#dark again

[catratcat]

Not fucking doing good and feel so guilty about it that I can’t tell anyone. I feel so alone and disgusting. Worthless. Scared all the fucking time what everyone thinks of me and it’s has been exacerbated now that I live in a different country. I feel so stupid that I thought I was strong enough. And I look weak and stupid to everyone. They think I’m a child for coming here that I am stupid. All that shit bothers me. I want to let it go but I can’t. I have so much anxiety that I don’t want to go to the store. I hate myself so much that I literally shut all my thoughts off not to hurt myself physically. I have no opinions, no interests, no personality and am so superficial for it. I am a vacuum of energy. I’m so ugly. My mind is rotting my entire being.

[bloodywaluigi]

Dear past me, ?

Dear Past Me

It wasn't your fault, yo.

Just keep doing the things that make you happy. Stop trying to understand why evil things happen to you over and over. You are better than all of that. Don’t let the evil things that happened to you break you. 

It wasn't your fault, yo.

[catratcat]

So bored. I dont know whats wrong with me. I get tired of everything. Im tired of myself.

[catratcat]

Feel like absolute shit about myself and completely alone

[thatcreolecajun]

@black-rogue I saw your ask and I’m writing it, don’t worry. I just had to write this first. Enjoy everyone :) They were at it again. Laughing together. It was annoying how at ease they were together. Sickening, really. The clone had his hand on Obi-Wan’s shoulder, more on the nape of his neck than anything. He could see the way the man’s fingers subtly stroked the wispy hairs there. Disgusting! They were in public! And Obi-Wan’s Force signature practically melted under the attention, softening and entwining with that of the clone commander’s until you could hardly tell the two apart. Anakin could barely keep the sneer off his face. Look at how proud the clone was! So smug, so sure of what he was doing, as if it was nothing. How hungry those dark eyes were, devouring the clean and noble lines of Obi-Wan’s form, as though he knew exactly what lay beneath the folds of that cloak. The thought of that, of those calloused, rough hands, hands that had hasten the deaths of many Separatists whether by blaster fire or by knife, touching his Master's soft, supple skin, caressing what did NOT belong to him... There was a reason Anakin rarely let himself be alone with Cody, and Force help him if he ever was.

[taylorbogdanovich]

"Dark Again" -Goldfields

[noldortrash]

Okay I came up with a new tag for stuff so any random depressing stuff I reblog will (hopefully) be tagged as "dark again", if you need to block that tag.