re: rafe adler. ( @deadxeyed )
LOCATION: RESIDENTIAL STREET, going inside the adler residence.
BY THE TIME THAT SEBASTIAN IS DONE BEING QUESTIONED, he knows he has a million missed notifications before even checking his phone. but when he does manage to check it, he winces. aside from the typical texts of clarabelle bugging him to see if he’s okay, to the texts of christine telling him they’ll be scheduling meetings together regarding the story, to kurt asking if he came home last night, to — rafe.
PART OF HIM FEELS A WAVE OF GUILT WHEN HE SEES THE CALLS — his brain hates him enough of all times to bring up the talk they had just days ago ( “ don’t worry about me ! ” ) — and he knows the man’s probably wondering where he is. especially since sebastian always responds back quickly, prides himself on the fact.
INSTEAD OF HANDLING LITERALLY ANYTHING PROPERLY, sebastian finds himself standing outside rafe’s place, hands shaking so much still as he drops the key several times before finally unlocking the door, closing it and locking it behind him. it’s still empty, to be expected with rafe most likely being at work, and sebastian finds himself sitting down on the couch, nearly collapsing onto it.
EXHAUSTION HITS HIM, BUT HE STAYS AWAKE, UNABLE TO EVEN work up the strength to pick up his phone and text anyone back. he’s still holding onto the key, hand clenched tight around it to ground himself. but it’s not until he’s interrupted by the door opening again that he realises the day’s passed around him, him sitting in the dark.
HE FLINCHES WHEN THE LIGHT GETS TURNED ON, NOT BOTHERING to look up — already apologising, “ sorry, ” his voice is raw, having went from interview after interview to not speaking for what he can only assume has been hours now, “ i was going to text you, but i… you said that i could let myself in. ”