#dandelion anon

[dr-graces-preschool]

Hi papa grace!! I’m having a sleepover with mi friend because I’m not seeing him for two months after this ):

But good news is that I got excepted into a study I really wanted to go too!!

I hope you are doing good!!

-Dandelion

Hi Dandy! It can be really hard to be away from our friends, but thankfully, you know he'll be back soon. Congratulations on your acceptance, I'm so happy for you!! Please feel free to chat about what field you're studying if you want!!

[dr-graces-preschool]

Thank you all so much for the overwhelming love and well wishes today!! It really warms my heart, class!! I wish I could answer absolutely everyone who sent me something individually, but there were so many!!!

[dr-graces-preschool]

Hi papa Grace!! I saw a friend today and now Im very sleepy ):

I have a question tho, if you were an animal which animal would you be? (Rocky can also awser if he want)

-dandelion

Hi Dandy!! I hope you had so much fun with your friend!! It makes sense that you're sleepy after something so exciting!! If I were an animal, I'd be a fox or maybe a rabbit. How 'bout you Rocky, any Earth animals that you identify with?

ROCKY LIKE CENTIPEDE!!

Really? Not that I think that it's a bad choice, I'm just surprised.

ROCKY JUST LIKE.

Fair enough!!

[dr-graces-preschool]

Hi papa Grace, Im feeling veŕy tired Nd sad ): can I have a hug pleasee

-dandelion

You can always have a hug, bud! You get some good rest and a snack and hopefully you'll feel better soon.

[dr-graces-preschool]

Hi papa Grace!! I have to go to the dentist tommrow ): I don;t like the dentist cause scary and painfull ):

-Dandelion

It definitely can be, yeah. Dental health really is worth the discomfort though! It's super important for the rest of your body's health that your teeth are clean!! You're doing your body a huge favor by taking care of them.

Let's think about what we can do to help with being nervous, yeah? Could you bring headphones/earbuds to help with the noise? That one's always been top priority for me. Do you have a stuffie that you'd feel comfortable bringing? If not a bigger, hug sized one, maybe a keychain plush? I used to carry around a lamb squishmallo on my bag and he helped me feel a bit better in appointments!!

I know you can be brave, Dandie!!

[dr-graces-preschool]

Hi dr Grace and Rocky!!

Are there any books dr Grace recommendeds? For littlest or otherwise.

And can Rocky read books?

-dandelion <3

The Big Book of Why is a really good read for curious kiddos!! For those who are a little bit older, I really loved The Mysterious Benedict Society. It's a fiction book, but it does a good job of showing how people being different can make them very special and unique. And unfortunately, no, Rocky can't read books like you or me, because he doesn't have eyes to see words.

GRACE MAKE SOME FLAT EARTH WRITING TEXTURED FOR ROCKY TO HEAR. LIKE WHEN ROCKY FIRST MEET GRACE, BOTH SHOW CLOCKS, GRACE PUT TAPE ON NUMBERS. MOST BOOKS TOO MANY WORDS FOR GRACE TO TAPE, SCREEN READER TEXTURE MACHINE HELP WHEN NEEDED.

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I will be attempting gta this year in an effort to write more regularly, let's see how this goes 👍

-🌼 anon

you got this!

[horsegirlalexkralie]

hihihi!!! guy who likes your asoue au way too much here [can i give myself an alias?? can i call myself dandelion in your askbox if i send enough asks about this???]

i love your writing snippets i love. your characterizations so much they all feel so much like. themselves its painful and i love them.

the jam interaction is so. great jay is so jay i. dont know how to describe him hes jay i love him and tim is so awkward in that really tim. way also dont get me started on the stumble in that last bit of dialogue i am. so NORMAL about it also it hurts in a really?? reverse nostalgic way??? im not great with words but. reading it is like grieving in advance its painful but. really good!!!! like i know bad and horrible things will happen to them i know. there might be a series of unfortunate events maybe. i dont know there might be

thinking about the typewriter case. a lot. also thinking about alex and his comments that would be insulting enough to warrant a reaction if they. were said to anyone with more social awareness or care than jay has. also thinking about how fucking agonizing it is that an actual child has to think about the. stability of their safety enough to even consider. bludgeoning someone nonetheless what theyd be able to carry around inconspicuously enough to. do so at any point in time

its not a bad thing to protect yourself but its a bad thing to be a pre-teen to early teenager and have to worry about. or better yet prepare for. the possibility of having to kill so you can live. ow!!!!

