You'll never get to know Him without [actually talking to Him personally]. You'll know all about Him and then what you know about Him will convict your life and then your convictions will turn into, slowly, condemnation cause you'll weigh your life based on what you know and it won't look like what you know and you'll condemn yourself. So you'll judge yourself by yourself. And then you'll hear stuff like this in your head: "Well, if I didn't get it by now I'm probably never going to get it." "Well I had every opportunity and here's my life, still the same. I guess maybe I'm not even saved. I guess maybe I'm not sincere, maybe I'm just not pure," and the whole time you care inside which means you're alive. ... Your heart's crying out inside, that's a sign you're alive inside and you're being deceived. You cry yourself to sleep, that's a good sign in the sense that you're alive inside, your heart's not as far away as you think, your understanding's just far away. You're just an understanding away from transformation. ... Where sin's abounding, grace is coming greater. Why? To deliver you and show you who you are.