unfiltered word salad about yuuta + incest/stepcest (idk pick ur poison ig) under the read more dont look at me too closely i think its just my fever talking
charging up the yan sisconbeam and pointing it directly at okkotsu yuuta, go!
world's sweetest big brother who has spoiled his younger sibling into a rotten mess that can't (or rather, doesn't want to) function without him. sweet and strange yuuta with his sour and even stranger younger sibling, codependent to worrying degrees but only in places where the only light that can touch you is the glint in yuuta's adoring, endlessly adoring eyes that only ever seem to clearly see you. yuuta with his sheepish but indulgent smile when he acts as a buffer against the world for his mean and snappish younger sibling.
he's so gentle and patient with you, and he never complains even when he has to hold you still through your most terrible tantrums and self-destructive spirals because you're just like him: a terribly jealous and greedy and selfish creature that can never be fully satiated with all the love it craves/covets. you want just as he wants. starve as he starves. he understands. of course he does. the hunger that lives inside you was something you learned from him, after all.
so you feed each other in every way you know how.
his love is weighty and suffocating despite his sweetness. your love is just as horrific, if not a misshapen and clumsy imitation of him. though you certainly do your best to match his intensity, you are, before anything else, a spoiled creature that he's meticulously and diligently cared for from the day you came home and he became your big brother. you're not used to exerting so much effort when yuuta's always taken the initiative to meet you where you are. always so insistent on treating you preciously, even when it's hard and inconvenient. it's your oldest and basest instinct to lean on him for everything, because that's what he taught you; it's his oldest and most natural reflex to take care of you, because that's the most fundamental thing in his world.
it sounds kinda sweet on paper (to him, anyway), but he knows it's unhealthy. immoral, insane, incredibly fucked up — that's him and his beloved younger sibling, alright. you and your beloved older brother. what a pair you two make. he should do something about it, really, but ... well.
in your relationship, there's no telling which one is parasite or host. the only thing that matters at the end of the day is that you two are together, closer than anything else in the world. what else (who else) would you need other than each other?
i'll explain more when im coherent but ehueaurgh i love. Yuuta
