Summary: Bucky broke your heart and broke the family he never knew he had, is he truly sorry and can he get back what he has lost
Part One Same Dance Different Partner Part two Dancing on your Own Part three Dance with me Tonight Part Four Dancing Away With My Heart
Any Gifs/Pictures and Songs I use are not mine
This was the hardest decision you have ever had to make, you loved Shaun and the chance at a new life with him and George was like a wonderful dream, but by moving away you knew you would be ripping out Bucky’s heart by taking George away from him.
You would be lying if you didn’t say that you still loved Bucky, of course you did and you probably always would.
You were stood leaning against the counter top in the kitchen, watching Bucky feed George in his high-chair at the dining table, George had just started on solid foods, you couldn’t help but smile at the faces Bucky pulls to get George to eat, followed by the big smiles and praises, that was until George sneezed with a mouthful of food which then ended up all over Bucky’s face.
“Mmm…. ok, thanks Georgie” Bucky said grimacing, he placed down the bowl and spoon, picking up a napkin and wiping the food off his face, he chuckled as he wiped George clean too.
Hearing a deep chuckle beside you, you turned to see Steve.
“You know, I have never seen him so happy” Steve said nodding towards Bucky and taking a sip of his coffee from his Keep Calm and Call Captain America mug Sam had brought him for Christmas as a joke.
The smile vanished from your lips, “Hey! What’s wrong?” asks Steve, turning you to look at him, cupping your face with his large hands.
You bite your lip as a few tears rolled down your cheeks.
“Come on, talk to me, what’s wrong?” asked Steve as he led you out of the kitchen and onto the balcony, you sat together on the garden chairs, taking a deep breath you told Steve everything, well almost everything.
You told him of Shaun’s promotion, him proposing and that he wants you and George to move to England with him, he is silent while you talk, you leave out the part with your feelings toward Bucky, you know he wouldn’t say anything or judge you, but you are still processing these yourself.
He sighs taking your hand in his, “Y/N, you need to talk with Bucky, you can’t handle this kind of decision yourself and I know you, you will want to please everyone, but that’s not always possible”
“I know Steve, but I don’t know if I can move away, not only will it break Bucky but I don’t want to leave all of you, you are the only family I have ever known”
“And we will always be here for you Y/N, but you need to do what’s right for you and George” Getting up he leans down and places a kiss to the top of your head.
“We all love you sweetheart and will be happy as long as you are” he says before leaving you alone with your thoughts, getting up you walk to the railings, leaning against them to look out across the city, it’s a beautiful day, the sky a clear blue, it reminds you of Bucky’s eyes, could you leave all this, could you leave your family and friends for a new life in England.
Going back inside you found Bucky now in your room, putting George down for his nap, “Hey Bucky” you whispered, as to not wake George. Bucky’s heart jumped in his chest, he had noticed you had started to call him Bucky again, instead of James, and he couldn’t help but hope this was a good thing and that he was back in with a chance with you, even though you were with Shaun.
“Hey doll” he smiles back at you
You both left the room silently, “Um… can we talk?” you asked him, you could already see a frown of concern on his face.
“Sure, is everything ok?” he asked, you nodded, both of you walking together
“FRIDAY, can you please watch George and let us know if he needs anything” you ask the AI
“Of course, Ms Y/L/N, it would be my pleasure” the AI seemed to get very personally involved sometimes.
You led Bucky to the living room, both of you sitting next to each other on the couch, you are fiddling with your hands in your lap nervously.
“Y/N what’s up doll, you’re worrying me” he places his hand over yours, comforting you.
You look into his eyes, noting a softness in them, and take a deep breath.
“James, um….. this is hard for me to say, and an even harder decision for me to make” Bucky’s grip on your hand in your lap tightens. “Shaun has asked me to marry him”
“I know” Bucky grins, “He kinda asked me if it was ok” he chuckles “I gave him my blessing, I can see he makes you happy” he voices wavers slightly, he doesn’t actually believe what he is saying
You frown, “Oh, I thought you would be against it”
“No, if you are happy, that’s all that matters” he forces a smile.
“Ok, well, and of course you can come and see us anytime, and we will fly back to you as much as we can”
Now its Bucky’s turn to look confused, “Fly back? What? From where?”
“I thought Shaun told you, you said he asked you if it was ok, he’s got a promotion in London and wants us to move there with him”
Bucky’s eyes go wide “What, you can’t go, I can’t lose yo...George, I can’t lose George, I won’t get to see him, I’m his dad” he gets up and is now pacing the room.
“Buck” you say sweetly, getting up and standing in front of him, placing your hands on his chest, stopping his pacing “You will always be his dad, and I will always make sure he knows who you are”
He holds your hands against his chest, staring into your eyes, your breath catches in your throat, you can feel Bucky’s heart beating like crazy.
Bucky’s mind is racing, he wants to tell you not to go, he wants to tell you he loves you, to stay and be with him, but he can’t be selfish, he has to let you go, he has to let you be happy, even if that is with someone else.
You lean up and kiss him on the cheek, he lets go of your hands, letting you walk away.
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The next week passes quickly, Shaun had left for London a few days ago and you and George are following, your flight is booked for first thing in the morning. You are only taking the essentials to start with, Tony letting you store your things in a spare room at the Tower until you send for them.
Since telling him, Bucky had been in his room for most of the week, only coming out to eat or exercise, he had hardly said a word to anyone, just the occasional grunt of acknowledgement.
You were all gathered in the living room, laughing and joking, Bucky was relaxing in the recliner with George on his chest, he was growing so fast, Bucky was afraid he was going to miss so much.
