#csau inspired

[atlaslaboratories]

I've always wanted to try out the Troll call artstyle, so I thought 'why not start with my GamTav babies' I wasn't originally going to post them but I found and fell in love with @sweet-cuddlebug 's lil cuties and I just couldn't help myself. ✧Click for better quality✧

I mean look at them, how could I not, they were so fun to draw too, had me giggling.

[sweet-cuddlebug]

Post-Sburb Gamzee | Recovery AU

-> Gamzee having intrusive thoughts. And that being one of the reasons he belives he isn't and can't be a good person, because he keeps thinking about doing Bad Stuff.

-> Gamzee not having fisical reactions to things that startle him or put him in danger. He does feel fear and surprise, but his body stays still.

-> Religious Trauma + Identity Crisis + Eating Disorder + BPD*¹ = like at least four years of profesional help.

-> Gamzee zoning out and hurting himself/breaking things unintentionally.

-> Gamzee avoiding the beach for a little while.

-> And then never wanting to leave the beach.

-> Gamzee feeling a lot of jealousy and anger for a lot of diferent things the first few years (kids having better lusii and parents, others having suportive groups of friends, people getting better faster than him, maybe just Vriska, people that remind him of young Gamzee, ex-friends that forgive him easily, and the ones that don't, himself).

-> Gamzee avoiding people at the worst times.

-> Gamzee going to a Psyche Hospital*² (the good/normal ones) for some time.

-> Gamzee attaching himself to a specific group of people (the ones that helped him in the game*³), but also avoiding them when things get bad.

-> Gamzee having a relapse of some kind*⁴.

-> Gamzee geting mad about the things he can't remember, and anxious when other poeple bring up does thing he can't remember.

-> Gamzee having conflicted feelings about the other beta trolls. From self-hatred to contempt for them.

-> Gamzee having an inconsistent typing quirk for the first few years.

*1: These headcanons come from my own experience or the shared experience of people around me. I'm trying to do enough research and find the best way to explore this in my story since, in my opinion, they make sense for a character as complicated as Gamzee.

*2: The idea of Gamzee going to a mental hospital comes from Illymations' shared experience on YT. I think it would be a realistic and considerate response for him to get professional help, especially given what's happening in my AU (and what happened in the original material).

*3: This is a self-indulgent AU inspired by the Crow Strider AU, where the characters are offered a happy ending, and the self-indulgent part also covers the insertion of OCs, which I am referring to in this point.

*4: I'm not entirely sure about this point. It would be interesting for Gamzee's character to relapse and have a support group to accompany him in his recovery, but my ideas about how Gamzee might feel about using harmful substances post-sburb are still uncertain.

I'll talk a little more about this au and the timeline later, along with showing you my OCs :o]