How does one craft an appropriate response to a situation that has left one at an informational disadvantage?
I suppose I will just hold on to the benefit of the doubt, because not knowing why you suddenly blocked me out of your life will always haunt me now... it has been so painful, yet nothing hurt me more knowing it was a possibility that I might have hurt you that much.
All that matters now though is for you to know that I have always loved and appreciated so many things about you:
Like the pure and simple way we’ve always held each other in high esteem. Our friendship was like unwrapping a gift… unexpected, but wholly welcomed and delightful. I had come to know you as someone incredibly thoughtful, respectful, and kind.
You are principled to the point of forgoing the chance to visit a Stranger Things sim because only membership to a certain swinger club would allow it. You walk the talk in your stance against pixel-sex — it just doesn’t do it for us, and we see it the same way. Do you know how rare it is to find someone in-world who thinks the same? You are such a keeper; you make me feel safe, and I will always admire and be grateful about you for that.
The way I can always imagine the sparkle in your eyes and the excitement in your voice when you geek out over spaceships and synths — it makes me happy to see you enjoy the things you enjoy, and I feel honored when you invite me into your world. You appreciate a variety of subjects that are mostly to do with giving value or beauty to life and are deeply knowledgeable in what constitutes a good ol’ diner, heh. With you, there was always something new to learn.
I love the fact that you have such a good eye for anything. Your character and self-awareness manifests in the effort you put into our shared virtual experience, and that is so attractive to me.
The fact that you acknowledge where I come from and know how to cook adobo!
...The way you call me “Han”, and the affection I feel when you do.
The fact that we share the same values, and the same tastes — yes, even down to the specific iPhone model we both own and our reasons for keeping them this long, lol.
But you know what my favorite part is about us?
That we made such a damn good team. SL reached its zenith when it became an effortless way to express ourselves; from building and creating together to finding or using said spaces to just love on each other. You said it best when you once said that the home we built was “like a love letter that we wrote cooperatively,” and I couldn’t agree more.
We often talked about how much of idealists we were. I just hope that, for you, it was never to the point where there would not be space for grace... but I’ll always cherish the connection we had; it was rare and special and unique.
I hope, at this moment, that you keep living the part of your book that’s “Paradise Regained”. I’ll have to learn to live with the fact that you most likely made a choice for a better life that doesn’t include me... and I may never understand why you did what you did, but know that I think of you, pray for you often, and that there will always be an ache in my heart for you.
Love,
your Han.
