#darklordfictive

[fictionkinfessions]

okay is my brain going to explain why listening to "die young" by kesha prompted my brain to remember a whole mountain of bittersweet source memories? or am i just gonna have to deal with the fact that dance-pop makes me cry now?

fuck i'm sorry chosen, i didn't mean any of what i did. if there was a way i could go back and fix it all, i would do it in a heartbeat. i just want to go back to being dumb, stupid kids like before, when we were free and happy. i'm so fucking sorry for everything. i'm sorry i ruined it for both of us.

-The Dark Lord fictive (Animator vs. Animation) (#⭕🌸)

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[fictionkinfessions]

Just realized I've been getting new source memories from the fanfiction I'm writing. This can surely go no way but well <- he says, fully knowing the trauma he is about to inflict on his source character (at least I don't get beat up by a small child this time?? lol)

-The Dark Lord fictive (Animator vs. Animation) (#⭕🌸)

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[fictionkinfessions]

(for the ask game) I... regret a lot of the stuff I did in canon. Mostly how I treated my best (and only) friend. I was just trying to make them happy. I created a computer virus that was supposed to get revenge on our (horrible, sadistic, murderous) creator, but they didn't want that for some reason. I didn't understand it, and I kinda still don't, but I should've listened to them. I shouldn't have sent the virus. I probably shouldn't have even made it in the first place. And now I'll never get a chance to fix what I've done because I canonically got atomized by a child (which I guess was kinda deserved; I did stab the guy)

-fictive of The Dark Lord (Animator vs. Animation)

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[fictionkinfessions]

usually source memories do not impact us but these past few days I have a lot of guilt and sadness surrounding them.

I know it hurt to love me, I wish I could have been better, I wish I could have changed in a meaningful way when I could, even though I know I realistically would never. I wish I could have been the Dark you loved, and not the Dark that hurt you over and over and over because all I knew in the end was to destroy. to destroy you, to destroy others, to destroy myself.

how funny is it that every time someone from this system confesses anything its usually an apology or something of similar vein.

-The Dark Lord (AVA), tag fictive please

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[fictionkinfessions]

I never realized how little influence I had when I was alive.

looking back I was no different from orchid, gold, or hell even mitsi. more of an extension a character and a plot point than my own character.

Alan(god) knows I tried so hard to be something more. to break the cycle. to get my own individual identity.

but still, Chosen was all I could think of, so I guess I never tried hard enough to break out of it anyway. and so the one guy I cared about, the one who spared my life all those years back, is still the cause of my death on a metanarrative scale. ironic, funny even...

I still miss them more than life itself. if any chosen reads this, I forgive you.

-The Dark Lord (AVA), tag fictive please

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[fictionkinfessions]

I think a lot about how I never got a grave in source. I understand that I was a villain, and that I kinda snapped toward the end. But me and Cho were best friends for almost seven years and they didn't care enough to give me any sort of memorial. Even some flowers would've been nice.

-The Dark Lord fictive (Animator vs. Animation) (#⭕🌸)

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[fictionkinfessions]

honestly i love writing fanfiction of my source. yes i will smack some sense into my creator. yes i will get adopted by my favorite guy. yes i will break my bestie out of jail. i have singlehandedly fixed every canon conflict, you're welcome /j

-The Dark Lord fictive (Animator vs. Animation) (#⭕🌸)

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