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Memories

Memories ( Dean x Reader)

Warning:/sadness/ heartache/ heartbreak/ tension/ depression/ pain

FYI I wrote this while I was watching the notebook lol

Hey guys sorry its been a while since i wrote, took  a year off and needed to get some ideas and was reading others work and it helped me to do better writing and put more of me in writing so , sorry its so long was just really was in the mood. 

Summary: Dean and you broke up many months ago You both decide it was best after everything that went on, but one night changed for the two of you.

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(Dean pov)

She was my everything. O client ask for a better girl. It was like that one movie she made me watch. Beauty and the beast. That movie was one of her favorites. I didn't understand why she told me it was our love story. Pssshhh me And love stories ha.

I didn't understand what she meant by it but later I knew what she was telling me. The beast was a mean person who was cursed and didn't have many friends or family. Until one day belle showed up and taught him how to live and learn to love again. I could see why she called me the beast. She was my belle. No matter where she was she always call me her beast and I would call her my belle.

Walking to to old bedroom we use to sleep in together. I turn on the light. So empty and quiet her stuff is gone and the room feels cold and lifeless. Sighing to myself I lay down on the bed. Placing my head on the pillow. The sweet smell still lingers on the pillows. That sweet scented lavender honey mixture she loved. Closing my eyes for a few seconds it feels like she still here.

Few hours later I slowly wale up. Sam wasn't home yet so I decided to get dinner ready. As I started getting out of bed I noticed something odd. The book shelf that was near my bed had some kinda of box.

I reached over to the side pulling it towards me. Taking into my hands. I notice it had belong to (y/n). It wasn't just any box it was one of those chinese boxes she tried to get me interested in(fyi my dad has these when I was kind I loved them so much )

Trying for about ten minutes I was about to give up when I slid one more piece and it popped right open. Placing the box down on the bed I remove the two items from the box .

As I remove the items from the box I find a picture and a letter. i Uncrumpled the picture. It was from when me and (y/n) met for the first time. She was so beautiful and she was so perfect, Moving my finger across the picture. My eyes start to well up. Sniffing a little bit, As I put the picture down I find a note. Opening the note.

August 12. 2013

Dear, Dean

I have had to write this note about 100 times, im not even sure how I am gonna give this to you or maybe send it, ummm. Dean there is so much I wanna tell you but I am not sure how the words can come out. Dean I know life hasnt been easy for you and sam. I know you try to play this tough guy but i know deep down your afraid but its okay. Its okay to someone in. I know i know i have my own issues that i have to slove but Hey we are a team.

He laughs a bit. Runnin his finger down the letter. Few droplets start falling on his face. He finishes reading.

'Dean i hope you know that no matter what happends in life or even in choas times you will always be my beast and i will always be your Belle.

I love you dean more then you know.

Love (y/n)

Dean rubs his hand over his face sighs to himself and sets the paper down. Looking one more time at the picture. Something clicks in his head. He grabs his keys and heads out to find you and tell you he needs you.

Driving for a few hours i decided to stop a motel. I called sam letting him know i was okay. He gave me information on (y/n) .i needed to see her .

Putting my key into the lock of my room. Opening up the room had a very errie look to it. Walls painted like a yellow vomit with a few chipped paint. Walking in i set my bag down on the bed.a part of me wanted to just say fuck it and go back home she wouldnt wanna talk to me.. what could i say to her. A millon thoughts running in my head. I decided to just relax and try to call her. Making my way to thw bathroom when my phone lit up.i grab my phone before i could answer it was (y/n) number lighting up. I quickly answered it.

'(Y/n) i said with a hushed whispear

'dean' she says with a quite sleepy voice.

'Umm hi" i can hear the nervous way of her talking.

'Where are you' she ask me.

'Im in georgia just needed sometime and a vacation"

''IS sam with you'

'Nope just me'

I could hear the nervouseness in her voice. My thoughs were running a millon times fast. I could hear the movement of.my heart muscles beatting so fast it was like it was gonna fault out. For a few minutes there was nothing but silence.

'Is everything alright are you okay? Do you need me to come-

"No sam okay everything fine" i say with a bit of a laugh.

