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[lesenbyan]

12, 24, 45 for Eve, Aki, and Cyn (all three girls for all three questions, to the best of your ability)

Character Development Questions: Hard Mode

12. In what situation was your character the most calm they’ve ever been?

the cheating answer for all of 'em is the first time they get a whole cuddle pile after they get aki back. nap pile of girls.

Otherwise I'd say...Cyn's the type to get calm right before a battle, deep breath in, let it out slow, everything relaxes so probably before a big battle. I don't think she has any like, routines or rituals before fights (and she's def not the meditating sort.) So top contenders are end of SB, Seat of Sacrifice, and Her Turn in Ultima Thule.

Aki's Happy Calm Space since being taken by garlemald is while doing needlework. Arguably this is a dissociation tactic and disqualified therein but irrelevant bc everything in garlemald is a dissociation tactic.

And Eve's....Ibakha afterglow maybe? Happy and sated, for the moment she's not doubting her place with the Xaela or thinking about being the Warrior of Light bc she's not here bc of that she's here bc Ibakha saw her across the battle field and she doesn't get many of those anymore

24. How quick is your character to trust someone else?

The twins are always much quicker to trust someone if Eve trusts them/Eve's around. Left to their own devices Cyn's trust is hard to earn and not necessarily always easy to recognize bc this girl is autistic coded before I realized I was coding her autistic and emotes? don't know her. She's not great at reading people and tends to extrapolate that out into extra wariness. Whereas Aki's got Anxiety and her sisters were her comfot that helped her try new things and she Suddenly Doesn't Have Them and then you pour trauma on top of that? She also barely trusts. But, again, the exception is if they know Eve Trusts* someone, whether she's present or not.

Eve on the other hand, well, being an empath helps a lot, slap on her echo that makes her literally see others' emotions as colors and it's easy for her to figure out who to trust and who not to once she learn to interpret the color changes. She can however, be a little quick to trust, but that evens out as she gets older and gets more worldly.

*unless they have Good Reason to not that Eve is selectively ignoring or they are unable to share

45. What does your character believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them?

Eve doesn't know. This is a source of actual anxiety for her because While she's been raised Dotharl, she's not even Xaela. She's not even from the Steppe. Could her soul be reborn Dotharl? Does she want to be reborn Dotharl? Or does she want to be Miqo'te again but ""right"" this time? Or does she just want to float in the aether so long she loses all memories and meaning of this life so her next life has a clean slate? or does she want this to be her last life? She doesn't know what she wants and she doesn't know what she beleives and she tries not to think about it because it always ends up with an identity crisis that no one but she can answer but she has no answer.

Cyn 100% believes she'll be once again born Dotharl. She's Dotharl to her blood and bones, she's mom's daughter, she loves the thrill of battle and what great warrior is there than one of the two warriors of light? there might be some haziness in her mind about what happens between her death and her rebirth but ultimately she figures it doesn't matter. she doesn't remember it now, she won't remember it then.

Aki is also strange in that she's never been a particularly good fighter (in fact instead of glass canon shes just glass) so mom did her best to not tout Dotharl belief at her bc this girl was never going to be a warrior and she loves her girls more than she Insists they live a Good Dotharl Life. She doesn't fear death, like any proper dotharl, but she's not throwing herself into battle (tho perhaps that's part of why she's reckless enough to get kidnapped.) However she's also got like 15yrs of garlean propaganda on top of everything and so her beliefs in the Dusk Mother or the Twelve are hazy and uncertain. Mostly, at this point, Aki fears dying without living and she's determined to make up for lost time. Whatever she believes, if she lives a good life, she figures nothing ill can await her.

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I spent $18 for the top of this set but I spent $18 and already had a mod so time for More Out Of Character Horny Glams

[lesenbyan]

[ID: 9 screenshots of three different women in the new Valentione's set (2023); an A-line ruffled dress, long sleeve and ending at mid thigh, tights with a heart pattern up the sides, a derby hat with a bow around it, and short heels with a heart embroidered on their tops.

