#cw upsetting

[abby-howard]

So I’ve started doing a series of unsettling drawings based on short prompts, and I’ll be posting them to both twitter and my new horror instagram: filled.with.worms

These are a few of the hopefully less upsetting pieces, since I didn’t wanna fill anybody’s feed with some of the more body-horror-heavy images:

“Watched”

“Stench”

“Milk”

And many more... 

[celosiaa]

TW Potential trigger warnig for abuse and mentions of dimentia for people with family w/ dementia. (Partially based on personal experience with a person with dementia.)

Okay so it’s pretty much cannon that Martin and Jon experienced abuse from their families at this point.

I feel like Jon’s abuse from his grandmother stemmed more from neglect and verbal abuse which is why he really doesn’t like yelling. Also the nagging fear of dissapearing without anyone knowing or remembering comes from his neglect but didn’t start until his incident with Mr. Spider and no one really looking for the bully. I don’t think she ever physically abused him though.

While I think Martin was neglected as well as verbally abused, but I think as time went on she started physically abusing him.

Martin’s mom has always been sick, so sick that Martin had to drop out of school to take care of her.

Everyone always seems to think that it’s chronic illness but I think she had early onset dementia that progressively worst as time went on so bad that she couldn’t be left alone.

As the disease progressed and Martin got older and started to look more like his father, his mother started confusing Martin with his dad (even calling him his dad’s name sometimes). This is where the physical abuse started because she’d get really agitated and sometimes aggressive because she sometimes thinks Martin is her husband.

That’s why she’s nice to him sometimes but cruel to him other times. (Part of me likes to believe that the part of her genuinely cared about Martin and that’s why she asked to go into a home.)

Also I feel Martin has a fear of inheriting his mother’s dementia.

Sorry this is so long!

This is really really interesting. I have actually thought about Martin’s mother’s illness being early onset dementia before as well. I do think it would fit in with the way that he talks about her, and never blames anything on her, really. I can’t think of a single time in the series where he’s really spoken ill of her--only to defend her, and say it’s not her fault.

It breaks my heart to think about him worrying about inheriting his mother’s condition. After he turns 30, I think he really gets worried about it--and as he gets older, it’s something he and Jon carefully watch out for. I think he worries every time he’s forgetful, or repeats a story by accident, etc. And his continual bouts with the Lonely don’t help ease this fear at all.

Oof. I’m upsetti spaghetti about this ouch

[celosiaa]

CW for medical malpractice This is inspired by a thing that happened to my grandpa, but I was thinking about how it could apply to your Jon too? Chronic pain and anxiety both make it REALLY hard to sleep, so he'd probably be prescribed a really strong sleep medication. Let's say he was hospitalized for a while, and he suddenly begins to just... kinda fade? He has no energy, he can't stay awake, he can't make it through a thought, basically Not Good At All. And Martin and Emma and the rest 1/

CW medical malpractice, health scare, vomiting, generally upsetting idea

Oh friend. This really punched me in the chest when I read it yesterday, and I spent a looooot of time thinking about it last night just because of how genuinely terrifying this is. And I’m really sorry that this happened to your grandpa--though I am so glad that the mistake was found.

In the case that Jon was in the hospital (not sure what for, perhaps a surgery of some kind), I could see him being put on something to help him sleep--though of course, with EDS, it’s important to be careful with how much you take of any drug, but particularly drugs like that. So it probably wouldn’t take too much of it to really start to sedate him.

Anyways, god, I could see Martin getting help when he notices Jon’s altered mental status, and they do a bunch of tests, but not enough to find the source of the problem. Maybe they even get told by a doctor that his cognitive decline is not a good sign--something Martin has seen in real life with his own patients. I think the signs of an accidental overdose could really replicate some of the folks he has seen on their deathbed. And so he was just filled with absolute dread the whole time, fearing (and perhaps knowing) what was to come, but when they deliver the bad news--I think he either gets sick, or passes out.

And then they call Tim and Sasha--who get the kids out of school and come sit with them in the hospital. And it’s just awful awful awful, with everyone sitting by the bedside, Molly taking Emma outside where she has a panic attack, Tim just sitting with Martin as he holds Jon’s hand, both of them weeping. Until it’s time for meds.

It’s time for meds, and Martin takes a look at what they’re giving him while the nurses work on trying to wake him up enough to take them. And he sees the pills--and nearly loses his mind. First with relief--and then with a fury like none of them have ever seen.

And thank god--after he stops taking them, Jon gets gradually more and more aware, and at last, back to his full ability. Martin and Emma have both lost several years off their lives from stress, to be sure, but for now, they’re just beyond grateful to have him back.

[3-quinuclidinyl-benzilate]

brooo what if we got straight married at the jesus