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Cyn,,,
rambling ab how I see DAS!Cyn in the lyrics
"in the city of the dead
i lay stuck inside my bed
the house burns down around me
the language of the lost
pouring from their open mouths
nobody can hear a thing
suddenly i’m breathing in the smoke
surrounded by the bodies
as i’m tugging on my chains
i’ll be swallowed by the flames
freedom dripping from the sink"
⬆️ The Solver taking over her mind and body slowly
"i don’t need forgiveness
i just wanna talk and for you to listen
i know i’d only raise the suspicion of my cause
my burns they throb to the beat of your heart"
&
"temperament or sickness?
holler all you want, no one ever listens
if only i had raised my suspicion of the cause
would you have noticed it at all?"
⬆️ Her relationship with DAS!V, she knows V is suspicious of her as is. Cyn blames herself for what happens and doesn't think she deserves to be forgiven. She just wants V & co to understand where the line between her and the Solver falls
"am i a robot or a doll?
am i anything at all?
maybe a soul like me
doesn’t even need to know
am i big or am i small?
hunching over standing tall?
i lost my identity
oh so very long ago"
&
"as i woke up from the dream
i had lost all self esteem
the burning home had cowed me
i thought that i was safe
now i’ll never be the same
tossed aside for making a scene
do i know who i pretend to be?
of whom am i a copy?
yes it made me who i am
but i’ll never understand
why it had to happen to me"
⬆️ Cyn honestly doesn't know who she is anymore, or who she's expected to be. I wont go into her backstory pre manor too much bc ✨spoilers✨ BUT pretty much from the day she booted up people expected her to be a specific way. It didn't end well and then her second chance was ruined by the Solver, who corrupted so much of her that people see them as the same person. That whole trauma also shaped her, she's different than how she used to be.
"software update, reinstall
scary things i can’t recall
making the best of it"
&
"ones and zeros
true or false?
reset system to default
faking the rest of it, but i can’t remember why"
⬆️ PTSD flashbacks and her desperately trying to erase that part of her.
"never even knowing why
on my knees i try to crawl
fire breaking in the walls / fire charred collapsing walls
calling out for somebody
knowing i’ll get no reply"
⬆️ NOT regular DAS -- BUT Trapped/Hivemind Cyn which means also Trapped Dormancy Cyn... calling out to N in the void of her mind...
"not robot nor a doll
i’m not anything at all
i’m just and entity finding out the way to go
but these fingers and these palms, full of love despite the scars
they show indisputably
i have so much more to grow
oh, i can change i can evolve
i can get up when i fall
i’ll live contentedly
i don’t need a reason why standing tall and standing strong
i have found where I belong in the arms of somebody
there is no more need to cry"
⬆️ Healing under the care of her family :)