I've Been Here Before
For some reason I like to repeat past mistakes. I have lost this weight before, three times in fact. I guess my biggest struggle is self-discipline. I lack the self-discipline needed to keep the weight off, that's not an excuse just an observation.
In 2009 I graduated High School and moved across the country to California from Louisiana to attend a three year ministry program designed to help develop leadership skills and self-discipline. I was at a heavy 265 lbs and had no idea how to lose it. I was full of insecurity and wanted that to change. I had grown up as the fat kid that always had something to eat in my hands, I hated that label. I was always tired and could never keep up with the people around me. I would be invited to play ultimate frisbee and get so tired not even half way through, of course, that's when the comments about my weight started to flow from my so called friends. It sucked.
In 2010, a buddy of mine got me connected with a trainer friend of his that put on weekly bootcamps. With a desire for change I decided to attend and man it was tough but I felt great after, like I had accomplished something huge. I started attending these bootcamps whenever possible, I was hooked and couldn't get enough. Four months later, I was in the best shape I had ever been. I still had more to go but I felt great! I had lost about 45 lbs and was living my best life able to wear clothes I never thought possible. I was no longer stretching out my shirts I had to buy new clothes just to have something to wear. My favorite part about it all was people's reactions, no more fat jokes just compliments.
In 2012, I moved back to Louisiana because I didn't know what else to do, I was basically homeless after completing the program bouncing from couch to couch. I was lost once again and depressed. I had done a good job of keeping the weight off up to this point but with the depression I started not to care. I had lost all motivation to workout or eat healthy especially in the south where everything seems to need to be deep fried the weight was coming back. On top of everything I started drinking and that's where it went real bad by the end of 2012 I had gained all my weight back. I was miserable. People started to notice again and the comments started to roll in. It was time to make a change.
To be continued...