The first, second, and seventh image are of Eve, a miqo'te woman with tan skin, red hair, and a bell collar around her neck. She's modded to have a larger chest and hips / butt. the jacket of her dress is dyed a rose pink while the skirt is a grey-lilac and her tights a medium red. in the first two images she stands in a bright field of flowers. The first image you can see her whole body as she bends over, blowing a kiss. The kiss is depicted as a bright trail of hearts. The second image is her, knees up, fluffing her hair with one hand and smiling at the camera.

The third, fourth, and ninth image are all of Aki, a Xaela woman with warm blue-grey skin and long black hair with warm purple highlights pulled partially up into two buns atop her head. Her dress is medium purple with a dark purple skirt and her leggings are a red-purple. In the third image she has a white ruffled parasol open behind her head, both hands on the handle as she smiles to something just o the left of the camera. In the fourth she covers her face with one hand, the other extended forward to cover her blush. Both images show her from mid calf and up.

The fifth, sixth, and eighth image are of Cynthia a Xaela woman with cool blue-grey skin and short bright red hair. Of the three, she is the only one wearing the hat. the jacket of her dress is bright red, with a dark red skirt and bright red leggings. In the fifth and sixth images she has a red paper parasol open behind her head. the fifth is a full body shot, while the sixth zooms in to catch her knees up.

the seventh through ninth are all character portraits from mid thigh up. Eve (seventh) and Aki (ninth) have a purple background with stylized lights shooting around behind them. Aki hold her arms behind her and looks down towards her feet shyly with a silver frame. Contrastingly, Eve stands upright, he left hand behind her and her right hand holding something off screen. She has a Far Eastern border with rose accents in the corners and a smile on her face. Cynthia (eighth) stands in a similar pose, instead with her right hand behind her and left holding something off screen. She has a background of the starry night sky and a black lace frame. /end ID]

The girls.....

[lesenbyan]

[ID: two FFXIV screenshots of Cynthia, an Auri woman with redish skin and red hair. The left side of her face is modded to appear burned and she wears thigh high boots, spandex short shorts, and a shirt with a deep V neck, all dyed black. In the first image her fingers are interlocked on her stomach as she looks down at the camera to her side, smiling softly. In the second, her left hand is raised to her face in thought and she looks out of the camera judgmentally. /end ID]

guess who got a /dote for bein Cute while I was AFK

[lesenbyan]

[ID: A screenshot of Cynthia, an Au Ra woman with warm redish skin and short bright red hair. She wears red shorts and knee high boots with a black bralette and a red rose corsage on her left wrist. The camera is angled from below her as she looks at something off camera above it, and holds a large axe, two handed, resting on her right shoulder. /end ID]

Eve vc: Hello, this is Cynthia Qestir Himaa and she will be your tank for the evening.

mods: x | x

[lesenbyan]

A-D for Eve and Cyn

Uncommon Questions for OCs and their creators

you're gonna get a bonus Aki on some of these just bc they're a set by design and I sure you'll find aome way to deal with that horrible truth (that's sarcasm for anyone who can't tell)

A) Why are you excited about this character?

It's hard to put into words with OCs so old. Part of my love for both of them is both nostalgia and reclamation. As I'm sure I've told you before, the girls were created via back and forth character development with the person who then became my first ex (and my only Traumatic Breakup) so my development of them fizzled for a while, but Eve's always been my default go-to OC

And that is bc my thoughts in my own head aren't....clear? I think most in impressions and vibes with a Single conscious thought possible at a time, if I'm gonna remember it anyway, which makes character development without a sounding board really hard. So for years Eve was my only fleshed out OC bc 1) she's the more social one so I pull together her story easier and faster without having to pull teeth to get it from her and 2) she's got a lot more of. Who I used to be and wishfullfilment in her so it's easier to figure her out.

and, in contrast, I love Cyn (and Aki) bc they're difficult to figure out. Cyn's selective mutism is hard for me to write bc I'm not great at show don't tell so writing her when not through the lens of Eve who Knows Her can be very hard and when writing her as her is hard bc I'm also not great at nonverbal communication. But that's fun for me, and it requires me to understand other neurodivergences irl which is a big bonus

