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[lil-d00dles]

Y'all know what time it is :D

Another post of me yapping about the fix-a-beast au! @fishymom-art made yet another comic, and I'm scared! Everything's actively going to shit, and no one's okay! But ykw that's why I'm here.

So let's just get started!

Warning: spoilers on the newest fix-a-beast comic. Read that before seeing this one I'll be spoiling a lot. Also loooots of words. Also also I swear a lot this time lol idk why. You've been warned!

.....oh :D

So I thought PV's reaction to all this would be tears and despair. I mean, there's still despair, but he's PISSED. And honestly this is 10x more scarier and concerning then him just breaking down into tears. A truely pissed off PV is not something I ever wanna deal with.

Look even DE is like ".....oh I messed up didn't I" yes. Yes you did. Also that line is so good hello?? Where is fishy getting these godly lines bro-

Also love that PV has some shadow milk motifs. They're made for eachother in a scary way <3

......this also wasn't the reaction I was expecting but okay??? Bro's in so much pain he's just completely losing it :/

Like I can't even tell what he's thinking! He's just looking at the jam questioning his choices

UGHHHHH NOOOOO THE CHILDREN NOOOOOO!!

CLOUD HATAE CALLING MF HIS MOM WHEN HIS REAL MOM IN CANON DIED DEFENDING HER I'M GONNA CRY DUDE

NOT TO MENTION THAT CHOCO HAS A COMPLICATED RELATIONSHIP WITH HUS DAD BUT STILL CARES FISHY WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME

Also DC fully losing it because his kids are crying, not because his arm is chopped off? Ow???

THIS IS SO SICK!!!!

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY FOR THIS ONE I JUST LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!

LET'S GOOOO MY QUEEN!

She didn't even hesitate to cut it either girly's on her last straw. Not to mention that she absolutely pulls off the short hair

Also I find it really funny that DE just went "ew wtf I don't want this"

I think fishy is getting into drawing Eldridge horrors, badass scenes, and straight up trauma. I'm seeing a theme these past few comics

BEAT HER ASS GUYS!!

You don't get to cry 🙃

Love how they all ganged up on her and literally murdered her despite all her power

I don't feel bad for her at all but I wanna know why she's crying. Like I think she also did when possessing CC. Idk I'm just curious

Also I can't show another pic but GC CALLED BURNT CHEESE HER TREASURE AHHHHHHHH!!!

She's the best I love GC so much

D00dles was then found dead on the streets after this whole comic due to the sheer emotional damage./j

HATAE CALLED HIM DAD. THAT'S HIS SON. GIVE HIM A HUG AND A LIL KISS ON THE FOREHEAD RIGHT NOW.

Seriously though this comic had no right to be this heart wrenching. Like obviously I knew this would be sad but THIS IS TOO SAD FISHY >:(

Also I wasn't expecting DE to just straight up die? Is she gone for good now??

Loooong story short, I'm in pain and fishy stabbed me. I will still give them art because I like the pain. Stay tuned.

[lil-d00dles]

Y'all.

Y'all I have the urge to analyze.

So basically @fishymom-art made another comic about their fix a beast au that was SO GOOD I decided to make a play by play/analysis about it. (It's literally called Odysseus how could I not bro) Basically just my thoughts on it. Idk if I'll do this more in the future we'll see.

Warning: looong rant that includes spoilers for fishy's newest comic. I won't spoil everything but you should still check it out first. You've been warned!

Oh and we're immediately introduced to more trauma :D

So White Lily finally figured it out Clotted Cream is going through actual hell....yup this is how I thought it would go.

I feel so bad for CC man he just wanted to help! But obviously WL doesn't want to abandon everyone just for her own safety

God look at them crying no one is okay. This is such a forbidden love/enemies and lovers that I wasn't expecting when starting this series.

Damn cherry tart cookie didn't deserve that. But silent Salt is completely losing it sooo....

Honestly with all the other art of SS being a soft chill guy I actually forgot that he's still a cold hearted killer. Especially what happened to his friends.....yeah she was cooked the moment she existed.

MY FREEDOM?? I'M CRYING?? HELLO????

Breaking SS' mask was SUCH a good choice. You can see the pain and agony on this man's face give him rest and a therapist.