"I just needed time to think and gwt my thoughts in order. I say scratching under my chin.

“Hmmm dean Winchester traveling without his brother  wow sounds very serious” you say with a small chuckle .

'I got the letter you wrote me on the first night we met' i say breathing slowly,

I hear a small laugh on the other end.

'Oh that letter yeah i meant to give it to you but i guess i never did. I rewrote that letter like over a thousand times. It was when i wanted to tell you instead of face 

Remember to let her into your heart

Then you can start to make it better 

I close my eyes and listen to her soothing voice

You were made to go out and get her

The minute you let her under your skin

Then you begin to make it better

Hey Jude, don't be afraid

You were made to go out and get her

The minute you let her under your skin

Then you begin to make it better

a tear drop falls from my eye, Trying my best to stay strong and not given in, I remember that song, I would sing it  to her when she was sad or when she needed a friend. My heart started to beat more and more it, I was scared it was gonna fall out of my body.

And anytime you feel the pain

Hey Jude, refrain

Don't carry the world upon your shoulders

For well you know that it's a fool

Who plays it cool

By making his world a little colder

Na-na-na, na, na

Na-na-na, na

“Dean” You say as tears fall down your face, Trying you best not to break down in front of him. you breath in then out,

“Yes baby” I say 

“I miss you” You say trying bot to breakdown and wantng him to come find you and just hold you until you feel whole again.

“what happened between us (y/n)” We use to talk about everything and anything and even when we couldn't  talk we just be there. Dean says breathing softly.

“i think we just stop fighting for each other and just didn't care anymore “ You sit down at the kitchen table,

“i  think everything changed once you went to hell and you became a different person it was like no matter how hard i fought myself to stay with you in the end i just couldn't do it anymore  Breathing and sighing a bit,

I swallow a huge lump in throat.tears falling down my face and brushing them away with my face.

“(y/n) Im so sorry i should have never put you through what i did. i wasn't even thinking of your safety or was thinking about you. Dean says rubbing his neck.

“Dean it wasn't your fault you had so much going on and you had to do what was best for you” 

“MY JOB WAS TO BE THERE FOR YOU KEEP YOU SAFE KEEP YOU OUTTA HARMS WAY .  Dean says crying.

“Dean” You say with a whispear.

“ Never In a million years did i think having this life would make things seem less crazy but the one thing in my life that was normal and happiness was you”

“after we broke up nothing felt right everything just seemed like i was living in a nightmare and i didn't wanna  wake up” Dean says pulling out a tiny small box with gold writing.

“No matter how many bars i went or drinks i had i cloud not stop  thinking about you” A part of me wanted to find you and bring you back here and try again.” but i knew I cloud not  be that guy i once way. 

“Hell changed me in a way i cant explain so many things so many emotion. so much horrible things i cant even put into words princess” Dean says shaking his head and tears falling down  his face.

you can feel the pain in deans voice, you can hear him crying and trying his best to stay so long. You knew he had been struggling and you knew he wasn't the same. A part of you blamed yourself for why you and dean fell apart, Hearing the man you love trying this best not to fall to pieces you cant help but feel your heart ripping into two.

"baby I need to know one thing and please tell me' you can hear the pain and sadness in his voice.

"what dean" you say with a hush of your voice.

"I need to see you. I need to feel you with me. All I wanna do is hold you in my arms just hear the you laugh .

"dean" you know you needed dean touch you needed to see him so bad but you didn't know if you let him back in would you go back to normal or would you try to fix it.

"dean" you sigh closing your eyes and breathing deeply.

"I ___ phone goes dead'(y/n(yn)

Dean throws the phone on the bed

"dean dean" she about to call him back when she looks up to see the one man she fears.

"hello(y/n) we meet again soon everything goes black.

"put her in the car come on boys we have a play date"

What do you guys think I may make a second one not sure. I know this isn't my best but I'll be working more on my writting so bye ;)

[borntodie6x]

Jensen Ackles. The man with the fanfiction green eyes and freckles that make up constellations.

I mean look at him:

Absolute beauty

Oh my-

Hello? Yes. 911?

Holy mother of-

No you're not.

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Bonus: Misha fucking Collins.

