“love isn’t something you have to earn”
—QCI
i don’t chase out of love, more like out of fear. and what for? it always leads me back to here:
tryna prove i’m worth the choice, but constantly finding myself with people who don’t even truly hear my voice.
it’s no accident, deep down it is just my nervous system… but i can’t seem to give that any balance or rhythm.
and since when has love felt like an addiction?
repeating all the patterns, brain still so scattered.
mistaking familiarity for love — what kinda relationship do i even dream of?
when he pulls away, i feel the ache.
but this isn’t about him, i’m addicted to the cycle of validation i crave.
for what tho? always leaving me feel so hollow. scarily similar to those damn withdrawals.


