Jesus look at him go. Bro is NOT playing around. This panel is SO good look at his helmet in the middle of the dying soldiers. Bros 100% getting deja vu rn. (Can't show the image there's an image listing to posting >:( )

Love the silverbell x black saffire fluff in the middle of the pain :,) they're honestly super cute and I want them to kiss and be happy and frolic in a field. At least we got a break while SS kills anything that moves.

Oh okay Epic fan I see you! Really living up to the name of this comic huh? God and the pose too is just so good-

"You don't think I know my own palace? built it."

Need I say more?

But seriously this part got me good. God I love this love triangle with a dead guy.

And oh god everything is getting even worse somehow someone save.... literally everyone. No one is safe. No one is okay. I'm not okay.

So in conclusion this was an amazing comic and fishy has god like writing genius. The art is great. The poses are great. The writing is great. The references are great. I have a problem.

Welp that's enough writing for me today! Go see the comic if you haven't it's really really cool!

Byeeeeee and thanks for reading all this!

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Okay I'm late as hell but

@fishymom-art MADE A NEW COMIC YIPPEEEEEE!!

I've been busy but I still wanna do an analysis since lots of people liked the last one.

So here we go! Let's get started on the suffering!

Warning: spoilers on the newest fix a beast au comic. See that before this one. I talk about and show a lot more panels then the last one, so see the comic before this. Also a lot of words ahead. You've been warned!

Oh cool and PV is dissociating right off the bat lovely. And I think that the others noticed right away because you can see them calling for him in the smudged text 💔

They all care for him so much I'm not okay-

Honestly fair reaction from Dark Cacao. The Créme republic is (to them, at least. we all know it's really dark enchantress) is to blame for the mess they're all in rn. I know Financier cookie is on the winning side rn, but it's fair that he's suspicious. And I think she knows that.

God this scene went so hard.

The acceptance on GC's face, followed by the shock and relief?? Girl was totally fine with being murdered by her kinda boyfriend. She was probably terrified inside tho.

Black saffire. My guy. You're not slick at all. Just kiss the little fairy already. Also the look on SM's face goes so hard. And the way the eyes on his hair are like "hehe murder time >:)"

Well this is horrifying :D

Also idk why CC/DE is crying here? Like is it CC having a smidge of control or what?

THE GAYS. THE GAYS ARE HERE. AND THE CHILL RELATIONSHIP DC AND MF HAVE. (The ship between GC and BS is actively sinking and being repaired at the same time)

Don't you love it when you're so gay for somebody your text bubble turns into a heart?

MAY THE POWER OF GAY AND FRIENDSHIP COMPEL YOU!!!

I find it cool that in Holly's awakened form she's usually drawn with just one eye. Idk I just like it

Also MF just saying it now the way you're grabbing DC is not platonic damn- (also ES you're not slick either I see those fuck me eyes)

Ykw screw it I ran into the image limit but I'm not done yapping. So I'm gonna reblog this to yap some more.

Go to the reblogs page on this post to see the rest of this analysis when I finish it. Also please reblog both parts together when they come out or it'll look weird lol.

[lil-d00dles]

I can't make this up anymore bro

This is the third time. THE THIRD TIME I'VE HAD MY HEALTH JUST DIPPED THE SECOND FISHY POSTS A NEW FIX A BEAST COMIC.

This must be a curse or something because wtf this is getting to common 😭

And then Tumblr posted my unfinished draft AGAIN so I lost all my progress. Not to mention I got flooded with work (and got addicted to tomodachi life in between lol I needed my serotonin) so yeah

Welp anyways y'all know the drill @fishymom-art posted a comic and I'm gonna talk about it way too late because that's just how it is now ig. Time for the..... not really silly!

Warning: loooots of words ahead. And big spoilers for this fix a beast comic. This one has a big lore drop so if you haven't already (somehow) go read that first. Ok let's go

Oh this frame is so sick dude. I think it shows that at this point both Shadow Milk and Burning spice have already been corrupted? Their eyes uuuuuugh I wanna eat the colors. They look like cards. I would buy these as cards

Also Salt Cellar cookie's here! Hooray! It's nice seeing her relationship with SS even though she's.....gone? Dead? Idk but she's not here anymore

OH MY GOD THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE!!! THE FACT THAT SS WANTED TO HELP THE FAIRIES AND KEEP DOING HIS DUTIES AT ONCE SO HE LITERALLY SPLIT HIMSELF IN TWO JUST TO HELP??

