Self-Portrait as David Lynch
By David Roderick
I wear a flower in my lapel. I like the sweetness of its lie in my nose. A carnation, the fool’s flower,
its heart a wilting empire. In late-night editing sessions, I imagine I’m planting flowers
in the sockets of eyes. Whatever helps me reach our rigor mortis, bound behind the wheel,
a little Bowie on the radio, maybe, at six frames per second, headlights plowing the dark’s divided road.
Cities grow to calcified castles. Fish groom the coral brains anchored in a tank’s purple volume.
I love the scratch of celluloid and a low-register noise, the hair of heat burning in a lit bulb.
Sometimes I swap my carnation for an orchid or rose. On-screen, there’s every hint
a man-child built the night. I read it once, by flashlight, as a kid— that Sleep and Death are brothers,
and they send our dreams through two gates, one made of horn, for the true dreams, and one made of tusk, for the false.














