#darkdiary

[firstprince-ao3feed]

And they were roommates... (rock my world)

by DarkDiary Why me? Henry thinks to himself as he opens the door to his new dorm room, coming face to face with the most gorgeous guy he had ever seen. He hooked up with plenty of men, all under NDA’s. However, he did try to prevent falling in love. Now, confronted with this beautiful stranger who he’d be sharing a dorm room with, he felt himself falling a little. Or another roommate AU that nobody asked for but I wanted to write. Words: 5657, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Categories: M/M Characters: Alex Claremont-Diaz, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Relationships: Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Additional Tags: Praise Kink, degradation kink if you squint, Not betad, first attempt, Please be nice, Roommates, Alternate Universe - College/University via https://ift.tt/B0tw9pn

[hopelessteendiary]

"She's basically dead right now, a dead body breathing."

My diary, January 25th 2017 -8th grade

[justmydarkflaws]

I’m feeling like shit and like cutting and I just can’t

[justmydarkflaws]

I’m sick of feeling bad so here’s the things that make me smile

[justmydarkflaws]

I wish words could just come out of me to describe every fucking feeling I have inside me and how all this destroys me and how bad I want to end up with it.  

[justmydarkflaws]

When I try to do things in the right way, even then I fuck things up. 

[justmydarkflaws]

Why do I always feel like crying, even when I don’t have reasons to.

Or do I?

This anxiety inside me is killing me and I don’t know what to do wit

Why can’t I give it away?

Maybe there’s someone who would want it, no?

Probably not, who would want to feel so bad about themselves they just want to end with their lives?

Nor would I want someone to feel this way, I still prefer feeling like this then making someone feel it.

Thought some people sometimes needed to feel it, how it hurts, how their actions can makes so weak we can’t breathe.

But that’s not the point.

The point is that nobody deserves to feel this way, not even the people that makes us like this, they just need a bucket of water to wake up from their wonderland and realize how bad is our world already that all they do just makes it all worse. 

Like, if aliens existed, I would seriously get it why they don’t come here.

Why would someone or something like to come here, to this shitty place, where people are getting depressed because of other people. 

People are sick.

I hate people.

I’m people.

You can see the connection there.

[justmydarkflaws]

I always get that feeling that maybe I'm just too bad for people but then all those pretty cute things come out of them and I get like maybe I am enough but what if I'm not? What if ends up being like everyone else? What if they end up leaving too? But then why would it? It's just too many known secrets that didn't made them leave! Why would they now?