author's note: I can’t apologize enough for the insanely long wait on this chapter! I’ve been writing the series out of order and filling in all the blanks as I go, so putting chapters together has been time-consuming (huge shoutout to all the time Mikala has spent helping me make this work). long story short there is a lot more written and coming soon! feedback is always very appreciated <3
P.S. I went back and updated Chapter 1 so it might look a bit different now
characters: Annie Cresta, Finnick Odair, Mags Flanagan, Plutarch Heavensbee, Fulvia Cardew, District 4 Male Tribute
additional tags: 70th hunger games, slow burn, career!annie, rebel!annie, enemies to friends to lovers, hurt/comfort, canon compliant, canon-typical violence, pov annie cresta, pov finnick odair, minor original characters, mental health issues
“When I was a tribute, Mags asked both of us what we wanted. Other than winning, that is. What could she help us get out of the games?”
“I’d rather you just get me out of the games,” Annie countered.
“There’s no getting out of the games,” Finnick said bitterly, deflating her. He noticed this and shook his head regretfully. “I thought the same way, is what I mean. But, you’ll come to realize there’s more to it than that.”
“I wish your advice wasn’t so patronizing, Finnick. I might be inclined to take it,” her attitude was apparent but he smiled to himself, somehow encouraged. She continued. “I want them to see me for who I am. I won’t put on some Capitol persona or play down my strength. I want everyone to know I can win, pitilessly.”
He already knew she could win. There was no piece of this plan he could offer that would give her what she wanted. Would she resent him for involving her in all of this? Would she be willing to give up her chances and trust Finnick of all people?
//cw: ableist slur and depiction of internalized ableism//
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After telling her about his detransition she proceeded to ask a handful of follow up questions (they were pretty incoherent, and he honestly didn’t know enough..), he did his best to answer them until she just told him “srry for so mny questions idk if u can rlly give me what i wnt…for answers i mean! i think i jst need some time to thnk” (so there’s still, a chance they stay friends, hahaha,,, he’s dying ;-;).
But actually tho what the fuck just happened? Lu was so confused… did Alice just ask him out, or ask him to ask her out… why? He’s so… subpar, how long had she liked him??? Her little brother always called him her “boyfriend” to tease her, but he thought the joke was cause of how… mediocre he was. He knew she would say stupid things to make him flustered but, but wasn’t that to get a reaction out of him (plus she teased all her friends). She always did sit close to him when they hung out (but like she’s a girl, girls hug and cuddle and hold each other's hands all the time… right?). Wasn’t there that guy she liked??? Was she playing a prank on him?... no she would say that’s cringe and lame probably… so she likes him. He still can’t begin to process that but, luckily he won’t have too! Since she now knows about how absolutely disgusting his body is she’ll stop having feelings real quick (yay problem solved ;~;)... this sucks, if she had just never liked him it wouldn’t have hurt this much, was she gonna grow cold… like… nvm, he didn’t want to think about that, he didn’t want to think at all actually… she was his only friend (unless you counted his roommate Tanner… he seems nice… they rarely talked tho.) why did he have to like her so much, why did she have to like him back! If she was just not interested he could repress and hide away his feelings as tho they didn’t exist, but instead she ripped his heart out of his chest and now that she knew… she would throw it away. In this moment he wished more than anything he could be a feather floating thru the wind not needing to feel emotions or have thoughts, just going where the universe takes him.
Alice was somewhat more distant than before, but Lu was surprised how much she kept in contact. They didn’t really talk about what happened, which was comforting. He didn’t need to worry about what to say or do to keep her in his life, it was as tho they had an unspoken agreement to not acknowledge it. One day she asks to hangout at his, it was just after a big test so his roommate was out at a party…
trashbag_minister (Lu): “sure thing”
Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): “yay!”
Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): “when wll u get here btw”
trashbag_minister (Lu): “around 20 minutes”
Tranny Mona Lisa (Alice): “❤️❤️❤️❤️”
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She just sent him hearts, he thinks his brain is about to explode… did she used to send hearts?... he thinks so… maybe, but like it had to mean someth- no… no no no. He wasn’t going to do this, he was going to be normal. She’s his friend.
When he picked her up she waved to him and got in, the car ride was quiet, but that was normal (he was so bad at talking and driving). But when they got out she was a bit quieter than usual, she barely said a word until they got to his dorm. When they did she hesitantly started talking about her life as they often did, but it felt strange, like she was padding for time. After a couple of minutes of this he asked…
Lu: “Is there something you wanna talk about?”