Ooough the parallels are paralleling between him and White Lily I'm SCREAMING

The difference is SS chose to be split in two, and knew how to manage them both. And it's cool that First Salt decided to help SS since most of the time the witches don't do shit lmao

Also side note, I LOVE the virtue and salt statue line since it can apply to both of them. (Idk man just think about it it makes sense kinda lmaooo)

Oooh, now that's some good lore! So from what I got from that, even in the tree SS still saw and felt EF's whole life? That's cool! So he was never completely isolated in that tree, just stuck with seeing memories of a version of himself he'll never get to see again. Which is.....worse actually.

Does that mean he felt his other self's pain? Felt himself literally dying? God I have so many concerning questions about this that I probably don't want the answers to.

WAIT! I THINK I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING!!

I think the reason SS hides half of his face now is because when he fused back with EF, it got messed up somehow? Or it looks a bit too much like EF (if that even makes sense idk anymore bro) BUT EITHER WAY HIS FACE IS PROBABLY MESSED UP IN SOME WAY SHAPE OR FORM THAT'S MY THEORY. GAME THEOR-

SS once again experiencing the feeling of people missing him. Actually him, not just the half he considers "better". Ughhhh I love his expression whenever someone says they missed him HE'S SO SURPRISED MY SHAYLA. Even with his murder sprees people still care for him

God I love SS <3

God and his friendship with Mercurial Knight is so sweet broooo

He loved his knights!! And MK seems to miss when he was a knight too...AUGH MY HEART!!! SS still has no idea how much people care for him does he....DAMN IT!! And ooooh god idk what MK's reaction will be when he discovers the secret....like I could kinda guess for the other but not this one

I'm scared D:

NOT THE DEAD GUY HAUNTING THE NARRATIVE AGAIN NOOOOO!!!!

Also the fact she sees him in the angle where SS keeps his face covered. Ow. (Even more proves my theory maybe idk man) I KNOW IT'S PROBABLY JUST THE ANGLE BUT LET ME HAVE THIS!!!

Also the pain in her eyes....god can they just be in love??? (We are NOT talking about the recent comic. Let's just all pray together that it's not canon even though it probably is)

GIRL NO YOU ARE NOT TALK TO HIM!!!

Ughhhh their eyessssss I'm gonna explode and die. WL is definitely catching on which is.... really not good. I'm scared of when she'll finally find out AHHHHHHH I'M NOT READY! And from how SS looks, he can probably tell she's catching on too. And it's honestly hard to tell what he's feeling about it. Fishy is out to kill me istg-

OH THAT SHOT LOOKS SO COOL!! THE DEAD GUY'S FUSING WITH HIS DEAD INSIDE COUNTERPART LET'S GOOOOOO!! (/J well I mean for now at least. With what I saw of his awakened form, it might just happen lol.) God I really love this comic it helps explain so much! How EF and SS are the same, how it didn't complicate things when SS met WL, everything! And the splashes of color are so tasty I wanna eat them-

.......

Okaaaay, now let's address the elephant in the room

Where the hell did I go?

Soooo yeah like I mentioned above I died for a bit, got swamped with work and tomodachi life. But also I just....lost motivation and I'm rn doing a lot for school since I'm really close to graduating. So uh. I'M NOT QUITING ANALYZING! I just. Couldn't find myself finishing it until now. I really hope y'all don't mind. I noticed a lot of people have been liking my previous yaps. If y'all don't mind, is it okay if I post all the other comics I missed later? (Probably in a bit since I have the photos I want to use but that's. Uh. It.) Is it too late? Does literally anyone still care? Idk but I'd still like to do them if you guys won't mind. Hopefully I'll be more active during summer

Okay sorry to everyone who waited and probably thought I quit! Okay byeeeeee!

[lil-d00dles]

"My work is never finished!

Like Sisyphus I am bound :)"

(This quote is some REALLY funny Foreshadowing lol)

Hello! I know I already did a review a couple of days ago at an ungodly hour but @fishymom-art made yet another comic and I need to make up for lost time!.....at another ungodly hour in my timezone because the late night motivation hits hard.

