So I figured since I have an otherkin side blog and since I literally don't feel comfortable talking about my kintypes anywhere else but here, I take you through a somewhat journey through my history with otherkin stuff.
So like early in age, I always had an expansive imagination. I always was creating world's and what not from my head. It's what I did. I'm an artist now so you see the correlation. But I have distinct memories as a child of 'pretending' to be an elemental elf of sorts. When I played by myself, it was the persona I went to. Now a lot of people would think it was just pretend and you most likely would be right! But looking back now, it could have been guides showing me that I wasn't always human.
The reason I bring up guides is because I distinctly remember it being nice outside one day and I was on my grandma's porch playing alone and I was 'pretending' to control air and thinking about it, it was like the Moana/Ocean situation with her as a child. Again, I could be making it all up.
Fast forward to like the end of middle school and the beginning of high school.
I went through the awkward outcast phase (which I would soon realize is my everyday life thanks my kin) where I identified as *cringe* a scene kid. But that's also when I joined Vampirefreaks! More cringe I know.
On there is when I got into BDSM as well and although never partook (partayketh? Partooketh?) In anything IRL, I did develop a relationship with a guy. Long story short, VF is where I first learned of otherkin AS WELL AS discovered...or at least thought that I found my kin. This is when I felt I was angelkin.
Long story short, through a set of events one night, the guy I was part of a relationship with said I saved his life that night and I thought my duties from then on were to be a savior. Again, an angel.
Look at me now. How ironic! But it makes sense in the grand scheme of things. My thought of being angelkin related back to my Demonkin because what it feels like is that that specific demon soul had done a lot of good in it's life but was a dark being and never seen in a good light. Demons are fallen angels anyways so it relates on why I got that vibe.
Anyways, I got laughed at for thinking this and there just was a lot to unpack. But I packed it away and let it be. Let it fester.
I did resurface on my otherkin stuff a few years back but soon put it to an end because I was accused of being a fake. Demonkin do not get along well together that's for sure. Long story short, the leader of this "pack" claimed that there couldn't be two nightmare demons and that they were too rare which technically if everything happens for a reason, it wouldn't be something to question too much but whatever. Once again I was turned off by the otherkin community and left it alone.
During my college years and especially recently, I started getting more into witchcraft and the occult. I have crystals, I read tarot cards, etc. So I figured I'd kind of look into things on Tumblr. Now here I am.
Side note: In the last year or so I realized that my soul possibly originated from another planet. I'll get into it in further posts but that's where the Starseed comes from.
I will be posting about my kintypes soon.
