the house saved in my Google Maps and sometimes I just go... look at it. Dream about it. My sweet little house at the bottom of the mountain, just me and a dog and a wildflower garden.

When I was in high school, I dreamed of being a theatre teacher. I applied for, and got accepted to, a university which is known for being the best public school in the state when it comes to theatre. They have a BFA theatre education program which takes six people a year and I got accepted to it. But I also got accepted to another school. I went to an open house at the other school, a day where they invite all the accepted high school seniors to come check it out. The next day, I went and took a tour at the first school. To this day, I regret that I didn't do it the other way around. I visited JMU first and then VCU the next day... if I had done VCU followed by JMU, I think my whole life would be different. Because I think I would have actually gone to VCU and gotten a BFA and a teaching certificate and be working in the field I love. But I didn't go there, instead I went to JMU, and now I'm a 25 year old college dropout who lives with her parents and is mostly unemployed.

By "mostly" unemployed, I mean that I do not have a steady job. I do work in professional theatre, and I do get paid for it but it's not enough to really call it a job, if that makes sense. But I literally owe the fact that I'm working in theatre today to one person: Walid Chaya. He is truly the reason I'm still involved. He believes in me when nobody else does, and encourages me to keep going. He brought me out of my three-year hiatus... and I'm getting ready to start my fourth production since getting back into the game last June. I honestly don't know if I can ever express my gratitude to him. I've tried, but I don't think I can do it justice. We hardly ever talk, but he means the absolute world to me and I will never ever ever forget what he has done for me.

When I was in 6th grade I went on a field trip to the National Gallery of Art. It was there that I fell in love with architecture and triangles. For a while I wanted to become an architect (until I realized that I have absolutely no artistic talent or creativity whatsoever). The National Gallery is made up of two distinct buildings. The West Building houses more of the older, classic art, and was built in the 1930s. The East Building houses the more modern art, and was built in the 1970s. It was designed by Chinese architect I.M. Pei (who is probably best known for designing the pyramids at the Louvre), and it is incredible. It is made entirely of triangles. If there are any right angles in the building, I don't know where they are (I'm kidding, some of the exhibition halls are rectangular. But the main part of the building is not). In general, everything is made of wonderful isosceles triangles. The floor tiles are triangular, the open spaces are triangular, the windows are triangular. The museum gift shop and cafe is underground, and one wall has a huge window, behind which you see a waterfall outside - triangular, of course. It's so so beautiful. That's why I have a tag called "fuck i love triangles" :)

Many of the things I can think of to include on this list are things that are anxiety triggers for me. I really don't want that to be what this list is about. But if you must know, here's one which is probably my weirdest: I can not deal with straw wrappers. Take it off your straw and be done with it. If you squish it into a ball, I will probably try to position myself and my dishes in a way that I cannot see it... luckily, being medicated means I don't cry or gag anymore. A few short years ago I would have. I seriously flipped my shit. I still can't deal with it, but at least now I'm not quite so dramatic.

I don't believe that every person has a soulmate in the sense that destiny or fate is involved, but I do believe that it is possible to find someone whose soul complements yours so perfectly that there's no other way to describe it than soulmate - and I don't necessarily mean this in a romantic sense. I'm very very lucky to say that I have met mine. Unfortunately, she lives 2000 miles away. :(

I have never seen any Lord of the Rings films, or ready any of the books. I've also never seen any Star Wars film in full (I've seen bits and pieces but never the whole thing).

[writeoutoflove]

Hey I'm Crystal! Just wanted to write you because I really liked your coming out story! =]~From a fellow bisexual, Crystal

Thank you, sweetie! :) *huggles*