Alice: “...”
she seems more nervous than he’s ever seen her
Alice: “yeah…”
(oh god, dear god, please let it be no big deal)
she is fiddling with the seam of her shirt ever so slightly
Alice: “I don't super know what your detransition means to you…”
Alice: “... i mean, i tried to learn, but there aren’t many… resources or anything”
Alice: “anyway i don’t know what it means, but i still like *you*”
he lets out a deep breath
(thank jesus)
Lu: “Cool…”
Alice: “...”
Alice: “Do you… like me too?”
(shit)
Lu: “Oh… you meant like *like like*.”
Alice glares at him like he just said the stupidest thing in the world
Alice: “Yeah no fucking duh, also who says ‘like like’ past the age of ten”
Lu: “i don’t umm…”
Alice pulls back and once again becomes more timid
Alice: “Do you not? It’s okay if you don’t i… just thought you did…”
Lu: “No i d-do- i do, i just…”
Alice both looks affirmed and confused
Lu: “You shouldn’t,,n’t l-like me.”
Alice: “Why???”
Lu: “Be-be-be-cau-cause you can do better-ter…”
Alice: “That’s retarded!”
Lu: “L-Lys! You can’t sssay that!”
Alice: “Jesus fucking christ Lu, i… i just *fucking confessed to you*, and you respond with the dumbest shit i’ve ever heard, i can respond however the fuck i god damn want!”
Lu: “go-ju-Alice! I- it’s- god like you- you- you could- could have any s-s-ssself respecting man you want, you sh-shouldn’t se–se-set-t-tle for… *me*”
Alice: “I’m not settling, i *like* you, you’re smart and caring and sweet, why wouldn’t i like you.”
Lu: “Why *w-would* you! I’m a fu-fu-fu shit fuck god damn it! I’m a- I’m a fucking pathetic little shit preten-pretending to be a man, i-i-i can b-b-b-barely even s-sb-sp-speak, i…"
she rests a hand on him and looks in his eyes, he didn’t realize he was crying
Alice: “Are you okay?”
Lu: “...ye i just, it’s nothing, my brain is stupid sometimes”
Alice: “That's okay, i’m sorry for getting you worked up."
she smiles up at him
Alice: “I’m just… if you like me and i like you there isn’t any real reason not to date right?”
Lu: “But it’s more,, complicated than that-t”
Alice’s jaw clenches for a second but she takes a somewhat forced breath to relax
Alice: “Why? Why does it have to be?”
Lu: “Because of all the s–st-stuff i said.”
Alice: “But i don’t care about any of that.”
he pulls away from her
Lu: “I don’t even have a f-f-d-di-dick Alice… how would that- how would that even work”
she looks somewhat surprised at that, but responds quickly anyways
Alice: “Tons of people make that work.”
Lu: “But you shouldn’t- you shoulnt have too, your boy-boyfriend should be a real man not a tr-tr-trans girl in denial”
Alice: “You could be my girlfriend then, we don’t hav-”
Lu: “I don’t want to be your girlfriend!”
Alice: “...”
she looks down at her lap where her hands are gripping hard into her pants
Alice: “ok”
they sit like that awkwardly, tensely until…
Alice: “I want to go home”
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Lu: “ok… can i go to the bathroom first”
Alice: “of course”
Lu walks into the bathroom, and sits on the floor. What was he doing? She was like the girl of his dreams, and more importantly, his best friend. Was he really gonna throw that all away because of… fuck, he entirely forgot what his point was. He was so scared. For almost a year now, ever since he detransitioned he just… accepted he would never be in a relationship again. But then Alice came in with her unending confidence and had the gall to just… like him, as he is…
she didn’t care, not about his body, not about his brain, not about anything… god damn it. He walks out of the bathroom and sits next to Alice, when he approaches she seems to wipe something from her face…
Lu: “What’s wrong?”
(why did he say that jesus christ)
she looks at him like he asked her if she preferred drinking water or vegetable oil
Alice: “...nothing”
Lu: “mhm?”
she looks at the floor
before she could ask him to take her home he put his arm around her
she rests her head on his shoulder
(good sign… here goes nothing)
Lu: “You don’t have to say you’re fine.”
she looks up at him
Alice: “*I am fine*”
(she very obviously isn’t)
Lu spends some time trying to find the right words
(god damn it he is so bad at this)
he holds her cheek
Lu: “Look as your boyfriend, you should- you should tell me when you aren’t ok.”