This one's also pretty short but idk I just really like this comic for some reason lol

Okay anyways let's do this! Review time!!

Warning: loooots of words ahead. Idk if this counts as a spoiler either so just in case read the original comic first before this one :)

MORE BLACK BELL (or whatever this ship is called) LET'S GOOOOOO!!!

I like the dynamic of Black Saff just showing up for no reason and Silver being fine with that lol. Like I think Silver likes to be completely alone when practicing archery but still lets Saff hang around because he just really likes his company <3

Also Saff's gay little pose is taking me out bro-

(light teasing? A compassionate cookie and a teasing, still a bit mischievous cookie? Gay poses? SHADOWNILLA PART TWO)

Ooooh!! So he heard that! Ugh that adds so much to that scene! I wonder if anyone else heard it? That would be.... something. ✨Plot points✨

See SS, this is why you don't monologue about something you wanna keep a secret out loud in an open area. Well he's been alone for a super long time time so I'll cut him some slack lol.

God I can't get over Fishy's perfect design for this man without his helmet. He just looks so tired and serene and shrititjflgklwekeotks IDK I JUST LOVE IT! Also the lily is such a cute touch (yes I saw the comic of WL giving it to him I just didn't analyze it but it was so cute it was adorable)

Also the line about not biting is really funny if you take it literally. Like imagine if SM when he was still a beast spread lies that SS but cookies through or with his helmet lmaoooo (I feel like he used to make up ridiculous lies about the other beasts that people just believed)

Fishy coming up with brilliant traits/not magical abilities for these cookies as usual.

Saff absolutely COULD tell immediately if someone was lying, even convincingly since he was a minion of deceit! Ughhh it's just so clever I want this to be used more!!

I feel like he's good at reading people's emotions in general since, again, past minion of deceit. (I didn't show the image here but in the first panel of this comic he mentioned that something is bothering Silver. Maybe it's just because he's close with him but LET ME HEADCANON ABOUT THIS AU)

HE DID IT! HE DID THE THING!! THE THING SHADOW MILK HAS DONE IN THE PAST THAT I'M TOO LAZY TO FIND A PICTURE OF!!!

Now we just need Candy apple to do it and we'll get the trilogy of past causes of deceit having shadowed over faces to make them look more menacing :D

Oh.

Ohhhhh.

EF is Silver's dad.

Oh nooooooooooooooo.

Yeah so idk if this was mentioned before but this filled me with surprise and dread lmao. They probably did but I joined this au about in the middle of the faerie kingdom arc so even though I tried to catch up on all the lore, I miss stuff (some more important than others....oops). But honestly I think this was the best way for me to learn about this plot point :)

Seriously tho this makes SS' imprisonment and betrayal so much more sadder because he basically betrayed his son personally by ripping his father figure away. God I can see the tragedy coming from a mile away and I'm scared-

Well....at least it's kinda sweet that he's planning telling Silver someday? Like he knows he's nowhere near ready right now, but the guilt must eat at SS even if he doesn't show it.

But I'm calling it right now, fate will NOT wait for Silver to be ready, and he'll figure it out early and it'll crush the poor guy.

Because God forbid this plotline ever goes right :)

(obviously this is just a theory so who knows what'll happen.

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A FILM THEOR-)

AWWWEEEE THAT'S SO CUTE! WHAT A PERFECT WAY TO END THIS!!!! THE WAY SS LOOKS SP SURPRISED, THEM HAPPY HE GETS TO SPEND TIME WITH HIS SON AGAIN WHILE SILVER JUST WANTS A MENTOR FIGURE AGAIN MY HEART AHHHHHHHHHHHHH-

Also Salt Cellar cookie (I think) mentioned woohooooo!!! Wonder what happened to her and Charcoal cookie? Maybe that's been answered already lol I'll get to digging.

So in short this comic was bittersweet more than anything, with cute moments but also give me fears of what could happen. Great job making me scared fishy! :D

Also sidenote; that quote from the beginning? I decided to start with that as a joke when I started making this right after posting my last analysis. Then like a day later Fishy posted another comic. I was like "damn it, it's becoming a loop. Oh well I'll just finish this one when I can/feel like it."