B) What inspired you to create them?

again, as mentioned above, they were being created with an ex. I'm not sure exactly if I had any real inspiration for them past the fact of "I'm friends with writers, I'm the [child] of a writer, my brother's a writer, and i write fanfics now, surely this means I have to make up characters" and like. Faulty logic, but I poured into Eve (and the story around her) everything I wanted for my future. I'm not quite certain why I created Cyn in all of it. Like in their original mostly scrapped story Aki and Eve's roles were clear but Cyn didn't have one. I invented a role for her but I could never think of a way for that to tie into what Eve was doing apart from the fact of Aki and Cyn being twins. She only really started getting development when I decided I wanted a "adorable and Bloodthirsty" character but even now I have issues trying to figure out exactly where and how Cyn fits sometimes, for all I love her and know she cannot be removed from Eve and Aki anymore.

C) Did you have trouble figuring out where they fit in their own story?

I- well I kinda went into this above, but to further expound the issue always was that Aki was a metaphor for depression (and possibly suicide coming to think on it) and Eve was her White Knight and I've never quite figured out where Cyn fits in that. Eve's always been easy, she's a protector and a lover and a martyr if she has to be, even if she's angry about her mission, she does it bc it's her mission, as you see with her attitude and mental state in recent events in XIV and Aki's hopeless despair romanticized and turned "beautiful" whereas Cyn's... Cyn was anger at one point but that doesn't fit her. Like don't get me wrong, you don't want to piss her off, but she's much more stable and self contained than that. I've recently ish come to realize she's also a protector but a different kind- Eve protects the world, Cyn protects her own. But I'm still not sure where that fits in with even the base original narrative with the other two girls.

D) Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look?

Cyn has! she's always been on the mid to short side of average, medium build, and adorably dressed. I would always imagine her in a right red empire waist knee length dress with a black under bust corset and matching bright red like 3-5" heels. And a giant axe. She and her sister (as you can likely guess somewhat from the names) were meant to be Fantasy East Asian looking and then. had none of the culture. bc i was a 13yo weeb (and if i ever revist them outside of fandoms I will either adjust them/their designs and/or their culture accordingly)

Whereas, as we kinda briefly touched on last night while talking about Eve's patron, she's actually slid around a lot. She was originally far more self insert so she was my skin tone and skinny, at a certain point I....in some weird ass logical leap, decided to make her vaguely middle eastern looking (bc of the skin tone??? despite being lived experience that tone =/= nationality or race????) but I didn't do much with her then and when i went to revisit her just went ".....having none of the culture here make this feel gross, she's back to self insert-ish." And one of her defining qualities has always been "attractive" so there was a years long war in my head bc I prefer women mid sized and up but society prefers skinny women and I was never sure how to marry the two so her weight was always inconsistent. Until recently. When I've just been loudly declaring that she is fat and she is gorgeous and she loves her size.

[lesenbyan]

anyway, no one asked but like, I think when I first made my three girls I was toying with different types of femininity bc like.

First we got Eve who is on an axis I've dubbed "bubblegum" bc like. most Femme styles have a subset that's often shown chewing gum- bimbos, that One skater chick, head bitch in a prep clique. and if you shift her to that genre that tends to be the role she falls into. (now I have bubblegum bitch stuck in my head and that needs to go on her playlist)

Then there's Cyn who's violence and anger and all sleek full length dresses or a little ruffle and knee length cute heels and a giant axe, but she's soft. The most maternal of the three (and indeed the only one I've ever envisioned with kids.) She's pretty and feminine and will also relieve your shoulders the burden of your head if you get on her wrong side

And then there's Aki who is the Generic Good Girl. Quiet wallflower, dresses conservatively, shy, dainty, 100% incapable of fighting, loves "feminine tasks" like weaving and sewing. Trauma turns her goth adjacent but she's still all of the above, just in black.

Of the three, Eve's the one who would most likely choose to wear pants. And as anyone who knows her will tell you, she'd prefer tiny shorts or a short skirt any day,