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1. what are 3 things you’d say shaped you into who you are?
1) Growing up queer, neurodivergent and with an intersex-adjacent hormonal condition. Everything in my youth especially is coloured by those things, and it shaped my perception of the world. And for all that I often suffered for it, I wouldn't change it now. I am who I am.
2) Developing serious mental health issues (OSDD, DR/DP, psychosis) and entering the psychiatric care system as a young adult. Not only did I meet my husband there (yes, really!), I had to reconfigure my entire sense of self and identity, and as genuinely horrible as it was, I'm kinda grateful too. Sometimes I feel the person I was before had to violently die so I could live. I'm glad I get to live.
3) All the books I read. I credit reading fiction with me developing theory of mind, be it a couple years later than my peers, and I don't think I would be alive if not for all this reading. Books were my escape, my comfort, my study, my proving ground - essentially my apprenticeship into Being A Person, a first step towards becoming a person I wanted to be.
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3. 3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?
Oofff. You're talking to a person who rarely ever rewatches anything. I don't know if there's any movies I could unlimitedly rewatch. But if you want some solid recommendations of movies I *have* watched more than once that I think are worth watching At Least once in your life...
American Mary (2012) -No notes, it's perfect, down to the ending. Beware if you're sensitive to sexual assault as a theme.
Suspiria - The 1977 original but especially the 2018 remake, it is SO visually stunning even if the ending is a bit hamfisted.
Angel-A (2005) - Luc Besson does unusual love stories like nobody's business, and this one is just so good. Very French, but it plays it up to its advantage.
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31. are you messy or organised?
Definitely messy, though I am always fighting it. My ADHD is like a fifth column enemy, I cannot rest xD
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32. how many tabs do you have open right now?
On my phone? 38, I just counted. Most are being actively used, so I don't feel so bad about it. On my tablet? Only 5, but I have SO many bookmarks and favorites that I never touch xD