The sounds of the cheering crowd of the Nitro Drome roared as I climbed atop my Behemoth to reguard my people with a grandiose wave of my arms and a bright smile.
"AND THERE WE HAVE IT, FOLKS! OUR FIRST EVER NITRO DROME CHAMPION, MEGALO DON!"
The crowd's cheers turned to screams, accentuated by a rattling of noisemakers made of bottles and cans. My people stomped their feet excitedly, the force shaking the very foundation of the stadium itself. Gouts of fire flashed past me, briefly shifting the desert's cool night air into that of a summer noon heat in irregular rhythms. The saw blades at the center of the statium screetched as they ground against each other, throwing sparks. The lights were all on me, their sights were all on me, all the noise was for me.
I swallowed down the feeling of my chest tightening. I don't know what it was. I wanted to hide. But I had to stay, I had to stay. Just a little longer, just through Scarr's closing speech. Then I could go. I could hide. I could curl up where no one could see me. I could nestle in the glorious silence. I could breathe. I could hide.
Glancing up to the Ringmaster's box, I tried to make out the shape of Scarr through the dust and lights. Some form of familiarity, something to focus on to drag me through the rest of this. I couldn't find her. I knew she was there, but no matter how hard I looked, I couldn't see. The lights burned my eyes. Dust made it hard to blink.
As I lowered my arms, I tried to level my gaze to the horizon. Or, well... where I guessed the horizon was. The walls of the arena got in the way. That tightness in my chest wouldn't go away. It wasn't getting any easier to breathe. Not that I could let it show...
In the distance, I heard Scarr's voice over the loudspeakers. Couldn't make out the words. The noise, the cheers, the fire and blades...
A moment later, the fire suddenly stopped, the cheers quieted. I took it as my queue to climb back down and into my Behemoth. The doors to leave the Nitro Drome, past Scarr's Lockjaw, opened to my right.
It was likely best if I stayed. Drove around, parked my car outside, and greet my people as they jumped into theirs to leave. It would do them good to have that camaraderie, to see their leader out among them, tangible and reachable. One of them, rather than apart.
I couldn't bring myself to. The thought of interacting with the crowd made my hands shake; in anger, in frustration. I wanted to hide. I just wanted to hide.
So I did.
Shifting gears, I peeled off into the Wasteland. I drove east as far as I could go before reaching that ugly marble and gold ruin. Tucked myself into a canyon, parked my car, and stumbled out of the seat to sit on the ground. I couldn't be in my car any longer. Too small. Too tight. Too enclosed. I needed to be outside.
As soon as my palms struck the ground, a rush of emotions and feelings washed over me. My knees hurt. My head was pounding. My chest was too tight, my heart beating far too fast, it's heat broiling my insides. Almost made me want to tear off my armor just to give myself room, to reduce my layers so that I could cool off, but I knew better.
And, fucking hell, I was so fucking hungry.
I wanted so much in that moment. I wanted food, I wanted water, I wanted comfort, I wanted the power to make it stop. My stomach clawed at me, pulled me apart piece by piece; I was starving. I was starving.
I couldn't take it. I can't. I can't. I can't.
"Is everything alright?"
What kind of stupid fucking question was that?
My mind was a flurry of indescribable information: thoughts, feelings, cravings. I couldn't make out a single coherent thing... even so, I willed myself to resist.
I had company, and it would be impolite to keep indulging in these nonsensical sensations.
Glancing over my shoulder, I tried to meet my company's gaze. I couldn't. The world was so blurry, there was little light save from the moon that shone behind their hooded face. I couldn't see.
"I ask again: is everything alright?"
"I'm fine," I answered, then quickly turned away, feeling another surge that I had to shove down. "Everything's fine."
A lie.
There was a moment of silence as I heard the stranger step towards me, their cloak fluttering into view just before they crouched besides me.
A fucking madman, to approach me when I'm like this. When I'm on the verge of...
"... you seem tired, Megalo Don."
"Like you wouldn't believe," I answered without thinking. "Now go away."
"I would not bat away a helping hand, if I were you."
"What do you want?"
"I want to help."
"How the fuck do you think you can do that?"
A pause. The stranger held his hand out from his cloak, fingers pressed tightly together. Then, with a snap...
Silence.
My heart slowed. My mind ceased to race, my thoughts flowing in nice, orderly fashion, like a river through the canyons. Most importantly... I stopped feeling hungry.
"How did you do that?" I asked, blinking with surprise as I adjusted to the current state.
"Magic."
"You're so fucking funny, smartass."
"You don't have to be so rude," the stranger chastised. "I can just as easily set you back."
"Don't," I was almost begging. I didn't like it.
"Then play nice."
The stranger rose to his full height, extending his hand to help me up. As I tried to stand on my own, I struggled, as if a weight on my shoulders was holding me down.
Fuck, I was tired.
Reluctantly, I took his hand. He pulled me to my feet and steadied me with a hand on my back. I felt my heart beat a touch faster...
Yeah, okay Meg, you fucking touch-starved, gay idiot. Stop being so desperate.
I brushed his hand off my back, "Please don't. Not a big fan of touch."
The stranger hummed in acknowledgement, "Are you feeling better?"
"Yeah. Whatever you did, it did the trick. How did you do that?"
"I am a sorcerer. I am a doctor. I am many things. Things you need, and so I answer."
"Are you from this island?'
"No, I am from another reality. But, I am familiar with this place."
"Wouldn't happen to know about a weapon that can fire giant, island-destroying lightning bolts, would you?"
"There is no weapon of the sort, but if there is a spell..."
"Right. Sorcerer."
"There are a few on the island. I could help you find them, if you would like."
A lead? Already? How lucky... about time, honestly.
I was overdue for a little luck.