Alice: “You’re my boyfriend?”
Lu: “I mean, even if i think you have bad taste, who would i be to deny the most b-b-gorgeous woman i-i’ve ever laid eyes on”
(that was the cringiest thing he’s ever said)
but she’s blushing very hard
Alice: “... i… you think i…”
she attempts to compose herself
Alice: “I don’t have bad taste, you’re very…”
Lu: “The point is you should tell me why you feel bad.”
she rolls her eyes but smiles
Alice: “I actually feel alot better now.”
(now Lu wasn’t so autistic that he didn’t *know* it was because of him before, but man did it feel good to hear her pretty much say she felt *better* because of him)
riding that high he kisses her once softly on the lips
Lu: “I hope that means you don’t have to go home right now, cause i,, i really wanna,, be with you a bit longer”
she responds by grabbing onto his shirt and nuzzling further into him
Lu can’t stop the massive smile on his face, as he hugs her tight. Nor does he want to, as he thinks about how lucky he is to be here.
🐻🐷 Gomi & Piggy Doll Series (AWTG2 Movie Screening)
🐻🐷 Gomi & Piggy Doll Series Links:
Character Introduction
Dyolamb’s New Single: “Lamb Lamb”
Prologue
Chapter 01 - 02
Chapter 03
Chapter 04 - 06
“Along with the Gods: The Last 49 Days” Movie Screening:
Must-have AWTG2 Movie Essentials:
Red Carpet Premiere Photo of Private Won Dong-yeon:
📰 Despatch:
Despite the camouflage outfit, fans of Dyolamb saw her watching "Along with the Gods: The Last 49 Days". Kim Gomi, CEO of KG Corporation, was also spotted attending the movie premiere.
📰 Despatch (Breaking News):
CEO Kim Gomi Rumored To Be Dating Actress Dyolamb
Dyolamb and ZM Entertainment are yet to respond to these speculations.
Last September 10, Dyolamb updated her instagram with an “I miss you” photo. Lambies (official fandom name of Dyolamb) have been speculating that its backside is strikingly similar to Kim Gomi, CEO of KG Corporation.
They both attended the movie premiere of “Along with the Gods 2: The Last 49 Days” and they also follow each other on their official twitter accounts.
Because of so many coincidental facts, some netizens believe that the two are in a relationship and are just waiting for confirmation from both parties.
What do you think of #GomDyo pairing? Do you ship it?
author’s note: this idea came from the fandom in general, but i took it and ran with it. answering the question a lot of us had after reading sunrise on the reaping, what if there was more to the dam break in annie’s arena than katniss could tell us?? i have big plans for this fic/series so i hope everyone is open to my take on what really happened (+ huge thanks to @retrowitchy @arcticmist0324 and @dopiedwarf for all of their help) (+ link to the odesta playlist i've been listening to while writing) <3
🕊️ @thgsapphicsweek day 5: thg trilogy (fulvia cardew x cressida)
from their rebellion against the capitol to producing propos together, the two worked closely in district 13 and trust turned into love, both of them finding each other again after surviving the war.
I know it's been a while since I updated this fic but it’s only because I'm working really hard on it! what's taking up a lot of time is seeing how the whole story is going to fit together, so I went back to the first chapter and revised some things to make more sense. this series will have lore added as it's written so I may occasionally go back to make sure there are no plot holes, and that everything is still canon compliant.
in the meantime, I have some art work of annie's chariot dress from chapter 1 done by @dopiedwarf and @retrowitchy <333
and a sneak peek of chapter 2 (training):
“When I was a tribute, Mags asked both of us what we wanted. Other than winning, that is. What could she help us get out of the games?”
“I’d rather you just get me out of the games,” Annie countered.
“There’s no getting out of the games,” Finnick said bitterly, deflating her. He noticed this and shook his head regretfully. “I thought the same way, is what I mean. But, you’ll come to realize there’s more to it than that.”
“I wish your advice wasn’t so patronizing, Finnick. I might be inclined to take it,” her attitude was apparent but he smiled to himself, somehow encouraged. She continued. “I want them to see me for who I am. I won’t put on some persona or play down my strength. I want everyone to know I can win, shamelessly.”