[spnsmile]

Castiel a hundred x100% done with Dean's sh!t (14x18)

[apple-pie-with-destiel-blog]

I hope your freakin' apple pie was worth it (on Wattpad) http://my.w.tt/UiNb/wTA1BxrivC This is yet another Bakery fanfic but with a twist. Dean loves apple pie but the only bakery in the neighbourhood only sells meat pies. Cas works at the best (and only) bakery in town. Cas loves meat pies and is always baking them but when a certain green eyed man comes to town everything changes.

[borntodie6x]

10×22 14×15

Can we talk about these two moments? When I was watching the Sam and Castiel fight scene and I started to notice the differences.

Cas doesn't fight Dean. Stating multiple times he doesn't want to hurt him.

In the Sam fight he actually flipped that bitch.

When he was trying to snap Dean out of it all he had to do was say his name, hold onto his hand, and Dean snapped out of it.

The Sam fight is much more different. Cas had to use the family as a way of getting through to him. Stating Jack, Dean, and the hunters they lost.

Cas' face when he sees the blade from Demon Dean vs. Sam are so completely different.

The first is a face of a broken man who did nothing to fight back and is losing the man he loves. You can see the clear heartbreak across his face and it kills me

The second made me laugh a little when I first saw the episode because he's basically saying 'fucking Winchesters' with just a look.

I saw alot of people upset that it takes away from the Destiel scene and at first I was too but after I saw the differences it only made me ship it harder.

This was all over the place but this show continues to blow me away and I'm not ready for it to end.

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[borntodie6x]

You know what I love about Sam and Dean??

The fact that Sam is all "Dean, yes, I read books. You know? The ones without pictures?"

Dean just kinda-

And Sam's just-

I've really had enough of your shit Dean.

BUT THEN.

We have Jensen and Jared.

Jared "I look for pictures in my own script" Padalecki.

And Jensen "my best friend is a hyper active child with a wife and kids but I love the big idiot" Ackles.

[borntodie6x]

12x09 "First Blood"

Recently I've found that I thoroughly enjoy discussing scenes that I appreciate so here we go.

The episode when the boys are put in solitary confinement for a month and a half after banishing Lucifer from the president's body is one of my favorite episodes. From the gore, to the boys being badass, to Cas struggling to hunt, the final heart breaking scene, all of it was just amazingly put together.

Let's start towards the end.

The boys find a way to escape and the government comes after them in the forest. Creating one of the sexiest, most badass scenes ever.

I have probably watched this scene over 20 times. I love seeing the boys in action and kicking ass. These government officials are in on something they have no comprehension of and have just kept Sam and Dean in this facility for over a month. They have no idea what they've run into.

This leads into, in my personal opinion, the best part in this episode.

You can't run forever. You are trapped out here.

Insert Dean's smug little smirk here (seriously tumblr let me upload more pictures)

Well, what we have here is a failure to communicate.

Cause' we are not trapped out here with you.

Seriously. Who in their right mind didn't love this scene? When Sam cocks the gun after Dean finishes his sentence I found myself both scared and turned on. (Mostly turned on)

Now, I could go on and on about just this scene but there are other scenes that just bring the whole episode together.

After the boys capture and kick every highly trained military persons ass, mind you this is just two boys and they absolutely Fuck. Shit. Up.

They have both detectives captured and by now these men have realized they're not dealing with normal (hehe) guys. So of course they ask the most infamous question. Who are you?

To which I answered: Fuck yea you are.

After the boys find their way out we quickly learn just how they faked their deaths and of course, the Winchesters escape death once again thanks to our pal Cas who proceeded to kill the reaper Billie who came to collect a Winchester. Mary of course sacrifices herself.

Writers of course then had to rip my heart out with the following scene that made me cry more times then I care to admit.

Cas really does love these humans and seeing how fast things fell apart in the hunting business when they disappeared. He did what he knew had to be done. No matter the consequences, the world needs the Winchesters.

In conclusion this was one of their best episodes.

It had me fifty different types of fucked up and I had to sit in silence after watching it to even comprehend what had just taken place. Then proceeded to watch it over.

Thanks for coming along on this mess of a post that I felt was necessary. If you stayed till the end-

Here's Dean and his husband buddy.