Okay, moving on with what I want to do with my life.
Some guy put this question in my ask.fm:
stop acting like not going to a 4 yr college makes you cool. it doesnt make you cool that youre like all ur friends who have applied to 4 yrs. stop acting like going to community is the better choice becuz it's cheaper. stop trying to make it sound better just becuz you cant get into a 4 yr yourself
I thought (and am thinking):
This guy obviously doesn't know me, he isn't my friend, and he has no sympathy or understanding of my personality. Of course, the social norm right now is that four-year college rocks, and that there's a general, subtle disdain for people who go to community college, even though it is financially smart to do community college.
For me, I'm rather close friends with the top in my class, and other classes as well:
(Alex Tung, valedictorian. Not to mention Annie Semb, Jonah Morales, Nicholas Tu, Nevin Sarao, Kurtland Chua, Chanel Kim, Thomas Tran [projected valedictorian of c/o 2016], Donovan Childs [genius bear-armed man], you get the deal).
And then you have those who aren’t top in the class but are extremely intelligent and purpose-driven people.
For me, having a 3.72 cumulative GPA is sort of humbling in comparison to these geniuses who have cumulative GPA's of like 4.5 and what not. The only gem of genius I can bring to the table of my extremely high-minded social groups is my love for history. Sadly, history isn’t placed very high in importance, and that’s one reason why I believe that’s why humans screw up all the time (but that’s another post).
Furthermore, I’m a distance runner, and I play(ed) the violin. Distance running is usually seen as boring, because who wants to run around a track forever? Who wants to watch someone run around a track forever? If you’re in music, then you know that orchestra is super underrated too, while band always gets the recognition, the money, the cool and fun stuff. Bottom line: You can initially do more stuff with band instruments than you can with string instruments.
Continuing on, I want to do do law enforcement (federal, not state, although CHP doesn’t sound too bad either) because I posses a desire to serve justice and uphold what is right. This seems noble, but the population generally sees cops as tyrannical abusers of power, and hence don’t really like them because of it.
What I’m getting at is that the stuff I love doing and want to do is already looked down upon by some majority. I’m a minority in a lot of the things that define me. Community college among my friends is seen as a downgrade, and seen to others (according to my ask.fm inbox) as a sign of failure. I’m not as smart or as awesome as my valedictorian and sub-valedictorian companions, and hence less-likelier to get into college (I got rejected from all the four-years I applied to, haha). I like history (which no one likes). Distance running is seen as boring, orchestra isn’t as cool as band, and being a cop automatically inherits a label that entails all the contempt and fear in the world. And then I already believe in God, which implies all the crazy worldview stuff in which that there is one God and that all humans are sinful, and that Jesus came to live and die for humanity’s sins, and He rose again so that we can live for God and be with Him after we die.
Right now, I’m in the near worst-case scenario for just about everything. I like everything that no one does, I’m good at what no one else really cares about, and I live a life that no one really wants to live. But the saving grace, the silver lining, whatever-you-wanna-call-it, is that in all my life, I could’ve somehow wanted to do something else. But right now, my path in life has led me all the way to “I want to do police stuff, I want to run, I want to love God, I want to save money, etc.”
And through that, I have confidence that wherever I go and whatever I do, I’m going to do the right thing. (Yes I possess a generally-external locus of control in my worldview).