Then today FISHY POSTED ANOTHER COMIC. HELP. WHY DO THIS TO MYSELF? HOW ARE THEY DOING THIS SO FAST AS SOON AS I GET BACK TO DOING THIS?? SOMEONE SAVE ME FROM ME 😭😭😭

(obviously this is a joke lol I just found it super funny that the second I got back to analyzing these Fishy just starts throwing these comics rapid fire)

So yeah I locked in, looped the same song over and over and worked on this from around 11pm to now close to 12 am. Can you tell I function weird? :D

Hopefully I'll lock in again and finish these next two soon not near 12 am (one can dream lol) because I genuinely like them and I wanna cover them (even though I jokingly complain about it a lot, I'm not being forced to do these!! I like doing these and I wanna keep doing them, even though I've been getting slower posting them and get motivated to finish them at ungodly hours lol)

Okaaaay now that long tangent's over, so I hope you liked this! I'll try to keep locking in before I have like five I need to do 🫡

Byeeeeeeee!

...... I'm going to sleep.

[lil-d00dles]

I HAVE RISEN!!!!

So yeah I've been kinda quiet for a while now so sorry about that lol.

Idk my health took another decline the moment Fishy posted the last comic for the faerie kingdom arc (I think I'm cursed y'all)

And then after that the comics were shorter so I just didn't feel like it.

But now I do feel like it because IT'S A WEDDING HOORAY!!!

It's just so cute and perfect and I wanna talk about it because I have free will.

Also I don't have a creative way to tag the creator this time so here you go @fishymom-art (Idk anymore this is just for me lmao)

Warning: loooots of words ahead, but not as usual since I'm not really picking at much. Also idk if this is a spoiler because it's not really lore heavy but read the original comic first because it's just peak

Ok prepare for the silly

Idk why I'm even showing this picture it just screams gay polycule to me. Are they already a polycule? Are they going to be a polycule? Are they just going to be the most chaotic totally just roommates ever? Idk anymore dude I just really like this frame for some reason. (Also Raspberry and Wildberry in the background are just so cute I love the gay besties <3)

Mf omg don't leave out the details! WDYM YOU WENT TO A WEDDING THAT DIDN'T LAST HELLO??? GIMME THE TEA GIRL!

Fishy hinted that it was one of the beasts and AHHH GIVE ME MORE WHO WAS MARRIED??

Also hatae cookie in a dress.

We love hatae cookie in a dress

HOLY SHIT OUR RADIANT QUEEN OML SHE LOOKS STUNNING

I have never felt more gay then I do right now. The hair? The hips?? The tattoos??? HER???? I would let her stab me (jk I know she's a cookie and I shouldn't really simp for her but Jesus)

I need her drawn with more black hairstyles because I was taken so off guard by how much she absolutely SLAYS.

"Hey fishy how many cookies do you want to be in the background?"

" Y E S . "

Someone already mentioned Venom dough cookie, so instead I'm gonna name all the other cookies here BECAUSE I CAN >:) (from top to bottom)

*inhales* Fire Spirit Wind Archer Stardust Millenial Tree (I think) Moonlight Sea Fairy (lesbians hehe) Clotted Cream Prune Juice Kouign Amann (that was hard to spell lol) Manju Jagae Wedding Cake (pretty sure she was in charge of all of this) Black forest (lesbians again hehe) and Financier. Gay as far as the eyes can see 😌

Can you tell I'm very obsessed with this fandom? :DD

THEY'RE BOTH SO BEAUTIFUL AHHHHHHH THEMMMMMM!!!

I really like SM's design especially the halo is just UGH so good. And honestly he's pulling off that blind eye look. Also the fact he called them BOTH heroes?? UGH IT'S SO CUTE!!!

I'm obsessed with all the outfits and designs this comic! They all have such unique styles from their respective kingdoms and I think they're based on real places and AH I JUST LOVE IT THIS IS THE MAIN REASON I WANTED TO COVER THIS COMIC!!

