#day 1326

[ilovejimindaily]

did you know? pantone’s colour of the year 2019 is jimin 

[jaina-chaosweaver-of-fate]

Some work done, Some progress made, Now my room, Has on-demand shade.

[haiku-every-day]

Bereft of ideas, /

yet full to the brim of thoughts, /

such is life’s ole curse. /

[rankohoshino]

Played on: November 5th, 2023 (UTC-5:00)

Current Neighbors

Felicity Gabi Kiki Chrissy Purrl Francine Pippy Mitzi Caroline Hazel

[intronautify]

Mastering Change

[onedoodleaday]

Day 1326

Draw a smashed window

[depressionist]

day 1326

i've never fully understood the concept of one's feelings/emotions just taking over. it's been about 7 months since my grandmother passed away and today is her birthday. the first time i fully cried at a funeral was during her's. so tonight is especially hard. for one it's her birthday. and for two it's christmas. my family always spends christmas night at my grandparents house with my huge extended family just talking and hanging out. and my grandmom always sat in this one specific spot on her couch. not realizing this tonight i sat where she always sat. after a few minutes it came back to me that i was where she was supposed to be. but she isn't there. i don't know why this struck me so deeply. but the tears just started streaming. i couldn't be in that house let alone that room. i left to smoke a cigarette outside to ease myself. unfortunately it didn't work. i couldn't control anything when my sister came outside and immediately hugged me. it was incredibly difficult. all i could say was "i just wanna go home". i couldn't take the emotions i was feeling. i knew if i'd stayed it would only get worse. so i left. walked home. and fortunately my dog somehow sensed how i was feeling and came right up and laid with me.

i'm doing better at the moment.

aaron lee