Tony stands, clearing his throat “I want to take a moment to wish Y/N and little George all the best for the future and their new life in England, we are going to miss you more then you can imagine and hope it is everything you ever wish it to be”
Everyone raises their glasses “To Y/N and George” they all chant together, Bucky mumbles along, gazing at you smiling along with everyone, the blush on your cheeks from everyone’s attention being on you, he jiggles George in his arms kissing him on the head, not able to stop the smile forming on his lips as George giggles and smiles.
George’s giggles divert your attention to him and Bucky, you heart wrenches at the sight, the smile on Bucky’s lips and twinkle in his eye as he gazes at George, Nat nudges you, handing you another drink you look away adsorbing back into the conversation with Nat, Wanda and Vision.
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The next morning you are in the kitchen checking your bag for your boarding pass and passport, Bucky comes up beside you.
“Do you have everything?” he asks quietly
Nodding in response “Yeah, I think we are all about set, I have George’s favourite teddy and a few toys to keep him entertained on the flight, Nat is taking us to the airport in half an hour”
Bucky nods, he hands you an envelope “Don’t open it until you are on the plane, promise me doll” his eyes dart from the envelope in yours and his hand to your eyes, the softness in the deep pale blue, cause your stomach to flip and your heart skip.
“ok” you whisper
He lets go of the envelope, keeping your gaze for a few moments, he bends kissing you on the cheek, lingering a few seconds “Have a safe flight doll” he whispers before turning and walking away.
You close your eyes and take a deep breath to stop the tears from falling, turning he envelope in your hands.
“You ready” asks Nat, popping her head around the doorway, making you open your eyes, “Yeah, come on let’s go” you force a smile that doesn’t quite reach your eyes.
Nat and Wanda drop you at the drop off point at the airport “I’m going to miss you so much Y/N, and Georgie, make sure you skype all the time yeah? We don’t want to miss anything of this little prince growing up” says Wanda.
“Of course, I will” you chuckle hugging first Wanda tightly then Nat, “I’m going to miss you all too, come and see us anytime”
“Oh, don’t worry, we will” Nat says, breaking the hug and leaning down and kissing George in his stroller, Wanda doing the same.
With tears in your eyes you make your way into the airport, turning back and waving to Nat and Wanda standing by the car with tears in their eyes.
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Bucky was leaning on the railings on the balcony, a glass of Asguardian Mead in his hand, Sam came out to join him.
“I’m not in the mood Sam” snapped Bucky
“I get it, just answer me one question, then I’ll go away” replied Sam, hands in surrender, when Bucky didn’t answer Sam continued “Why aren’t you at the airport declaring your love from her, stopping her from leaving?”
Bucky didn’t respond, he knew Sam was right, he shoved the glass into Sam’s hands before jogging out of the door, Sam just stood there grinning, shaking his head.
He was too impatient to wait for the elevator instead he ran down the stairs three at a time to the parking garage, where he jumped on his bike and raced off towards the airport.
Dumping his bike at the drop off point, not caring if it got taken away he raced through the airport checking for your gate number. He raced to your gate, arriving just to see you at the check point, security held Bucky back, he didn’t have a ticket so wasn’t allowed any further. Desperately Bucky called you but you couldn’t hear him, he could see you smiling at the airport staff, the lady was cooing over George in your arms. Bucky called your name again and again but you walked onto the plane without looking back.
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Sat in 1st class, Tony had insisted paying for you to fly first class despite your protests, you looked at George on your lap, he was happy and giggling, you wondered if he knew what was happening, if he knew you were leaving your home, your friends…..Bucky, for a guy who loved you more than anything, you looked at your ring finger, the small but elegant white gold with small diamond twinkled back at you.
You had always pictured Bucky proposing, he would be so nervous, there would be candles and your favourite flowers everywhere, it would be in the park or on the balcony at sunset, the sky alight with golds, reds and purples, you could picture Bucky’s ocean blue eyes brimming with tears as he tried to put into words how much he loves you……..
You daydream is broken by George wiggling in your lap, waving his teddy around, gently swatting you with it. You chuckle, kissing him on the top of his head and wrapping your arms around him in a tight hug.
Then you remembered the letter in your bag from Bucky, taking it out you turn it over in your hands, it felt heavy.
Tearing open the envelope you pull out the hand-written letter inside, along with an ipod and a photo falls out onto your lap, it was the photo of you and Bucky from your bedside table, the one you threw in the trash, his arms wrapped so tightly around you, you both beaming at the camera, you could see how much you loved one another in just that photo. Placing the photo back in your lap you read the letter
Doll,
I know I’m too late in telling you this now, and after everything that has happened I can’t blame you for your decision, but I need you to know how much I love you, I can’t believe someone as amazing as you would even look twice at me, I love you with all my heart and will regret every day how I let you go.
I didn’t think I could love someone more then I love you but then you gave me George, from the first time I held him and saw his blue eyes staring back at me I knew I would do anything in my power to protect him and give him the best life possible, if that means letting you both go then that’s what i need to do.
I am not too up to date with current music but I heard this song and it made me think of you, everytime I hear it I will think of you, I love you so so much words cannot describe, I will always be here for both of you and I will always love you.
I always thought you would save the last dance for me
Your Bucky
Tears dropped onto the letter, smudging the words, George gurgling pulled your gaze from the letter to look at him teary eyed, he smiled back at you, you chuckle at him he just giggles and smiles at you kicking and wiggling.
You pick up the ipod placing on earbud in your ear and pressing play and the song began….
Right Here Waiting for You:
Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive, this romance
But in the end if I’m with you I’ll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Your heart clenched as you listened to the lyrics, you looked again at George, he was looking more and more like Bucky. “Are we making the right decision little prince?” you asked him.
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