dazzlefly
replied to your post
“Trying to explain to people that my problem with turning 30 is not OMG...”
No, I understand. I'm 31 and I still feel this way. Always in debt, nothing to show. I'm a good wife, and a good daughter. I accept that... but I feel there is nothing left of the previous 30 years of my life to show what I have accomplished.
I’ve got a degree I don’t do anything with because I don’t have the courage. I can’t live on my own due to economics as well as anxiety issues. I can’t seem to bring myself to get over the fear of my own driving to get a driver’s license.
A girl I went to school with is running for County Commissioner and I’m happy when I can order a pizza without feeling like an idiot.
The worst part I think is when I try to explain things to people and I either get “Don’t judge yourself against other people” which is fine advice but sometimes hard to follow or I get people who are older then me who went off, had lives and came back to school or something go “Well, I’m in school and I’m 54″ or something like that and I’m just “But you have something to show for that time. You have kids (not that I personally want any), you had a job, you had relationships, experiences. You didn’t pause your existance till you got to 54 and went back to school.”