LOOK AT THEM LOOK AT THEMMMM THEY'RE SO IN LOVE!! EVEN THOUGH THEY'RE BLIND THEY LOOK AT EACHOTHER WITH SO MUCH ADORATION I WANT THEM TO BE HAPPY FOREVER AND FROLIC IN A FIELD WITH THEIR CHILD AND BASICALLY ADOPTED CHILDREN AHDHFHDJFJFJJF

They deserve the whole world they're just so cute bro-

Hooraaaay they kissed- WAIT WTF OMG CRUNCHY CHIP HELLO???? I WASN'T TALKING ABOUT YOU LMAO WE GOT DOUBLE THE GAYS IN JUST ONE PANEL

There's so much to unpack in this one frame bro. From the two lovebirds kissing (yay :D), Black Raisin's cool scar, Strawberry Crepe looking so joyful and holding PV and SM's child that I forgot the name of (they're siblings and I will die on this hill), Clotted Cream being a fifth wheel and actually experiencing joy for once, the three main heroes (and Candy Apple) absolutely rocking their wedding outfits, Nutmeg tiger and Caspian (I think that's him) just hanging out and Crunchy chip just CASUALLY GIVING WILDBERRY A SMOOCH I WASN'T PREPARED FOR THAT BUT I LOVE IT (Raspberry looks so confused lmao she's just like "oh ok"), it's just my favorite panel of the whole comic.

Fishy really chose to just make this comic as gay as they physically could and honestly I love them for that. Spread your truth king make the gayest wedding besides Ruby and Sapphire from Steven universe :)

So in short the comic was perfect and I love it and it will be cherished forever <3 GREAT JOB FISHY I LOVED THIS ONE!!

Also side note I just realized that Fishy posted ANOTHER COMIC THE OTHER DAY AND I DIDN'T REALIZE? AND IT'S REALLY COOL??

Fishy's sending me back to the mines bro send help 😭 (jk again lol I reeeeally wanna cover that one)

So prepare for another analysis in a day or more probably because my motivation hates me 🙃

(side note side note for everyone (including you fishy) waiting on the finished product of this wip I made I'M SO SORRY IT'S TAKING SO LONG IT'S A PROCESS I'M WORKING ON IT IT'S ALMOST DONE I JUST NEED TO FORCE MYSELF TO COLOR IT JUST BARE WITH ME PLEASE)

Okay that's all! Hope y'all have a good day and stare at this beautiful gay wedding!

Okay byeeeee!!

[lil-d00dles]

Hey @babyblender2002!

*Throws art at you rapidly*

Okaaay, so for context, a while ago Blender made a WIP of a fun little BFDI comic (this one right here) and I decided to redraw it in my style! In like a day. When it usually takes me longer than that. When I'm not used to drawing well that quickly. And it was also my first time drawing the algebraliens. So I ended up HATING IT WITH A BURNING PASSION. ONE LOOKS LIKE AN INFLATED BALLOON. Although people liked it for some reason idk I just didn't lol.

Fast forward a month or maybe more (it honestly feels like forever ago tbh) and I unlocked digital art and thought "hey! Since I wanna kill this art with fire, how about I redo it in digital and give myself a lot more time?" So that's what I did. This took me so long because I was busy with other stuff, but now it's finally done! Yay! Stare at it! :D

Besides it taking so long it was actually fun and it inspired another algebralien thing that will probably go nowhere because I have no other ideas for it.

Okay anyways here's the original:

And here's my original redraw throw tomatoes at it:

Aaaand that's about it! I was gonna redraw the little bonus drawing I did, but idk now lol that would've just taken this longer to post. Should I? Lmk ig

Okay byeeeeeeeee! *Fades back into the ether*

(also this is my 100th post omg what-)

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Oh wow I love this music! It's so fun and it's gotten me through hard times. I could listen to them for hours. I hope the creators will always be- gets shot 50 times.

I'm just annoyed atp. In one damn year. First it was ghost and pals. Then it's kittensneeze and jakeneutron (and apparently longest solo? Idk about him for sure tho I need to check). I'm tired bro. CAN'T PEOPLE JUST BE NORMAL ONLINE??

Now I can probably never animate to those songs I loved. Now I can never cover those songs. The moment I do people will be like "oh you support their horrible actions". Which no! I don't! I just really love those songs and some coming up! I don't want to ban myself from enjoying what I loved just because other people made really shitty decisions.

"Just separate the work from the creator" Yeah! I'd love to do that! But other people won't apparently! I don't want to be judged or labeled something horrible because I love their songs! Will you still be saying that separate them if I say one of their works is my favorite song? If I animate the song? If I cover it? What then? Am I a horrible person too?

Sighhhhh.....idk what to do anymore. I don't know what to enjoy anymore. Whatever.