the funeral thing hurts even. more. my personal interp is seeing how a relationship has crumbled and really cant be mended at least. not in the same way it was left in not in the same shape. it will never be the same. they will never look at each other as they did it will. never be right in the same way it. was because the past is the past and the past is dead and you cannot. bring back the dead

how does one grieve someone. who stands right in front of them?

also that entire screenshot is full of writing that is so. so so so similar to the vibes that. the books gave off youre incredibly talented at. capturing that vibe and essence

again thank you for writing these theyre. so good i hope this ask isnt too super off base im. really tired but woaw!!!! have the bestest day may you be. full of motivation and thoughts. about this au

AA HI !! welcome back thank u so much

aaa this made me so happy tyty i literally read asoue as i was first learning to read LOL and i think handler influenced my style more than anyone it is such a compliment that u think i captured the books' vibe At All

the pre-grieving. yeah. its something i think abt in regards to writing jay at all in everything hes always going to die. dead in your memory. idk if u read atwq but i definitely put him in the dashiell qwerty role on purpose esp to young tim he's a bright spot in a very miserable part of his life that is not going to last very long but that he'll think about all the time for years to come. after he's gone, in a way that feels permanent; and jay's gone, in a way that is. jam needs their own emotional reunion at some point i think jay would be really genuinely trying to get tim to accept that you can fix things from the inside/vfd works for the greater good even if the adults around them failed them. and tim is so violently betrayed that him and alex kept it secret that jay was alive. from him. just because he isn't in with the right team anymore - isn't that what jay used to say? whether someone did the right thing mattered more than their allegiances? and jay asks him, softly, if he thinks he's been doing the right thing.

they used to sit and read together. for hours if jay didn't have anyone coming in to check things out. alex called him a brilliant educator, a respected community member, and his lip twisted to finish with beloved volunteer firefighter.

jay's lack of offense at alex's lack of tact is honestly the thing that's gonna end up sticking them together like magnets to me. and all their associates dying by the time they're young adults. by the time of that typewriter case conversation i think alex has had attempts made on his life before whether or not he's actually had to get violent it is most definitely on his mind. the kralies had a tunnel under their house and were probably involved in one of the earlier smaller schisms and he's not popular at headquarters anyway for being a prick. he's very well-read and knows it. has been told if he doesn't learn to shut up he'll get killed before he gets sold for ransom.

internalized all this very normally. starts carrying a gun bc he feels normal. jay makes sure to point this out when they see each other again and ends up with it shoved somewhere reckless and against proper firearms handling training. (they took that class together, though alex didn't notice him at the time.)

it's uncomfortably easy after he comes back to fall back into their old patterns of speaking, for alex to enjoy his company until he remembers and is hit with how surreal it all is, how wrong it feels, to have finally almost gotten himself to accept jay wasn't ever going to walk back into his life and have it happen anyway. he keeps remembering the weight of jay's coffin on his shoulder. keeps wondering what was in there, if it was someone else's corpse, if it was simply weighted to make him feel like his heart was sinking out of his body and he would never be happy again.

(years later, jay will admit he heard alex's speech from inside the box, that the closed casket had been requested by the dead man himself "because i didn't think i could hold my breath that long," and he'd laid in the dark with an oxygen mask wearing his best suit. had almost died for real, because he'd been too afraid to coordinate with an associate to help dig him back out, and alex bites him until his teeth leave imprints and makes him promise to tell him, if he ever needs to die again. is too afraid to demand the other thing.)

aa tysm for sending asks abt this au i love talking abt it so much i will hopefully have some more actual writing to share soon