He already knew she could win. There was no piece of this plan he could offer that would give her what she wanted. Would she resent him for involving her in all of this? Would she be willing to give up her chances of winning and trust Finnick of all people?
“Seems like you really don’t need my advice then,” they both paused, at odds.
“I guess we’ve both made up our minds,” she said, understanding. Despite the small insight he’d given her about Mags, he wouldn’t help her reach this goal. All the same, maybe Finnick was what she had believed him to be after all. She would try to shake the notion that some part of him was stealthily assisting her in whatever situations they’d found themselves in. So maybe asking her what she wants was some sort of advice in itself.
“What about you?” She implored.
“Me?”
“What did you want?”
“I was 14,” he put simply, and it earned a genuine smile out of Annie, shocking him. He continued. “I didn’t know what I wanted.”
“You didn’t want to win?”
He pursed his lips together while he thought.
“I suppose I did achieve that.”
On one of the rare instances that Lu told Alice about his life he mentioned the school he was going to, to which she excitedly told him she lives in the same city. This is awful, no matter how much he’s become a man, part of him will always be that transbian who wants to uhaul after the first date (and even more so fall hopelessly in love with your friend who’ll never like you back ;-;). Even the moment after this information came about she suggested they hang out, he brushed it off with a simple “hehe maybe later” but knew he couldn’t resist for long, he was under no circumstance going to being to able to deny his only close friend (and an upsettingly pretty one too) the opportunity to hang.
Looking up at his ceiling he thinks about how over it is, when they meet she’s gonna realize how lame he is, and even if she’s fine with that he’ll be completely unable to hide his infatuation with her (he’s surprised he was even able to so far), and then she’ll be grossed out and not want anything to do with him. Life is hell. After a lot of pestering he agreed to hangout, at first she wanted to do it at her house (which is horrifying! what if he was a murderer, or a rapist!) but he convinced her to instead hang at a small restaurant near where she lived. He unfortunately couldn’t get her to untell him her address, but what can you do?
After around 15 minutes of waiting for her, Alice finally arrived. Lu, waiting for her outside asked…
Lu: “do you always come this late?”
Alice: “well i had to walk here”
she looks at him pointedly
Alice: “if you picked me up it would have been easier.”
he doesn’t make eye contact
Lu: “u-um yea i g-guess… i just,, it uh,, would’ve seemed a bit strange no?”
Alice: “whatever you say”
They walk in and order their food. Lu can’t help but notice that her outfit tho masc enough to throw off her parents, is still incredibly attractive (and also that it compliments… nothing, absolutely nothing,... he’s normal). She looks up at him with a small smirk as she drinks, her eyes are stunningly b- no no nonononono. Taking a deep breath in, Lu decides to engage in conversation, because tho he isn’t good at talking, it is something to keep his mind… where it needs to be. They talk about the food they had and what they liked or disliked about it, they talked about the things that they usually do, friendship, hobbies, life and so on. And in that Lu had a brilliant idea.
Lu: “so have you been talking to any guys”
she picks at her napkins
Alice: “...umm there’s one i’m kinda talking to”
(jackpot)
Lu: “that’s sick! are you into him?”
she sits more upright and looks intently at her food
Alice: “ye, but it’s complicated…”
(fuck)
Lu: “how so?”
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Alice: “i don’t think i wanna talk about this, with you”
Lu: “me?”
she goes wide eyed like she misspoke and quickly tries to correct herself
Alice: “or like, right now”
Alice: “right now i just wanna chill”
Lu: “o-oh o-o-of course, s-s-ssorry for uhh,, bringing it up”
Maybe his idea wasn’t so brilliant. He wanted to hear her talk about some guy she was obsessed with, so that his “supportive friend” drive would beat out his “god i love women” drive, but instead he touched on a sore spot… “with him” why him? did she still think he liked her (well he did but he thought was doing a good job hiding it), is it just like a guy thing, like this is something you talk about with the girlfriends not your dude friends? It was probably that. They sit in silent awkwardness for a while since he is completely unable to navigate social situations like this. Eventually the conversation picks up again, and it’s like nothing happened. After an hour or so hanging out Alice asks if he wanted to come hang at hers, he again insisted they didn’t know each other well enough but…
Alice: “cmon! we can even watch your stupid shows together!”
